when i was a child and went out during the rain,
my father would tell me
"you ain't sugar, child.
                                         who said you gon' melt?"
so i stopped dipping my toes in pool water
          and started jumping off bridges.
sometimes i would swim in fountains,
looking for kindness, but

i guess people eventually realized
      their cash wasn't worth their buck.
that no god in the sky was gonna give
             you somethin' good for five cents.

so lemme tell you, sugar. you wanna know
           the look the bank gave me when
i asked for my paycheck in dimes?
           that "you gotta be kidding me" look,
           that "wait.. you're serious?" look.
disbelief like no other.

           that same look i give you
when you step foot in the rain,
and i say "hey, careful now.
                 sugar likes to melt in this weather."

She opens her front door only to find the works of god twisted and held under the hands of the devil
She opens the door only to find a wrath screaming and ******* making her unleveled
A wrath from her father who sings in pain and her mother who lost her sane
She tried to open the door yet each time turned her away
Her back is against the wall
She starts to collect dust and soon she starts to fade
Behind it lies insanity yet she knows that that is just humanity
She can’t see
So leave her, wannabe
Swimming pools of tears
Collected from all of these years
She wants to go outside
But her world may just collide
So the door is still kept closed from her soul
For if opened the front porch may swallow her whole

i don't know
what hurts me more
your filthy words
of the mourn galore
or your hearts that grow
apart as the wind blow

i thought I've loved you dearly
too keep you happy
i thought summer's sunshine
won't fade away

but darling I've been so wrong
about you all along
now i am long gone
i am long gone

Why is it that broken people
confide in my words?
Is it because I’m broken too?
Are we shards from the same bottle?
Does it help when we fit into place?
You and I, a tragic jigsaw puzzle
Or when I put you back together?
I don’t know why it is,
All I know is that my words
bring a temporary relief
to myself and
to the broken people

I betray today for the promise of tomorrow.

Not to understand the now! whether love, anger or sorrow.

I know better, but better does not seem to know me.
I cannot hear, move or truly see.

Its him, its them, I blame and I surely condemn.
I look within and ask why, what, when?

Push and Pull, its screams Resistance!
But STOP!...
I AM the architecture of my own existence.

Is it not mine to take? is life not what I make?

Disable the Automatic, i'll take a seat and watch the traffic.

I choose to be free from all that pretends to be!

I DO know better, and better will just have to get to know me!

By Jimmy

My filthy eyes, they're getting kind of dry
Your mouth is filled with lies... but I don't really know

Reason, it's fled, in wake of the pounding in my head
I need you but you're gone instead and I'm feeling quite hollow


You're the one that I never see
but I'm the one who's a ghost
It feels like you're not here for me
when I need you most


I love you, and I love you, but regardless I feel dismayed
I love you, and I can't blame you, yet I feel I've been betrayed