When dusks sets
Nothing to say
All that is broken
Heals itself

Bonds of ice
She creeps out
Cold horizon
Frozen breaths

All is set
But not quiet
Until it is
No longer

Advancing forward
Into oblivion
Illuminating
She exists



© Sofia Villagrana 2019

I remember the days that I still love you
I remember the days were I adore you
I remember the days that I didn't **** you

I remember the days when I was alive
I remember the days when I could think
I remember the days I didn't repeat this line

I remember the days when I was breathing
I remember the days when I was living
I remember the days when I was singing
I remember the days when I was running

I remember the days when I feared you
I remember the days when you feared me
I remember the days when I screamed
I remember the day you captured me

Now finally we are closer
Closer to feel each other
Another side we don't see

Closer to you
Closer to me
Closer to each other
Closer to no one else

I remember the days when I was lonely
I remember the days without in them
I remember the days when I was crying

I only remember you moving closely



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

I felt the fear
Of the world by falling
From my foot burning
My mother on the floor
Her shattered chest
Wanting to breathe
Running in the house
I wanted to reach the door
But I burned my hand
The figure of Christ
Saved around my neck
Burning my skin
Dragging on the floor
Extending my arms
Looking at the flames's light
Against the shadow of the cross



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I want to take a ride with you
I want to take a ride away from you
I wanted to escape this life
But now with you, I start to cry

I want to take a taxi away from here
But then my arms get heavy
My heart is out of place

I want to take an airplane into the sky
But my lungs they constrict
Behind eyelids stars shine

I decide to take a taxi with you
But my feet stay in place
I call out for my mommy

Why can I not escape this life?
I said that I will be long gone
Now I am stuck inside four walls
I shake and cry when I have to step out

I wanted to take a ride with you
I saw you as an escape, its true
I never really loved you for you
You were just an ending, not the goal



© Sofia Villagrana 2019

Broken Heart and Broken Mind
Trying Hard to Fight Against Time
Sagging, Fading, then Dying all at Once



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Seems our minds are made up
No one dares to speak

Recalling the moments
We dare leave behind

Remember how we embraced
No matter what we said

We dared to believe
In a moment of respite

Traces of lost bliss
Belonging to another life

Hesitantly moving on
Memories cherished- lost

Curtains fall on us
Wanderers- moving on



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Whisper words to household saints
Hands pressed, lips closed
We couldn't share them
The words that we couldn't say

Hiding in corners, shadows evade
Sitting on the shelf praying today
Tear and break them
The words that we couldn't say

Games played, in the darkness
Fools we both were that day
Confess it's too late
The words that we couldn't say

Mistakes littering the tile floor
Glittering shards that impale us
Time to end this
The words I just have said



© Sofia Villagrana 2022

The sunlight shines above our eyes
And I remember citrus in September
Look at the constellations
You are the only thing in focus

Sitting with you by my side
Such a hypnotizing sight
I know its useless to move on
Love the glowing warmth you emit

Thighs touching as we lay apart
Hands grasping fingers tightly
Gazes that linger for a moment
A laughter that fills in our souls

Glittering stars shine in our eyes
Trying to not feel nostalgic
For moments that are far gone
Try not to get too pragmatic



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I'll rather be alone again
I know what they say 'bout loneliness
But I'll take the chance

I'll rather die alone again
Stick n' Stones break my words
But your actions left me hopeless

I'll rather walk this road again
Uncertainties leave me restless
I'll want to know what's up ahead

My heart burns and aches like fire
Ashes are just bones on the pyre
Liar, that's what I call you a liar

You better heed my advice
Your life will ignite with my lighter
Liar, that's what you deserve you liar

I'll rather get revenge 'my friend'
Prove to you once again, I'm not worthless
I'll rather watch you burn up in flames


© Sofia Villagrana 2022

Snow that falls
Breaths that cease
Hands that freeze
Eyes don't see

Can you move?

From the world
As they wrap
Their hands
On your throat

Can you scream?

For mercy
Salvation and
Vindication
For your dreams

Can you fight?

With your hands
Holding a blade
Aimed straight
Pointing at them

Or will you die?

Final exhale
A sigh goodbye
Hand outstretch
Towards the sky



© Sofia Villagrana 2020

Words
Murmurings
Whispers
Sounds too soft
For me to truly capture.

Caresses
On my face
Against my hands
On my hip
Guiding me towards the truth.

Grasp my head
Force me to listen
Force me to watch
Force me to comprehend
The secrets you possess.



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Eating Ice cream on an afternoon
Spending my day with you
Sitting on a park bench
Trying to just destress
Watching the clouds float by
Birds fly around us so shy
You lay crumbs for them on the floor
Fly down to eat the lure
You smile at them as they move
Your laughter my own cure.



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And I'll be wearing black and blue
It's my new favorite color
To hide all the bruises
From my ex-lover

I don't like this dress
It's too tight for me
So I do nothing all day
Just sit down and cry

No, it is not because of him
No, this is not blood
I just love to curl up in a ball
Keeps me safe and warm

I love me some white dresses
Red seeping through
Making lace into a fright
Dripping trails in the night

White becomes pink
Stains on my porcelain skin
Painting my room a crime
Washed away with tears

I will wear a black dress
Makes my sickness stick out
Matches my old stab wounds
Now I don't pretend anymore

Cradle by old oak
Chorus and strings echo around
Sending on my way
Into a place where there are no dresses



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

You were the light inside my eyes
Whispering to me throughout the night
Wanted a taste of you danger
But then I grew to hate you

Are you gonna stay the night?
Rather you just leave my sight
Rather you just leave my sight

I'll rather see you jump out right now
Hope you land on the rose bushes
Thornes all across your back
That's what you get when you
Decide that affections are to be sold

Are you gonna stay the night?
Are you gonna stay the night?
Nope
Nope
No
No
NO

I rather just see you die.



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

Opened like a door
Letting strange people through

Closed the door when it was me
Had me standing feeling so blue

Decided to knock and wait
Shadow of me waiting for a blue moon

Did not hear you sneaking
Under the moon, through the back door

Why did I go to this party?
Knowing you were going to appear

Why did it have to be you?
On the dance floor under the blue light

Realizing I have no right to cry
The reason this pain stays is me

Easier to blame you
For something I allowed to hurt

Decided to leave out of the blue
Since I am just so done feeling sorry



© Sofia Villagrana 2019

Underneath Covers
Reading Stories of Lovers
Red Cheeks with Trails
Sniffles and Sneezes
Emotions Prevail



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Bid a Farewell to you
In a Pretentious way
Cynical and Mystical
As your face Concaves
Time strikes Done
And you Age Away
In Dismay and Decay
Finally, you're Overrun
By Lackadaisical Pain
Taking a moment to Fade
Into Colors of Grey



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

Sometimes When You
Stand
                You
                             Fall
                                               Asleep.

In the Morning
With Coffee
You Stay
Awake.

Eyes Begin
To Slowly
Close
On
Their
Own.

You Might Be Sleeping
Without a Care.

Make Sure You Bring
A Blanket at Least.



© Sofia Villagrana 2019

Commemorate
When days went by
In tides that were
Harnessed by the moon

Cicadas
Crooning melodies
In the summer heat
Near the riverbank

Straining
To caress my hand
Trying to mend the
Growing divide

Irredeemable
Are those moments
Juvenile woe
Intertwined with hope

Pretentiously
You laugh at me
I smile behind
A facade of Cheer

Exasperated
I ascend from you
Conjure up the will
To say farewell to you



© Sofia Villagrana 2020

Tell me.

Why do you sing?
Does it not get tiring
Singing to nobody?

You just keep on flying
Straight through the desert
Straight into Midnight

I can still see you
I sadly still hear you
Perched on my windowsill

Let's just make one thing clear
I am not torturing you
I am not the cruel one

Do you think your music soothes me?
I prefer the silence
To your screeches of anguish

Do you think anyone appreciates
Birds that sing by windows
When one wants to be alone?

You just keep on singing
Why do you hate me?
Why do you not leave me?

Tell me.



© Sofia Villagrana 2019

Baby, I don't understand this
Is it worth it?

Baby, I don't understand this
Is it worth it?

I don't understand this
Is it worth it?

You're making it hard to see

Making it hard to see

If I still want to be

Baby, I don't understand this
Is it worth it?

If you leave me behind will I live on

I don't see it
In the future
My heart beating

I don't understand
It isn't worth it
To keep living



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

Windows are shattered
Platters are scattered
I make some wishes
As I fix my stitches.

And I wonder out loud
Is the night even bright?
Darkness surrounds us
But pretends it is just dusk.

The absence of color
The absence of a mother
The night may hold you
But she will elude you.

Twinkles of stars shine
Remind me of candlelight
Shadows in my room
Leave me come morning hue.

Remove this splinter
Cover my blisters
Scream out in agony
Wonder if she’s mad at me.

Doors closed tight
I know that’s not right
But scared to go see
I hope it is just a dream.



© Sofia Villagrana 2018

Do you dream of yourself crying?
Does your heartache for more?
Even as I am weeping silently
I can't help but yearn.

I am still silently crying
Reaching out blindly for more
Laughter cannot cure my sadness
I can't help but yearn.

Though I may not be crying
That doesn't mean I want nothing
Chest constricting inside me
I can't help but yearn.



© Sofia Villagrana 2019

Got me moonwalking
Moon talking
Tripping up the hill
As I try climbing

Sun shinning
Eyes flashing
Lips fushed of lust
My face blushing

Words smacking
Prayers flying
Talking nonsense
As I try crying

Clouds departing
Stars aligning
Ending all my verses
With a "I am sorry"



© Sofia Villagrana 2019