It is finally time to move on from this stormy relationship.
You took of and as the storm consumed my broken heart.
I waited for windless night and birds to be singing again.
*Only small gusts of wind filled with memories remains.

I've planned the perfect escape. Every path, every step, every breath. I have planned it all. Except from one single tiny detail. You. No matter how much I want you to you're not coming with me. This is why I'll never be leaving. This tiny detail is the reason for why I'll never leave. You're the reason why I'm missing this tiny detail

As my dad opened the door and woke me up I knew. I knew that it had come to its end. End of life. Life that was precious to us. Us left here in the pain. Pain like you felt before you went. Went somewhere. Somewhere.

Music is my drug. A dangerous yet healing addiction. It distracts me from reality and takes away the pain. But with never ending pain the music stays forever. Lyrics is the only thing on my mind. Lyrics speaking truth and false. Anxiety and panic rages when it stops and everything goes silence. There's no golden silence as my head quietly explodes from the reality I'm living.

Get up. Raise the blinds. Look yourself in the mirror as your pupils contract. Let the light warm you up. Open the window and feel the fresh air against your skin. It's a new day. A new beginning.