When this madness first set in
It only made sense
To search out a good diagnostician
Trustingly sharing my story
With strangers with degrees
Quickly realizing no clinician  
Could fix what's alien me

I search for someone wise and trained
Instead I found myself slowly drowning
In a system of judgmental rain  
My very heart and soul an open subject
Sharing my uncommon delusions
Over and over explaining
My poetic conclusions

Yet those who have never ever lived a rhyme
Are prone to leave the unexplained behind
Who simply label you from a book
Quickly stop reading and give you that look
A book of broken soul’s
They write ya a prescription and send ya home
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What part of my mind
Holds this fragment
Of memory
This perfect moment
In time
As it surface's
In my dream
A six month old
Version of my
Adult daughter
Laughing with
Bright happy eyes

If only I could
Freeze this moment
Of time for eternity
Would that not be heaven?

Thawed from her icy stare
Her subjects gather
To bid repair

We were once golden
Amongst the evergreens
This energy of consciousness
Is an infectious fiend

Beckoning the call
Break free from the one
And beyond forgiveness
For all we have done

She sweeps across the open sea
To seal the final bet
But you better believe
There's still gold
   Amongst the evergreens yet...

An agreement of sort
nowhere before we begun
the promise of new days
in the setting of the suns

an internal pledge
a chosen vessel formed
fear sticks in the spoke
the riders has been warned

separation the grand illusion
a denial of the source
along comes a low resonation
from peace and love to war

realization of meaning sparks
a bright blazing torch
illuminating higher thoughts  
an agreement of sort
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Captured in a state of dread
There's no escaping The Walking Dead
Or Breaking Bad's **** perfection
A camera eye of moral deception

Our heroes are murdered yet still we watch
The vampires humanity was simply shut off
Prime time committed to bloodshed and crime
Nameless victims by screenplay design

Mad Men, House Of Lies, Shameless in fact
Gone are the shows with morals intact
Truth is, it's quite intriguing
Which in fact is the key
That allows the networks
To spread this disease...

High in the forest trees
Summer spirits
   Ride the breeze...
Timeless souls
Beneath they gather
Summer hearts
   Waxing fatter...
Summer romance
Nature's desire
All of her children
   Drawn to the fire...
Something else
Is about to bloom
Underneath
   An Autumn Moon...

This limited control
takes it tow
as we survey these paths
of all we know.

Circumstantial accidents
did you catch the subtle hint?

Did your thinking
leave you sinking
in a states of hell?
Smoking and drinking
old habits creeping
around the wishing well
…
This karmic wheel
is going to hold us fast,
if that’s the way
we’re going to act..

It's clear to me now
Everything beautiful
Belongs to you
Mine are but hazel eyes
Longing to be blue

It's like trying to breathe
Under the sea
Lucky for me
Even mermaids
Have needs

And so I hold
My subjective breath
And take my place
As second best...

So many losses
In our world
So many things
To lose
And so we hold
On tight for now
While time
Beats us
Black and blue...

I've been lying
I'm not really him....
I never go anywhere
But then again...(-;

Traveling takes courage
And this road is a crazy maze
No one ever just simply
Stops and just forever stays

But if you ever need
Or if in longing want
My love is alive
As an everglades swamp

Snakes, alligators
Catfish stew
I will love you
If that's cool!

Sorry I lied
The Traveler is real
But in the Everglades
Our truths get sealed

Below the bridge the river runs
It seems tomorrow never comes
But when it does how can it last
The awaited day shall come and pass...

Above the forest the watch-tower waits
For the fires of passion to lose their place
But mine is the hope of Angelic Prayer
That our tree of passion kindly be spared..

I’m not gonna
Wait for you
I know you been seeing someone new
  I’ll pack my traveling bag
Go for a ride
I’m not gonna let it get me this time

Just let you fade away
All the words you say
Turn the music up go for a ride
I’m not gonna let it get me this time

I don’t wanna be
Somebody’s fool
I’m not gonna beat up your new tool
I’m not gonna get drunk in spite of myself
I’m going to simply move on
To someone else.

Angry gods unworshipped and unknown
High up in heaven forgotten and alone
Resurrected in text, decreed as foes
**** the rituals that fed on our souls

Good deeds go undone under the sun
My prayers unspoken weigh a ton
Their hearts filled with vile disgust
Decomposed corpses, boils and pus

These unplanted seeds wither and rot
Pestilence and famine never stop
Songs once written of former glories
Greek in origin their ancient stories

Bored and restless in their continuum
Unprepared to give the bare minimum
Human-like attributes, they deviate from norm
Made in our image, distorted in our form...

Anger is a scary thing
Imagine being angry for year
Never knowing it was caused
from being insecure.

You were
easily enraged
Your daddy was drunk
Your mommy was late
an unfulfilled childhood
was your adolescence fate

Now that part of you
is still raw
And now you’re angry at us all!

But I still love you!
P.S
I wish I could’ve raised you with mine!

As the animal nature
Pulls me to your door
A hunger driven
By the sense
Of getting more
I knock a little louder
Let me in!
You know
I like to stop by
Every now and then
Tell him it's your papa
Send him out the back
Tell 'em you need cigarettes
To go get a couple packs
We can go somewhere else
If oh dummy just won't leave
Tell 'em your sister is waiting
Over at your brother Steve's
Cause you know my love
Animals have to feed
...
Inspired by the Animal Nature in me.

Within the embrace of love and grace
When breath and heart do merge
The genetic codes of God engage
A disenchanted spirit is purge

Heaven awaits your awaking
From this slumbering dream of chance
Life has so much more to offer
So when you hear the music play
Please... take some time to dance!


And so…
I composed your invitation
Within a rhyme of poetry
You're already halfway there
If you’re healthy and you’re free!

Invisibility is a matter of fact
Nonexistent substance lack
Objective when it stops you dead
Subjectively in your head

Invisible particles of matter
Nonexistent fables that flatter
Object as it breaches your being
Subjectivity can never be seen

Do you object to such a subject?

Faith is blind
To the fear of lines
That led our conscience here
Many will but I won't
Pretend the path is clear

Many of us know
Yet we'll never say
How long have our tongues
Been tied this way

Unwarranted
To keep us safe
Faith takes up
The empty space
Where dreams exceed
The absolutes
Subjectively tied
   To an objective truth...

Okay!
I agree
the earth is in
dire need
scared and blemishes
from sea to sea
a major facelift
would set the earth free
from the likes
of you and me!
Save the whales
save the trees
bring back paradise
bring back the bees
okay
I agree!

Subconsciously
It's already known
Enlightenment comes
When we're out getting ******

Yet for some reason
We insist on freewill
Rolling our own bones
Chasing those thrills

Eternally expanding
Entropy bound
Forever ordering
Another round!!!

Subconsciously
It's already known
Enlightenment comes
When we're out getting ******

Yet for some reason
We insist on freewill
Rolling our own bones
Chasing those thrills

Eternally expanding
Entropy bound
Forever ordering
Another round!!!

I will always feel your presence
Through these quantum
Ethereal waves
These strings they bind
Through our time lines
Beyond the conscious states

Countless questions
Reasoning why
Staggeringly suspect
Those subtle lies

It seems quite complicated
Yet it's as simplistic as can be
Along came a wind of change
And blew two spirits free
...

Lighten up
Unfold your dresser
And celebrate
Clothes on the floor
Half open drawers
I dare you to give
Your clothes to the poor

Open your fridge
What’s in the back
That green hairy thing
Growing out of that bag
Let’s leave it there and celebrate
Break out that ice cream and cake

Get some colour outside the lines
Break the patterns that confine
Say something no one else has
With uneven versus
Cut the chorus in half

True creativity awaits outside the rules
Of aestheticism

I don’t hate the nazis
nor their innocent children
I insist to confess..
And...
If you were led astray
I’d love you none the less!

I wouldn't want to see
a single Ukrainian nor Russian fall..
I hold no socially planted belief about the Chinese
I’m not afraid to love us all!

Look through my eyes
and see the world with love
Separation and hate
we can surely rise above!!!

Don't let
Yourself

Get in
The way

Of
Understanding

Others
...
...

I never met my (real) father
I wonder who he was
I never got to see
his face
Or ever shared
his love

Perhaps he was a Traveler
From a Royal Traveling line
Or just some old time poet
Forever lost in rhymes

The unspoken truths
Safely hid in lies
Strangely for some reason
I'm prone to speak in rhymes
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Computer stuck!!

Moving faster
Than perpetual motion
My awareness  jetlagged  
By cosmic gamma waves
Impure tainted toxic
Environments
A spirrowling array
Of wayward souls
Vibrating really low
Unfortunately

My witness
A sporadic blackhole
Blinking in and out of existence
My spirit a fragmented broken sky
A partial day and a long night


For tonight
I'll drink a beer
And live the lie
That this dream of life
Shall never die

+ t +
              Traveler

When the waves
Crash over the shore
I won't be there anymore
When the sun
Falls out of the sky
I'm gonna learn to fly

Upon the silver lining
Of a wandering cloud
I'm gonna write real loud
Across the midnight sky
It's time for me to fly

When the air and ground
Turn freezing cold
And you're worried
About your nose

I won't be there
To bring the blue skies back
I won't be there anymore...

Perhaps..
We came here to experience love
Because..
This is the only place love exist
Question is..
If so will we be able to take love with us when we go?

Perhaps this is the only place
where music exist
Angelic arrangements
cosmic gifts

Perhaps this is the only place where hate exist
The gravity of separatism causes platonic rifts

Time and space can exist anywhere?
Perhaps only here..

I love it here
and I won’t let go
Nor lose my connection
to love, music, time, space and soul!

Somewhere deep within
The chambers of forgotten love
She still lingers
Periodically subconsciously
She breaks free
She visits me in peaceful slumber
Unannounced and antiquated
To any short term
Thought or event of my daily resolve
She is a reminder of bad choices
Of a naive hungry heart...
Although no longer do I bleed
My mind opens wider realizing
She shall always be a part
Of who I am

Dreadful experiences
The weary heart holds
Traumatic memories
Cling to the soul
Holding them in
Who can let go?

I come not
Seeking empathy
My pain has
No room for grief

This constant
Emotional turmoil
Bleeding me
Flooding my thoughts
Disturbing my dreams
Leave me be plural
In this singular scheme
....


Traveler Tim

I'm not afraid
That's not why
I'm shaking
I just got off a hard night
of dreaming
I was running....Ya
...I'm unable to recall
Being chased perhaps
Down familiar halls
I can still feel your apathy
For all things life had done to me
My weapons stumble and stall
As hard as I try I can't **** at all
Lucky for you!
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I'm sorry but I should point out
I've grown beyond what they're
Going on about
All that gore, guts and glory
Reveals a wonderful
Impossible story


Between those lines of logic lost
Whispers a mantra
Of rational thought
Callings to light
The voice of reason
It's humanity
  That needs appeasing...

A groan of growth
The true love sigh
Eyes that stare
And wonder why

Behold the life
That's in your midst
Through your fingers
It all can slip

And bring you down
Next to me
See I have lost
Two maybe three

Like the dog
That's once been fed
I'll keep coming back
   Until I'm dead...

Even if you see
The whites of their eyes
I suggest you never shoot
A foolish person draws the blood
That stains their very youth

And even darker days await the one
Who betrays a friend
Unless somehow you’re dead inside
Your conscience will condemn

And sure, greener grass awaits
On the other side
But you’ll never enjoy a single day
When your life is but a lie....

But who am I to speak such wisdom
So sober and quite calm
When recklessly mind, body and soul
Is how I carry on...

Time stands still when dark days fall
I call to the gray sky, the clouds muffle my call
Come fill my cup with passion and precision
  Overflow me with magic from the old religion...

Take now this burden which weighs on my heart
This universe is one which makes us whole parts
Remove this illusion that we lack the power
To manipulate existence each moment devoured...

My spirit has been trapped, now dare to release
The will of the gods for those who believe
So grant me the power to change this tide
And remove this darkness from these tired eyes...

War is war
destruction and death!
Peace is peaceful
You can feel it
in your every step

Living in dugouts
Shell shocked retreats
Waiting for no more
then a certain defeat

Who deserves
to experience hell
upon this earth
where we all dwell?

Shall we pretend
and close our eyes
as the west continues
to sell their lies?

Peace is simple
beneath the covers
We just stop killing
each-other!

April came and with her hope
A little sunshine helps to cope
Her kiss sweetly soft caress
A heart frostbitten now be blessed

A simple smile of inward child
Takes the breath away
To calm the cold of bitterness
The Ides of March display

She comes to heed the mother’s call
Her air so fair and kind
April sings her early songs
Nature speaks her mind

Gypsy flowers peak their buds
Expose the coming season
Ducks and geese return at last
And life returns her reason

Persephone smiles the darkness to light
Yet I am but blinded by my own vice
Twas my greed which choked her dreams of youth
To ferment her innocence in sweet vermouth

I bear the warriors of battles lost
Greet them with warmth bitten by frost
And heroes who see the journey through
To the Elysian Fields where hope's renewed

I cage the souls whose just deserve
To feed the fires beneath the earth
Tormenting Demons with whips of flames
Wicked Witches Inflicting infinite pain

Who am I but that which has been written thus far
The God of the Netherworld, Lord of Brimstone and Fire
Yet more than that, I've become and so I am
So fear me not less thou be ******

Persephone smiles the darkness to light
For those who dare to stand and fight...

4/29/16
Bad Dreams

A traveler breaks down
On the side of the road
Perhaps a broken heart
Or a punch in the nose
Yet the trip must go on
He painstakingly knows

A traveler moves on
With the coming of spring
In the heat of the night
He escapes his bad dreams

A traveler breaks down
On the side of the road
Leaves his spaceship behind
  And heads off alone...

But it doesn’t need
A purpose to read
The natural structure
Is the mystery

A stanza where two minds melt
Certainly words of comfort and wealth

These thing only matter to us
Catch and ride the purposeful bus
Themes and memes of rolling streams
Sleepwalking the poetical dream

If I could only keep up with the train!

It doesn't matter who we are!
Let me tell you what we think!!
We believe it's insignificant
That our world is on the brink's

Burn the fossil fuel
Take the long way around
How many footprints
Have you laid down?

This was just
A quick reminder
To myself

Reminding me!
I'm no better
  Than anyone else...

This world taught me very well
How to survive in a prison cell
Retreating in a fleeting moment
From the heavy hand of life’s opponent
Throwing pennies in a well
Even wishes are for sale
And the universe holds a reward
For those who live beyond the sword
Yet beyond the sword remains a fist
To take a swing, who can resist
Whether right or wrong it’s never forgotten
It’s one big race of Johnny Rotten's
The eyes in the mirror would have their say
But I turned my head and walked away
The rage in our heart won’t be silenced
Even if we abstain from a life of violence...

These abstraction aren't my own
I was written in a poem

A muse of wonder delivered me
From the dregs of the ordinary

Wading through my encrypted jargon
Being subtlety construed beyond my margins

Behind the curtain
Oz stares on
As his creation fills the hollowed halls

Projecting larger then actual size
A poem can write us in to light!

Clumsy and a little off balance
Describes my love in motion  
Still my sacred lover archetype
Thrives in respectful devotion

In magical flowing throughs
The power of love
Is free of cost
Words cast spells that last
Love can be a fragile task

As the archetype unwinds
My love is refined
The unconditional begins to grow
Like a flower in the sun
Life has only just begun
True love is loving our roll!

There exist a reason
I have to believe
Things are how
They're supposed to be
Pain and pleasure
Heaven and Hell
Doing just fine
But not that well
.....
Ups and downs
Backs and forth
Comings and goings
Returning
To Source
....
The trip of a lifetime
In an endless sea
Yes I do believe there's a reason
For you and for me!

This is me
Starting over
And on my come back
I'll be bringing my "A" game
Stepping it up to match the impact
Of those of "you"
Constantly blowing my mind away
I cannot allow your furtherance of petty fame
Be it known and owned
You new kids are surly on a block
Be careful posting a bunch of slop
  Don't let your algorithms suddenly drop!
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Let’s slow it down now
Let’s think about it first
We all possess the power
To maintain at our worst
Our bestest is only average
According to the algorithms
Crashing upon the shores
Of an artificial opinions..