My love for you is complicated.
Sometimes you make me so aggravated,
while other times I'm just fascinated.

You are always so close to me.
They make me wish we could just be free
and from this world, we flee.

It's as if you make me want to want you.
I have no clue
what to do.

Just you are my one and only
Even if you make me feel so lonely.
But is our love just phony?

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Our love can never be
No matter how dearly you love me
Others have no clue
Of how empty I feel without you

You'll forever be the Juliet to my Romeo
Always we shall meet up in that small one bedroom studio
Our love is greater than the gods
Maybe it can one day defeat all odds

But alas for now it's hidden
For now our love is forbidden

The day is green
And these chemicals are making me feel romantic.
I’m watching the children blink their eyes 182 times
A minute while the pilots of twenty one planes pass by.
The boys have fallen,
There has been a panic at some sorta disco
And the world is at the lowest of all times.

I strum this guitar
In a methodical way
Like you did my heart

I don't mean to brag but
My friends are the absolute best
They'll beat the crap out of the person to hurt you
They'll protect you from the storm that is life
They'll make you smile when you just wanna cry
They'll give you that one thing you always wanted just for the hell of it
They'll get your fav author to send you a letter and a bunch of autographed stuff
They'll listen to you go on and on about your endless crushes
They'll set you up with someone
They'll allow you to go to your house whenever
They'll take your apple and do some weird stuff with it
They'll listen when you just need to vent
They'll love you unconditionally when you hate yourself
They'll hold you closer when you push them away

My friends are the family I never got

Kiss her.
Slowly, take your time, there’s no place you’d rather be.
Kiss her but not like you’re waiting for something else, like your hands beneath her shirt or her skirt or tangled up in her bra straps.
Nothing like that.
Kiss her like you’ve forgotten any other mouth that your mouth has ever touched.
Kiss her with a curious childish delight.
Laugh into her mouth, inhale her sighs.
Kiss her until she moans.
Kiss her with her face in your hands.
Or your hands in her hair.
Or pulling her closer at the waist.
Kiss her like you want to take her dancing.
Like you want to spin her into an open arena and watch her look at you like you’re the brightest thing she’s ever seen.
Kiss her like she’s the brightest thing you’ve ever seen.
Take your time.
Kiss her like the first and only piece of chocolate you’re ever going to taste.
Kiss her until she forgets how to count.
Kiss her stupid.
Kiss her silent.
Come away, ask her what 2+2 is and listen to her say your name in answer.

One cuts, two cuts, three cuts, four
You don't know what to do anymore.
Five cuts, six cuts, seven cuts, eight
Stop yourself before it's too late.
Ninth cut, tenth cut, eleventh twelfth
Put the blade back on the shelf.
Thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen
You don't know how much you mean.
Seventeen cuts, eighteen cuts, nineteen cuts, then twenty
You don't need anymore, you already have plenty.

We're all just suicidal people
Telling others not to die.

I wish NYC had more stars so I could compare them to how dim they are to your eyes.

I swear to god I'm done.
I'm done being sad
because you can't love me like I love you.
I'm done with you making me feel like dog ****.
I'm done like Shantanu.

I'm starting to be happy.
I'm starting to look for my own happiness.
I'm starting to be accept being alone.
I'm starting to not fall in love so easily.
After all, there's always Netflix, food and a warm bed.

It's a dark and lonely place in here
Left with only ourselves
We imagine the worst
Some know that there is a better life outside
But continue to stay
Maybe it's because if you stay long enough
You get used to it
The darkness
The loneliness
It's the only thing we've ever known.

Others have the courage
They leave
Those who remain look up to them
For they have done what we all hope to do one day

For now I'll stay in here
For now I'm too scared
For now I'll stay in this closet

I'll Be Alone  Now
Daydreaming of the Future
"Ain't It Fun  Moving On?"
They'll ask.
But I haven't moved on.

It was some Holiday when we last talked.
You called me an Anklebiter
And I told you to Grow Up
You told me that I was just another One of Those Crazy Girls
But
I'm Not Angry Anymore
I'd just Hate to See Your Heart Break

This is Proof that
I'm Still Into You.
This song is my Last Hope.

Every love poem I read
Reminds me a little of you.

The way your eyes twinkle
The way your smile makes me incredibly clumsy

The way my heart races
The way I keep waiting for you to reply

These love poems are puzzle pieces
That form you when put together.

I'm scarred
By the childhood I never had
By the love and care I never got
By the love that was unrequited
By the hurt I felt
By the pain in my heart
By the emptiness in my soul
By the lack of happiness
And abundance of sadness
By the blade in my hand
By you.

She's an American beauty. I'm an American ******.
My discothèque, Juliet teenage dream.
You are my sunrise. Even in the middle of the night.
My stomach screams just when I look at you.
I dreamt about you nearly every night this week.
I think I want you more than want. And no I need you more than need
I only wanna be with you.

For you I'd bleed myself dry, For you I'd bleed myself dry.
Why can't you want me like the other boys do? They stare at me while I stare at you.
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia. And forget about the stupid little things.

I'm a walking travesty but I'm smiling at everything.