And if you are to love,
Love as the moon loves.
It doesn't steal the night,
It only unveils the beauty of the dark.

And if you are to love,
Love as the rain loves.
It doesn't wet the bodies,
It only washes the sad dirt of the souls.

And if you are to love,
Love as the wind loves.
It doesn't drift away,
It only cleanse you to the core by invading through each pore.

And if you are to love,
Love as the sun loves.
It doesn't radiates heat,
It only pours its warmth on you to enlighten your way.

And if you are to love,
Love as the star loves.
It doesn't delightfully twinkles,
It only reminds you that not even death can separate two hearts.

And so forth,
if you are to love
Love as the whole universe
& not just a part of it.

Oh Father time, Father time
Listen to my plea
I've lost my heart along the way
Somewhere in the shimmering, moonlit sea

Your heart is in a beautiful place
Surrounded by happiness and love
But I desperately need my heart right now
Otherwise I'll never be able to love

Oh Father time, Father time
Return to me my heart
A boy of young has stolen it
I can't bare to be apart

Your heart has made a choice of its own
Its fallen for this boy
Its not my role to take it back
Even if its being used as a toy

Oh Father time, Father time
Return me to a place
A time before i met that boy
So I can turn away from his embrace

Just as your heart made a choice
You too have made one so
I cant erase the consequences
For you have chosen this road

I'm a fool who had thought I can change the past
Simply because I wasn't content
I've got to face the music now
No matter what hell it presents

I'll bare through it all
Till my heart can be free
For time waits for no man
Let alone me

In my dreams I see you
You love and hold me tight
Whisper sweet nothings into my ear
And tell me everything is alright

You listen to my woes
Yet with you I feel no stress
As within your warm embrace
I am finally allowed to rest

Your sweet lips on mine
As we share a gentle kiss
A hickey or maybe more
Ah, this is pure bliss

We run through different scenarios
Your confession, Our love and tears
And together no matter what
You are still willing to hold me dear

Everything is perfect
I laugh and smile so bright
Being with you brings me delight
So I hold on so tight

But when reality comes knocking
And I wake up from my dream
I look to see I'm all alone
And the tears flood like a stream

In this world you dont love me
I'm nothing more then a friend
No hugs and kisses adore me
Those are only for your girlfriend

My unrequited love
Oh, how it hurts me so
I can only wish you could love me
So back into those dreams I go

like I was there in your bed
I had agreed to be there
you asked if you could do one thing
I said yes
you did, and then started on another
you didn't ask
I didn't say no
It wasn't far from what I had initially agreed upon
but you didn't ask
I didn't feel like I could say no

I dealt death today.

I know it’s a part of the job.
I know I’ve seen it too many times to count.
But today,
I felt it.

I left the room long after their family did.
There was no where I could go
To escape their

Roaring grief.

They were long gone.
And I was left with their precious baby.
I curled his arms and legs up
Closed his eyes
Wrapped him up gently.
With love and respect
Here he’ll sleep forever.

And oh,
They are so thankful,
That it was me
That I understood
That I was so careful
That I spent the time with them.

And you’re not supposed to take it with you.
You’re supposed to leave it
When they walk out the door
With one less goodbye.

But I took it with me today.

The way they felt before
The way they felt after
The long quiet goodbyes
The man in a suit on his knees weeping
The mother and son making a cocoon
Sheltering their dying baby.
The solemn face of the woman who plays god.
The green death.
The last breath.
The heaving of the living as he gave his last.
The waiting.
Slower rhythm.
Quieter.
‘He’s gone now’.

I watched the clock
The same way I had
An hour before
Waiting for death.

Soon as I could
I fled out the door
Ran into the street
Tried to outrun it

Instead I ran to you
I dialled your number
With shaking hands

I know I’m not supposed to
But all I wanted was you
Your voice

Ringing out
Thankfully
I wept alone.

Today I dealt death
And I found I am not strong enough
To sustain this
Alone
Or for long.

I found I still consider you my haven
Deep down
But that you are not my haven anymore
Or should be.

I listened to the silence
After the call rang out
And decided