do i ever cross your mind?
do i ever cross on your every eyesight?
does that bedsheet still make you blind?
does my last phrase stuck still in your every fight?

does the eleven-eleven thing still you be wished?
every countdown you thought you could fix
3, 2, 1, your heartbeat stopped in the same doorway you pleased
does her love give you the same feels?

been a rush, my fault
for the sake of a hush, it had to be yours
as taylor said you would come back to me
sure thing, it couldn't be a future tense

barely made it
a bit more space and faith
but solely, again, honey,
i dodged the warning;
determining a peace for two
would never be a dream come true

terasa sesak dalam benak
saat kata 'sampai jumpa' tak terelak

terasa sedih dalam raga
ketika berhenti saling menjaga

akan terasa siksa dalam kalbu
saat nanti tiba rasa rindu yang menyerbu

kawan,
ingatlah, jumpa ini takkan terlupa
segala hal yang telah ditempa
segala hal yang berujung nestapa
semua insan yang telah menjadi siapa-siapa
takkan bisa terlupa

candaan
berhasil mencairkan
ujian
berhasil menguatkan
kebencian
hilang dalam percakapan
kesedihan
hilang dalam dekapan

kawan,
jangan sesali jumpa ini
isak tangis kini
jangan biarkan membebani

kawan,
masa depan menanti
impian tak mungkin berhenti
si pelerai jumpa memang tak punya hati
namun, jangan berkecil hati
percayalah kita kan berjumpa lagi nanti
semesta pasti mengerti
bahwa ini adalah bagian dari rencana si takdir pasti
mempertemukan
lantas
memisahkan

tetapi tenang
rencana si takdir yang dicanang
takkan dibuatnya kita terus berlinang

terima kasih kepada semua insan
yang berpapasan
yang telah menjadi panduan
yang telah memberi acuan
yang telah berlisan
merajut angan

i have my own man-figure
my own man figure

i believe everybody has it too

three letter,
makes world better
dad

my dad is really a superhero
i bet the avengers can't even beat him

he is so strong
don't need muscle,
just conceptacle

he is a real keeper too
he keeps me from the evilish
he keeps me from starving
he keeps me from bad dreams
and he keeps his tears
from running down his cheeks
and he does it all invisibly
silently

he is really great, isn't he?

he is a clown
for my own

he is the annoying too
sometimes

he doesnt talk much
but i still love him anyway

no no no
you deserve better too
'i love you' seems not enough
to say i love you,
dad

we trapped in these four walls
in the moment of eye-rolls

we trapped in each others' skin
wondering what other place could we've been

we forged into one vessel
seems like we were in a carousel

we love like a little kid
that always want a bid

oh, man! oh, man! oh, man!
what is so special about moon?
just a brightly-shines-gray-round
when night falls.
just a place where there is a set of
reflected staring eyes of the giving up,
hopeful, and the wanderer ones.

oh, man! oh, man! oh, man!
who dial the noon?

"me" i said.

oh, man! oh, man! oh, man!
i prefer neptune

"what's this time?" he asked.

i prefer neptune.
i like neptune.

might be can't make the light by itself.
not like the moon.

and that's why i always say
"love you to neptune and back"

but take me to neptune,
we might never come back. forever.
we have endless time.
just like our stories.
it's a long flight.

but the moon
she can be our witness.
i'll tell her.
i would like her to tell
every particular story
of our journey to everything
that lives.

it's immortal.

i honestly feel so difficult
to write this
i don't know if this is
such a pep writings or
is this just me
forcing my mind
to fight all the insecurities
and deep sadness inside

we
we deserve everything in this life
all the little things

we deserve everything

those things that make us feel alive
make us happy
peace comes
all of the sudden

just believe in that
we will see better days
where we'll not feel
empty anymore
no more heartbreaks
no more promises
no insecurities

i'm not hypocriticalling myself

we are same
hear all of the happy songs
but your soul keeps playing
all of the sad songs

everything is fake
but i believe no more ache
in the future fact

just keep trying to
love
yourself
more
   more
     more
        the most

eye to eye then
I to I now

us then
ash now

it feels just a second ago
doesnt it?

we used to be magnets
now we are on a same pole

rejection
getting harsh
harsh

we used to be ←→
before →←

→magnets' law←

there is something
controlling us
or
is it just us
losing our fascination?

i woke up
5 am as usual
my mind was open slowly

i awoke
still the same
but
it was like
my eyes couldn't really open
was i still dreaming?
what did i dream about?
nothing

felt different
couldn't feel my feet
the feet that i used to walk you
step by step

couldn't touch my shoulders
the shoulders that you used to
fall back down

couldn't move my fingers
the fingers that you used to touch
and play

but wait

i could still lick my lips
that we used to kiss
imagined it could happen again

the sky turns grey
and then the patters
softly fall down
dampen my clothe
it feels so cold

stand between the unvailing decisions
stare at the old fool
cry for the unsure
stuck in this skittish

i know i should run
furthermost
unchain my soul
but
should i let this cracky heart
just fall onto miserable surface?