New moon
Dark rising
Looking within
Goddess timing
Sisters gather
Circle strength
Intentions matter
Love mends

Saying good bye ant an easy thing to do
Especially saying good bye to you
I thank you my friends for this time spent
I thank you for being you

I spread my wings and fly away and head into the sun
Letting the wind take me on its way
Soaring down this crystal mountain with a soul fulled
With love peace and harmony

Follow your hearts dear
Follow your light to where your soul shines bright
Allow yourself to see your essence
You are one of life's true gifts

So I Spread my wings and fly away  
and dip into the wind
mother earth guiding my way
Where ever I am know my friend
You can always come and stay

Heading in the direction of my souls calling
Feeling fear within
The age old game the ego likes to play
This time it won't win
Ive got more tools in my kiti
More love than ever before
Know that I'll carry you with me
As i turn and head out the door

So I spread my wings and float away
Allowing myself to be
The full expression of my inner light
The great gift you could have given me
This freedom to be me

Where I'll go no one knows
Now It's time to fly away
Where I'll go no one knows
Now It's time to fly away

Anahata
I wish you peace
Shanti shanti shanti

Mother earth
Look what you've done to me
Toe tappin
Body shaken
Heart pounding
Weak at the knees
Face in your dirt
Oh Mother earth
Got me hypnotized
Took me  by quite surprise
The best dance partner I ever had
Turns out I don't need a man
Oh Mother earth
Look what you've done to me

You left me twice
You had your chance
Twice.

Thank you for that.
For the cavernous hole of rejection
The bursting of our illusion  
The ripping down of  future projection

I had imagined your departure (the second one) would cause a tidal wave of despair to drown me in tears
Yet no,
Three months on and I stand more than strong
I stand free
I stand more me

Thank you,
For the way in which you shouded me in self uncertainty
For this allowed the space for me to follow my dream
And living it now I am
Thank you for leaving (twice) past lover from distant lands

Last time I wrote about you it was an ode of letting go
A release of what once was, what I thought would never be again
Though this life has its many surprises and seeing you again is surely one of them
When I think of you lover from distant lands my belly does a snap crackle pop
Yet I'm wary of my minds expectations, it's day dreams of a life together
I listen to my body, I feel how it reacts to the thought of you, of your smile, of your sparkling lake centred eyes
And I'm taken to a body of bliss
A place of joy and play
of life and love
Oh mind, I beg of you please let's live in the moment and leave what will be to the place of distant dreams.

I wish you well
It's time to go
Cords to cut
Space to grow
Heaven sent
To help
To heal

Unexpected realms
We sang along
Opening wonders to personal song
Dance brought us closer
We paved our own way
Only a week
yet
Ive changed in away

Written in the stars
Destined to meet
With pure hearts we grew
With desire and heat
Lions roar
fire and brimstone
Lions gate opened  
And we returned home

A short stay it was
For our souls intertwined
The dance of sacred space and time
Cords to cut
The healings complete
The song we sang shall set us free

What does this mean?
To be open to be free
To feel the universe residing deep in with me
An invitation
Seems to be shouting at me to to be unashamedly..
me

Attachments create the illusion of security
Yet as human beings we need that sense of stability
Placing our reliance in happiness brought by another is a sure way to give away our sacred power

Dancing upon the winds of creation
I feel the flight of life's inspiration
Knowing the joy that bubbles inside is an unlimited source from the beauty divine...
Love
the life you live
Live the life you love
Shout out to the world the possibilities of one...ness
Is what we have
one-ness
Is who we are
Forever diving deep into the power of love

Awearness of ego, of triggers and judgement
Here to do the work with the guides of laughter.

The Darkness of space left after sunset
Leaves a meager sense of incompleteness

Bound to broken shards of days gift
Searching through the remains
Flickering away the quietness

Not quite alone in dreams of stories untold
As constellations of departed souls beacon me closer to the place of my original home

Clouded over with questions
I ask of them
Do you deem right from fortune?
wrong from uncertain?
Or are you simply there to shine bright from the heavens?

Not quite fulfilling my wish of uninterrupted sleep
Their answer comes with sedated peace
it is a must
In this life of turbulent sorrows
To learn to place your faith
In the joys of the morrow.

Biggest fear about being seen is that not only will my light shine my darkness too will penertrate through.
Living in community where I am looked to scares me
Not a way to hide a bad day
With tear streked checks there is no dening the crying
And to carry on is the only option Depths of being not wanted to be shown are there on display
No escaping to a house alone
Here we meditate, eat, work, dance, sing, share everything together.
There can be no hiding of ones self from anyone
On display
Constantly
Expectations push down my feelings of freedom
Am I a butterfly ready to emerge or am I being buried under?
It appears to be able to go either way
No one ever said transformation was easy

To the beautiful men who walk strong in their softness
The brothers who hold us while we sob tears
Who sit quietly while we talk about our moon time listening, learning
Here is to the dudes who encourage us to be bad ***

Do you know how healing you are, solely by being present?
How you help to mend the hurt of men before you?
I have held on to resentment for a long time
Too long
I'm done
I've let go.
Thank you my brothers,
Thank you for the laughs, the play fights, the exploring, the building, the talking, dancing, the intimacy.
Thank you for loving me
Dear brothers I thank you for allowing me to be me,
Thank you brothers for the push to be more than the woman I was before I meet you
For always making me a wee bit more bad *** than before.

I thank you for your healing presence.