I want to run to you, I want you to hold me and tell me it will be okay.
When I am in your arms I can escape the pain and the hurt of the world.
When I am being held by you the darkness in my life fades away and I can see light again.

Since you have been gone, all I see is the darkness creeping back.
I need you to save me from the demons that hide in the overwhelming darkness.

Whenever I think about you, I can't breath.
Whenever someone says your name, a little ball of pain shows up in my stomach.
Whenever I see your face, I die a little inside. It hurts to see you happy without me.
Whenever I hear your voice, I just want to run to you and have you hold me.

Mother oh mother,
When may I go?

Mother oh mother,
I'm locked all alone

Mother oh mother,
Why won't you unlock me?

Mother oh mother,
I'm dying inside

Mother oh mother,
When can I be free?

Mother oh mother,
You aren't my mother

Mother oh mother,
You're the witch in the tower

Witch oh witch
Why keep me here?

Witch oh witch,
Who are you really?

Witch oh witch,
I just realized--
You're me

Me oh me,
Why can't I be free?

The pain, the anger, the guilt, the crying, the emptiness, and the loneliness doesn't ever go away. The memories will always be stuck in my head. So I wrap the rope just a little tighter every time I remember and then I kick the chair over, close my eyes and forget everything for a split second, because I'd rather die from a rope around my neck than from my pain and misery.

The worst part
Isn't the pain
Though it hurts

The worst part
Isn't the sadness
Though that's horrible

No,
The worst part
Is the emptiness

That feeling
When you don't see the step
And you fall down

When you try to sit down
And someone's moved the chair

When you reach for support
Only to find it's abandoned you

That is the worst part
Of saying goodbye

You went on your fishing trip
Caught a big one this time,
You said.
This one's a bit heavy,
Weighed down.
With a sharp tug on the pole,
You finally retrieved your catch.
Well, what is it?,
You asked.
You held something in your hand
Pulsing and black.
Whatever it is,
It's not worth it.
You threw it back into the water,
Back into the dark depths.
Let's keep on fishing.
I wanna catch a big bass.

They say there's plenty of fish in the sea
But you didn't even notice,
When you caught my heart.
Sure,
It was beaten
Almost unrecognizable.
But it only took you a second,
To judge my darkness
As impairment,
And toss me back to a personal hell
You reeled in my heart,
And you didn't even know.

I'm sorry I can't be
**The catch of the day.

i miss you
     and everything we talked about.
i miss you
     and everything we were.
i miss you
     and everything you said to me.
i miss you
     and the way you said my name.
i miss you
     and the way you laughed at my stupid jokes.
i miss you
     and your smile.
i miss you
     and how you'd call me at midnight because you knew i was awake.
i miss you
     and the way you said, "i love you" before you'd say goodbye.
i miss you
     and your laugh.
i miss you
     and everything you promised.
i miss you
     and all of our inside jokes.
i miss you
     and how you made me feel.
i miss you
     and how happy you made me.
but most of all
i
     miss
               you.


-n.a.