After every battle that has raged
I think about how my life has aged
What have I become, what have I done
I stop running and lay down my gun
But I don't want it the end like this
I would rather it end with your sweet kiss
I sit on the cold ground, sore and sick
But getting back up that's the real trick
You see life is worth fighting for
But half the time that's my problem in this cold war
Maybe I should give up on this game called life
Now that all I have to fight is myself and a knife
I don't know why I have to be strong everyday
It's all been feeling like black and grey
Getting worst and worst day by day
All I can do now is pray

On and on the same feelings
Day after Day
They build up inside me
I strive to control it
Before they burst
When they burst Im not myself
I feel the weight of the world
The people, the feelings, and my thoughts
Going through life I strive
I strive for greatness
I strive to be everything you want
I strive to be perfect for you
I strive to be strong to take away your pain too
I strive to make you happy
There is a hunger inside me
That only goes away when you are truly happy
Like I knew you once was
But its his loss
I gained you in my life
I wish you could tell me what you want
So I may make it come true
I strive to make everyone happy
Everyone but one person
That person doesn't matter to me
That persons hurts me sometimes
That person controls what I see
And that person is me

A cool day outside
Where the dark clouds hide
Sitting against a tree sap
With a rabbit in your lap
The meadow is far
From you to a star
As the wind blows
An endless day it shows
Blank thoughts fill your head
The same thoughts you cannot shed
No amount of outer peace
Can make what’s inside finally cease

Ever since you left
I've felt hooked on ****
On the inside I'm dying
For some reason I am still crying
I still miss you sadly to say
I think about you every day
No amount of drugs
Could ever replace your hugs
No amount of alcohol can erase this
No one else has the same kiss
All I have left of you is thoughts
And the memories that put my stomach in knots
Everything reminds me of you
And all the things I wish to undo
You are still here to me
It's like you won't let me be
Even though  your a 1000 miles away
Your still with me in the school day
I still sit and wait
Even though you're full of hate
I still think of you as my mate

Whisper to me agin
How life was back then
When nothing would hurt
When all I had on me was dirt
Now that life is real
And not as happy as it was
I can't seem to heal
But I gotta press on because
There's someone that cares
She's a person that knows
She helps me when I start to ware and tare
And when life really blows
I see her and I'm bright
I feel full of might
When she holds my hand thru the flood
And afterwards we play in the mud
So I gotta stay strong
I must stay brave and tall
For nothing can be wrong
When things run up the wall

When the smoke clears
After all the pain and tears
I see your struggles and fears
But the end is not near
Take your own freedom
And sit on the throne of your kingdom