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 May 2018 Red
Nyx
Wanted
 May 2018 Red
Nyx
I'm walking through the days
Feeling nothing at all
I'm not sure how long ive been like this
I cant seem to recall

Its quite odd you see
As it doesnt bother me
Its just a void of nothing
Is it just being carefree?

I'm not hot
I'm not cold
I'm not sad
I'm not happy
I'm not depressed
I'm not broken


Its just nothing

I don't understand
How a person can be so empty
I smile and laugh, I cry and scream
I do all those normal things
And everyone believes
What good does that bring?
That I can put on a show
I'm like a robot learning human movements  
No matter what, there is room for improvement

I'm a shell of a person
A shadow of who I am
Am I meant to feel emotions
Am I meant to know who I am
Because its really quite odd
Learning all these actions
For everything thing that I do
Leads to human interactions

They say I am trustworthy
They say I am kind
They say that they know me
So why do they lie

You're the only one I trust
Thats not true
I won't tell anyone
Its obvious you will
You understand better then anyone
I really don't
I need you
No you don't
Stay with me
I'll do my best

I Love you
You're feeding me words laced with poison

The pain, the hurt, the happiness
The anger, the betrayal, the lies
But knowing everything
I still do nothing
I merely watch.
Tying my own hands
Securing them behind my back
I feel and see everything.
But these feelings are not mine

I'm lost within myself
I know no other life
I forget my own problems
By taking on someone else's life

So where are my own feelings?
Where are my problems?
Where are all the things that make me human?
For I have nothing, Nothing on my own
I'm just an empty void

I sold everything
For the need to be W A N T E D.
I'm myself but I'm not
This is who I am
I ignore my own problems by focusing on others
Its not healthy but its the way I work
I have been at it for so long that without it
I feel nothing, Nothing at all
All of this just because I wanted to feel needed and wanted by other people
Its pretty pathetic if you ask me
 May 2018 Red
Nyx
You would think
 May 2018 Red
Nyx

You would think I would learn my lesson
That I wouldn't be such a fool
You would think after the first time
That I would know and follow the rules

You would think that a heart like mine
So tormented and broke
You would think that a boy like him
Wouldn't take it as such a joke

You would think that the friends around me
Would learn not to be so fake
You would think that I would figure out
That I can't change a snake

You would think things will change
We will become more mature
You would think that high school drama
Is something anyone can endure

You would think that since I am a child
My opinion are completely invalid
You would think that as a full grown adult
That everything you say is valid

You would think that as the years fly by
We could learn to love one another
You would think that as the world moves on
We wouldn't care about skin colour

You would think that since its been so long
That women have equal rights
You would think that with all the new changes
That the LGBT could finally sleep at night

You would think that due to the history of the world
That we wouldn't have bloodshed or war
You would think that we would learn more morals
that young girls wouldn't be labeled as ******

You would think that since everything we've been through
No matter how big or how small
You would think that since our world is so advanced
That we wouldn't build up such walls

But its clear to me that our world hasn't changed
We haven't learnt at all
But we all pretend things are different now
Because we simply don't want to fall

You Would Think That
 May 2018 Red
Nyx
Where am I?
 May 2018 Red
Nyx
Did I fall down the rabbit hole?
Am I lost within this land?
Because everyone around me
Is completely and utterly mad

Am I wondering through the forest
Talking to the Cheshire cat
Tell me the right way to go
But he's preoccupied by a rat

Did I stumble upon the mad hatter
With his sanity wearing thin
Its a very happy unbirthday
he wearig this painful grin

Did I run into the Queen of hearts
Interrupting a croquet game
Off with their heads
She's giving me the blame

Did I run into tweedle dum and dee
Singing me their stories
how do ya do shakehands
Listening to them fills me worries

Did I finally meet another the same
The dearly beloved Alice
Who in the world am I
But its clear she's merely followed the rabbit

A white rabbit leading the way
Do i follow him, will he lead me astray
I'm late! I'm Late! for a very important date
The way he's going I'll never escape

So why am I trapped here
In such a world of madness
The more I think about it
I'm just trapped in my own sadness

So how do I escape from myself
From a world of pure imagination
How do I run from this
Run, From my own creations

There is no possible exit
From a world I don't understand
So I'll sit here and wait
Until I figure out a plan
Idk what I where I was going with this one
 May 2018 Red
Nyx
Trust in me
 May 2018 Red
Nyx
Hold out your hand
Open your palm
Close your eyes
Remain calm

Trust in me
Let me guide your way
Allow me to remind you that
Everything is okay  

Face each day with your head held high
For Ill stand with you, always by your side
no matter what they say, no matter what they do
My loyalty will forever remain with you

So turn a blind eye to their snickers and snares
Mute their voices as the rumors air
Forget about them for nobody truly cares
You are your own person, don't bother with their complicated affairs

Your better off living with just me and you
As going through highschool makes anyone feel blue
The rumors, the lies, the tears you will cry
Its really not worth it, so dont bother to try

It may look like its all fun and games
Being so popular, they all know your name
But everything happeneds to come at a price
The cost is your happiness, are you willing to sacrifice?

keep on your toes if you do make this choice
every little secret and promise, they won't hesitate to voice
Your standing in a minefield, You will try to escape
But careful each move as we don't want you to break

Are you their new toy or a friend?
Its really hard to tell
But play your cards right
And it won't be complete hell

But why put yourself into such a gamble
Just for those "friends" that are particularly fragile
Who needs that popularity and all of those parties
They are merely a congress of dressed up barbies

So keep your peaceful life as it is now
Friends you can trust, life so carefree
No matter what you face,
You will still have me

So blend back in, live a normal life
You don't need to pretend to live a happy life
Acting skills aren't required when surrounded by real friends
So stop, Don't pretend.

Dont worry about them
what the people have to say
Its me and you together
No matter what I'll stay

I'll help fight your battles
I'll help lead the way
You don't need to change yourself
Because of things that they say

I love you so much
More then the stars in the sky
So trust in me
As I wouldn't dare to lie
You're perfect the way that you are
There is no need to change to be like the rest
 Apr 2018 Red
Levi Bradford
Spiders.

Snakes.

Late nights, due to the fact that once I saw a possum in our garage when it was dark out.

Good looking people not thinking I'm good looking.

Holding children. I might drop them.

My brothers growing up to be just like me.

Shark attacks.

Jumping off high places.

Headphones that go too deep into my ears.

Going the opposite direction of so many cars. I'm the only one going my way.  They're probably headed the right way. They're probably having more fun.

Realizing that, after being on the road for a while, my high beams have been on the whole time. Sorry.

Cockroaches.

Family reunions where I'm not sure if that really attractive girl is my family or someone's friend.

Climbing up the stairs of the Bombay ride at Wet N' Wild because there just slabs of stone I can see under. I could slip and fall right through.

Enjoying bad bands.

Letting my girlfriend look into my eyes.

Talking on the phone.

Growing up.

Refusing to grow up.

Reading this over if I ever finish it and realizing that I am something less than a regular human being.  Probably an animal of some kind.

Frogs.

Big animals.

Waking up one day as the same person I always have been.

Standing still.

My parents.

Not spending the rest of my life with the girl I swore I would.

Texting people too often.

My parents dying.

Whales.

My teeth being this awful the rest of my life.

Braces.

Making people think they offended me.  People never offend me.

Writing anything that's ever as good as Ernest Hemingway.  How dare I think that I ever could.

Running too hard.  My heart might burst.

Being unreasonable. Am I unreasonable?

Sticking my finger inside an air conditioning vent in a car.  I don't know if there's a fan in there.  I don't know if it'll take my finger off.

Getting people's hopes up.

Letting people down.

Fish.

Bees.

Being a teacher.

My laugh.

Wearing bad clothes.

Holding her hand too hard.  I might cut off circulation.  She might get mad.

My brother disapproving of what I do.

Heaven because it sounds awful doing the same thing for the rest of forever.

Finding out I've been gay this whole time.

Cracking my fingers.

Being a parent.

Whales.

Final exams.

Paranormal Activity 4.

Singing on cue.

Sudden Infant Death Syndrome.

Eating insects.

Whales.

Silence.

The open ocean.

Whales.

Whales.
Sometimes I just need to list everything. I wrote this in 10th grade and strangely enough, I'm still afraid of most of these things. But they have less power over me.
 Apr 2018 Red
Sawyer
Hate Me
 Apr 2018 Red
Sawyer
When you tell me that you love me,
I can see right through your lies
And while you comfort and assure me,
There are still tears in my eyes

I can tell when I’m not wanted
I don’t believe you mean it
When you tell me that you need me,
I don’t have the will to comprehend it

I don’t want to believe you hate me,
But it’s all that I can glean
And so I smile and let you hate me,
Hiding my eyes, their salty sheen.

And I’m trying to believe you,
Please believe that much is true,
And I need you, I need you to need me,
But hey, what can you do?
 Apr 2018 Red
Gabriela Villegas
And just like that, dear,
I pulled the knives from my heart
And let the scars heal.
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