The
                                                        Truth's
A
                           Funny
Thing
                                                    Sometimes

Darkness is upon me again with its radiant stare bottling up my sorrows as I distantly glare.
      Summoning strength from ancient Gods with endless power beckoning sanity.
                                             Heart retching screams come fourth from my soul in search of you my love.
                           My love... I know I must release you from the pits of my heart, you yelled I was in your way. Im sorry you were my world, there is my confession.
                                     Fear resides inside my chest cavity and grows undetected, spreading like a wild fire on a dry day.
                                               Anxiety ridden through and through I now obey thy master. It is he who rules my sleepless nights and uncontrollable storms overflowing from my eyes.
     Depression threatens to hijack my thoughts so I can do his bidding and have blood on my hands.
       The loneliness is inevitable, as is my aching heart begging to die.

Speeds of time surround
          Me modestly
In times of wonder
     Speaking to my soul
In second person
          Stroking my passions
Seductively with an
     Admirable quality
Hanging on my every move
           With lying eyes
Leading me blindly into places
          The ears can't hear
But the eyes can touch
      Following a red brick road
Passing by forests of great
           Magic amongst wise tree's
Telling tales of a tin man having
       No heart and a scarecrow
            Having no brain
Such great wonders the imagination
        Yeilds within the believers
            Step into my world, the ride
Of your life shall begin

Always the strong one in front walking the line
Fear...less, un-fazed To the evil walking the earth today
             Always standing up for what's right, standing up for my loved one's, ready to fight

Always playing fair, mostly silent even if my feelings are hurt because it's just not worth it some-times...

             Always going out of my way for others, putting myself last daily and never-ever complaining about it

Always pushing through the cronic pain I live with to see another smile and I do it easily because that's love

                       Yet
                       No one
                       Sees my
                       Tears in the
                       Dark

Angels and lies

We don't know for whom the bell Tolls
Just that angels are
Godly
And
Lies are
Devilish
Drugs vanish the pain
When everything
Flips
You're stripped naked
On the front
Page
Ridiculed and crucified
Angels
And
Lies...
Remains my sanctuary
Inside our minds
We remain
Sick
Misunderstood
And
Liar's
Yet
Women are
Angels they say
Let me rephrase
It's the illusion in which
Women are angels
Only
To the right
Faces
In all the wrong
Places
We belong to no one
Place or person
But the behavior
Of a woman
Never
Fades
In the eyes of the
Beholder
Somehow we remain in
The spotlight for only
Certain
Reasons
Which we can never
Shake
The power of feminism
Is
Amazing
Angels and lies
Go against us
We remain
Powerless
When certain allegations
Are made
Angels
And
Lies
Befriend one another
Creating the identity
Of
Innocence
And still you hear
Them say we were
Born
Sick
And unknowing to
Society's
Views
Of
Angels and lies
© Onwona René Arps

Sleepless nights bring anxiety and frights
The forcing and suffering
Continuously have
Me wondering
What is it that holds me hostage?
A grip so tight im suffocating as breathe trys to escape me
Do I surrender and just let it be?
Do I fight against she or he?
My chest tightens as my fear rises, looking an unseen force in the eye
Praying that it stops its rage and says bye
A prisoner in my own mind, thoughts race, twist, and bind
Repeating like a broken record
Except you can't
Move the
Needle
And make it
Stop
Oblivious to what's normal and sane*
A prisoner
I
will
Remain

Solitude grasps my soul, it molds into towers.
Residing in pillows of silk.
Wading in the likes of my gracefulness.
                     I am alone...
Within these walls of solitary confinement, I feel no light, I see no sound.
I'm but a relic, long ago forgotten, perhaps...
                      Left behind?

Come into the light baby
                                  Radiate your inner beauty.
Flaunt your world in mine.
                                  Roam the unseen sea's among my presense.
                                  Lather me with sweet kisses upon my neck.
                                  Wrap your desire within my vision
                                   Allow me to see what you see
                                   Give me the pleasure to engulf my world into yours

                                    Except my love, allow our rivers to merge and *become one

Tumbling in ultraviolet sequences rushing loosely in a nested loop
                                   D
                                     O
                                        W
                                           N
Promiscuous tunnels penetrating radiant innocence
              Bottomless and hollow consuming each piece, boldly tainting private ownership
Powerless against brut strength, surrendering reluctantly to blind demand
               Delirious and incompetent your heart stolen

The dark side of the
Moon
Is
Home
The escape from ratchetness
In a cold
World
Laced with grim downfalls
Of the
Stars
Dim sunrises
Suffice
To broken
Pieces of
Flesh inside the beholder
Of
Lost worlds
In between here and
Gone
Caught in a sand storm
Of good
And
Evil
The darkness is light
Showers of
Security
Among
Chaos
Of the unknown
Forces
Battling against unseen
Entities
Praying for your
Downfall
In the darkness I see
Light
The sunrise, as the stars slip
Away
To befriend the
Moon
The jealous sky parts
And sheds beauty upon
The
Deserving
One's
Greatness is bestowed within
The darks light

In the deep Blue distance I see you standing there.
       Looking fabulous as always in your black wife beater.
               I can smell your scent, and feel your taste on my lips even though its been weeks since our last embrace.
                                    Knowing I must ingrave our infrequent encounters deep in my flesh so that I dont forget you.
                                       It was quite cruel to allow me to love you then abandon my existence like smoke in the wind.
                                         My tears ignite the fire and I go up in flames while you lust for social attention at my expense.
                                                 Anyone can see my pain is fatal, but you... you just write it off.
               You mockingly laugh at me and scold me like a whip to a horse.
                                       The whips sting and eventually I become numb while you continue to batter me with your frozen tongue.

For me loving you was easy, it was as natural as  the seasons changing.
                          The roots needed for life are severed and forever dead.
                                    The parameters you allowed me were scarce at best.
                                            Having left me with no means to sustain life I must say goodbye now.

My thoughts travel like air waves from the towers.
             Dreaming of the far lands beyond my own desires.
Catching a glimpse of what lies beneath where eyes can't see.
             A place that rules of swords and wands that strike with meaningful scolds.
Where men with structures of Greek gods dare not go.
              Dragons with breathe of fire roam the black skies beaded with gold armor, and eyes that glow of red.
The beauty that lies is breathtaking at best.
               Wondrous paths planted with gems of colors, and grass of silver.
Ones feet who touch will be forever rich, and some may greed get the best.
                Such magic is near, look beyond your sight, and search beyond your dreams.