I was never a perfect partner
Ive been repeating that all over.
But please know that I try to be a good one.
Even though a large part of the trust is gone.
Ive been crazy the past few days.
Thinking of many different ways.
My heart has a difficulty of healing.
With the broken pieces, everyday Im dealing.
I wanted to isolate myself and see if I could heal.
But I cannot just leave you, coz ******* are real.
It is like I had to get cut to hold the sharp edge of the knife.
Coz I cannot let you go because you are my life.
Im sorry if I cannot forget about it now.
Im sorry if I remember it somehow.
My heart is still breaking and I dont what to do.
Maybe only time can heal and the efforts too.
Don't give up on me, Love.
You're the only thing I have.
Many have left and I lost track.
But Please wait for me, I'll be back.
I wasn't supposed to deal with the problems coz I havent done anything wrong.
You had a mistake for not being strong.
But i realized, we are partners and we are one.
That means both should deal with what the other one has done.
I had my mistakes, perhaps you'll say.
But whatever it is, Im sorry anyway.
I love you Love and I always will.
Please wait for the time when I am healed.

No one can explain properly how i feel loved by thee.
No one, not even the smartest person, not even me.
You're the rainbow which appears even when the rain hasn't stopped yet.
You're always the umbrella under the rain that keeps me from getting wet.

You look at me like how a child looks at a mountain of candies.
You stare at me like how a painter stares at beautiful sceneries.
You look amazed and dazzled every time.
Your eyes meeting mine.

I don't know how long it's gonna be.
You being truly inlove with me.
But, I want to thank you now,
for even starting to make your vows.

I told you I can't promise you forever.
But I told you we're in this together.
Forever is just a time frame.
What's important is that you came.

I love you, Bud.
I always would.
I'll try to be worthy.
I'll always try and make you happy.

Girls are complicated, they say.
But, girls just have their own way.
If boys got pride to defend,
girls have hearts to protect in the end.

When they say no even if they meant yes,
they are putting your sensitivity to test.
When they say they're okay even if they are not,
they are showing you the independence and strength they got.

As a man, you acknowledge that she's strong.
But, as a man loving her, you still try to be there when everything goes wrong.
Girls may be complicated as they say
but they are designed that way.
For you not to change them easily and hurt them in the end
For you to change yourself and still hold their hand.

Would you fight for something
when you know in the end, it's not gonna change a thing?
Would you still keep on holding
when you know very well the ending?

Would you still hope for a miracle to happen
despite the heaviness of the burden?
Would you still take the chance
when you know this would be the end of the dance?

When everything does not fall into place,
would you still finish the race?
When you are already told that you would lose,
would you still fight despite knowing the news?

When your dreams have to end here,
When you are asked to disappear,
When you are already losing,
would you keep on fighting?
would you?

Sometimes you ask why.
It is often accompanied by a cry.
You don't understand what God is trying to do.
There are so many questions in you.

There are just certain things, my friend,
that you have to wait for till the end.
Just like the answers to your questions,
you need to wait for future explanations.

It may be hard to accept it now,
but always remember, God is doing it for you,somehow.
So trust His ways, He knows what He is doing.
Whatever it is, be strong, keep believing.

If I die today,
Would've anyone asked me to stay?
Would anyone cry?
Would anyone hope I didn't die?

Would there be good testimonies about me?
Or would people be glad and happy?
Would there be regrets I'll hear,
From people who brought me tears?

Will people say they'll miss me?
Or will no one bother to see,
The things I have done.
Now that I'm already gone.

If I die today
There's one prayer I want to say.
That is to witness my burial
To see if to my loved ones, I have been special.

I want us to stay a little longer like forever;
but I know this moment is just between now or never.
I wish I could tell you how I feel about you;
but I can't 'coz I'm afraid you might not feel the same way too.

I'm sorry for being weak.
I'm sorry if I can't even speak.
All I can do is sit here and write.
Be right behind you as you shine like a star so bright.