Unexpected warmth
So lost yet so found
Will you join me in my cloudy paradise?
Just for a while...
It won't take long.

Fingers fiddling
Nerve-wrecking
Heart racing
Risking all that I've got
In that very moment

That's what it is

He reads her like an open book
Her words clear as day
He understood every content
There was nothing she needed to say

People cry and yell
About how their lives are hell
We watch and listen
Silent and still

People scream in my ear
Telling me what to do
I'm not stupid
But I choose to know you

People ramble about my differences
Voiced nonstop about yours
We are foolish, they said
They don't understand

People tell tales
Of our lives in different ways
But they don't know you

*Only you know me
And I know you

You knew me
Like how you knew those little things
The dynamics of the world
The itsy bitsy twirls

You knew me
Like how you knew the stars
How they would align spectacularly
Keeping the moon company

You knew me
Like how you knew words
Churning rhymes and stories
Lines so melodious to the heart

You know me**
Almost like telepathy
As you sing my favourite songs
And draw the views I love

The lights were tinted pink...
Her body brazenly smashed against the wall
His hands all over her
But he was just *one of those other guys...

Her mind a blank sheet of paper
Merely awaiting the pay check at the end
She said words she didn't want to say
She did things she didn't like to do

The door slammed shut as he left
And tears rolled down her abused cheeks
Her phone buzzed one time
His name beautifully popped up on the screen

"I'm at the door."

The lights were tinted pink....*
As she let him in
He held her tight in his arms
Whispering gently

"Let's pack your bags. You're leaving with me."

The pounding in my head
Beats a little too loudly
Unable to fall asleep
Yet so sleepy

Breathlessness
Laying in bed
It's your lullaby
That's pounding in my head

Beaten to a pulp
Under the blazing sun
Then the twilight brings
A different melody
To soothe the burns
We are bent, not broken
The moon hums a tune
Cradling the quiet crooked souls...

Hands extended
Love lengthened
Multiple opportunities
Laughters and discussions

Irresistible desires
Crowded minds
Hands that cannot let go
Love that refuses to end

comfort and solace
in the seemingly endless night
I stay wide awake
reluctantly awaiting daylight

harmony of silence
my home of wonders
I stay wide awake
to live in the life I wanted

your hand to hold
and your kiss I miss
your hugs my shield
your love my everything

Lost, exhausted and afraid
She was enticed with the idea of dancing with devils  
But they pulled her off the ledge
And now she is in her own spotlight
Ready to dance to her own rhythm of life

Away and detached
Free with no worries
I smiled for you
But you ruined it for me

I am not alone
I am isolated
I am not lonely
I am just separated

Why let the world ascend?
When it's going to descend anyway...

Why lay out tales of happiness?
When they are going to twist into agony...

Why create dreams?
When it's just nightmares that haunt after...

Why make all those efforts?
When they are going to seem like pretence?

Why make promises?
When they just keep getting broken...

Why have a universe?
When it's filled with horror of beings...

Stop smiling at me
If you don't mean it...

Stop giving me everything
*If you are just going to take it away from me...

Give me a word
Write me a prompt
See what I may do with it
Let's see where it goes

Fulfilment ahead I hope
Smiles formed behind keyboards
Be a part of my poetry
Join me in my rhythmic songs

Share with me your little thoughts
Another round of a brainstorm
Let's make a bond

In the depths
Under layers of a dilemma
Making a decision
Amidst questionable doubts

Holding on
With all I've got
Tugging along
With all I have

Come what may
Storms and hurricanes
Earthquakes and disasters
Even an apocalypse

Grant me that allowance
To fight
Like the warrior you know me to be
I'm ready for a war
A war unexpected

*For there is a place
I long to be...
That...


Haven


In which I have set my eyes upon...

we** are everything but broken
and
we are nothing but beautiful

She scoffed at the words
That appeared on the screen
How it was ridiculous
That people were not allowed to love another being

"It's about two people who weren't meant to fall in love, but did."
He whispered

She froze
And turned
To see him staring right at her
The look in his eyes
Soft and sweet
Like he was tearing
Yet did not want her to see

"So... who is your equal?"
He asked
Before giving her a little kiss

And she smiled, gladly receiving it
With a mutual understanding

The lights were tinted pink...
Her heels knocked over messily across the floor
Her skimpy dress thrown at the tail of the bed
Her bare body revealing wild prints

She hugged her knees to her chest
A cigarette in her fingers
Her long hair frizzled and tangled
And she watched as he started to stir

She pushed herself off the bed
Sloppily, she stumbled to the bathroom
But he caught her in his arms
Her phone started to buzz with random names

"Let go."

The lights were tinted pink...*
*As he released her
Back into the wild
Where she knew and he thought she belonged
In the most crazy and wrecked nights

Wonders of the future, day and night
Am I alright?
Why do I smile, when all I feel is emptiness within?
I don’t get it
How exactly did I lose my way
In the midst of all this

Fell from the heavens
Wings of white turned black
The other half remains pure original
Halo gone, blonde no more
Just soft brown locks
Blue hues lost
Now a hazel tint

Almost human
But what does that mean?
To be
Human...?

Out from a mother’s womb, a little baby approaches
A toddler you become, then grow into a young child
You have your first crush, first examination and first step into pain
You get bullied at school but that’s okay

A reckless teenager, soon to fall in love for the first time
A shattered heart left for you
All alone
Running along in search of a cure
But only rejections and disappointments found you
There will be nothing you can do

This isn't the end
It is a fresh start
And you will be the author
For your own story

*The Little Fallen Angel

Speak your mind
If you must
We will listen
In us, you can trust

Share your secrets
It will be safe with us
It's alright
Let your tears fall down

Please

*It's menacing
It's mean
It's poisonous and crazy
But I mean it this time

I'll keep myself behind bars
Protected within my own walls...

the streets flooded with busy people
laughters and giggles filled the day
endless fun awaiting
this is my holiday

he creeps into my life nonetheless
no matter where I go
in my mind he wanders
in the one place we know
he stays
like it's our holiday

your eyes were red
blood shot
you looked at me
but all I could do was panic

you shut your eyes
continued your rest
but blood shot remained in my mind
and all I could do was worry

Once again
An arm was extended
It was welcoming
Until I saw his face...

Majestic horns and hollow eye sockets
Bones and sharp teeth
He grinned with a certain growl
His claws pulling me in

The murderous music plays...
As I hesitate
I am frozen still
It was just him and me...
In the darkest ballroom

*And I am
Once again
Being enticed
To dance with the devil

What is love
If it was never told
Told to the person
You dearly want to hold

What is love
If it could never be
Be the dream you pursue everyday
Even when you are asleep

What is love
If it was never felt
Feeling like butterflies
And tingles of joy

What is love*
If it was never known
Known to be the closest thing to magic
A belief we hold close

*Love could be a million things
And it comes in many different forms
And the type I know
Is keeping that wonderful person
In your heart
Safe and protected
Feeling that person's happiness...


                                   ...Even if they will never be yours

Her world was perfect
She had nothing to lose
But she lost her footing
She fell through the loops

Millions of wasted
Millions of sigh
Thousands of crying
The days went by

She started to scream
They came to haunt
She was losing her mind
Be it dusk or dawn

Uncover her weakness
Uncover her whole
Make sure she falls
Through every hole

Dozen of screams
Dozen of woes
*Help me please
Don't leave me alone

It was the motion in the void
The soothing silence in still air
The excitement in a solitude
The party in zombie town...

....when you existed in my life

the cool breeze would set in
take comfort in a weather like this
raindrops falling like rapid heartbeats
mind set at ease

but the cool breeze set in weird
no comfort in a weather like this
the raindrops raised my anxiety
there is only mess in me

you know it's impactful
because it's wonderful
you know it's unforgettable
because it's untouchable

Today
The fight seemed stronger
Like every other day
It happens

Today
The war seemed more chaotic
Like every other week
The explosions strengthen

Today
My heart misses you a little more
Like every other hour

*Can I say something?
I miss you so much

I did not know
Between right and wrong
I only knew
I needed that gamble

I did not know
How hard I was going to fall
I only knew
I was going to give my all

I did not know
If the pain was worth it
I only knew
It would stop hurting eventually

I did not know
How to stop this feeling
I only know
That it is constantly growing