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The Unknown Mar 2017
Mama pulls up to the mailbox
You get out of the car
She drives up to the house
You'll check the mail and walk
Aren't you scared?
Of walking down the street alone
After all these years
of being seen the way you're seen
With your turban
How do you feel safe?
In a country where people believe you don't belong
Now, I get it
We look around
everyone is white
And you're so polite
And loving to everyone you meet
But you know
They might turn around at any time
saying go back to your country
go back, go back to where?
Maybe that's what you meant
when you told me
You'll never be white
I looked at my skin
of course
But you meant
You'll never be one of them
And you're nice
And they're nice
But the minute someone asks where you're from
It's us and them
Again
Maybe that's what you meant
Will I let it slide
if someone says something about what's on your head
Or will I say
that's my father
What if it's not words,
but a piercing gaze
how will we protect ourselves then?
If it's a policeman
What am I going to say?
You
have to face it
And you wish the universe could spare your children
That's what you meant
The Unknown Mar 2017
Don't make me get out of the car
Jolt me out of my dream
Pulled back by the heave in the brakes
It's the only time I'm not sure
if I'm supposed to be
Here
I just want to be, my love
pulled by the force of the car
And you
carrying me in a hammock over a river of grossness
Adding weight to my eyelids
I can't move
Safety to take for granted
that's what we all want
Safety to take for granted
And that we forget we have
The Unknown Mar 2017
We didn't say a word to each other
In the parked car
And for the first time in years
there was no tension in the silence
No, not bad
Neither of us mad
Neither of us constipated with words
No concerns
Peace
Peace even though you hurt me
Even though I hurt you
Recovered
Darling we hurt in silence
in the cracks of empty sound
Darling we heal in silence
The absence of pain is loud
Soft quintessence
Driving into the sunset
As if we just might hit it
I close my eyes
so safe that I could sleep
Moments
I'm only in one at a time
And I nest so deeply in each
that the past is
Erased
The Unknown Mar 2017
I used to feel obligated to make my pain worse
So he would notice
And stop saying that
But I’m not a mirror
Reflecting the bad side of him
I’m not a mirror
I’m a person

I’m a sponge
Forgiving
Absorbing
Accepting
Infinite
Cleansing
Bigger on the inside
The Unknown Mar 2017
I heard a dead leaf
scraping the concrete
I looked up
It was a flower
The Unknown Mar 2017
I leaned over
And it fell out of my belly button
And I could not lean back
You see,
The sky is pink and purple
And I made the clouds rain
Before the sun went down
A drip
A drop
It was raining in the desert
In this high hour
Indigo, darkening
My mother asked
"Will a rainbow come?"
I looked to the sunset
when the clouds had been milked
It's a rainbow enough for me
The Unknown Mar 2017
My bones weigh 20 pounds
Sifting in the rain
Is what it's like to realize
that's what I'll be one day
One day
I almost flocked to the door
Pulled
I followed the wind outside
Let it pull me
And realize that it's not strong enough
I can stand
Firm and unmoved
With bones
We were made to face this
Now, it can pull you
What does the wind know?
I forget
You must remind yourself to worry
He then stops talking when he sees
the presence in my mind
I am here
Hearing what you're saying
I'm not storing it for later
Now
My bones weigh 20 pounds
Sifting in the rain
My heart still beats a little faster
It wants to run away
I remind it, sweet love
you're not going anywhere
I am here
I am nowhere
but here
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