If only you knew
About how much pain I went through
Just to make you smile
Every once and a while

If only you knew
How much I wanted to leave
This desolate land but didn't
Because of you

If only you knew
About the noose manufactured
Out of every fiber in my heart
That gracefully swung

If only you knew
How much I loved you
Because you can't love yourself
Until you've loved somebody else

If only you knew
How much I miss you
Since you've gone off
With some other guy

If only you knew
That the heart-fiber noose
Wasn't meant to be alone
It needed someone too

If only you knew
How gracefully it swung
wrapped around
my neck

If only you knew**
That you were the only
One that could
Save *me

They told me to cry
However I could
And I said your name into the floor
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
You have many names
To me
And I said that one to the smooth wooden boards
Against my cheek.
I'm sorry
Is what I call you
At night before I go to sleep
And when I wake up in the morning.
All of your names can pull tears from me
But that one
Works the best.
Sometimes you are god
And sometimes you are lover
And sometimes you are the universe
In its vastness
Brighter than all the stars
But always I can call you
I'm sorry
And know that you will hear me.
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
Sign your name into my ribs
So that it may touch every breath I take.
They asked me to cry
And I cried.
And when I rose
Your name sank through my chest and into my stomach
Like a stone
And it is still there,
Cool and unyielding
But solid.

Do you ever think of me?
As you look with disgust
At your body
With a knife in your hand

Do you whisper my name
As nostalgia sets in
When you remember when I called you
The most beautiful girl I've ever seen?

Do you remember
anything
about
**me