Where there once was peace and quiet
there's now an unbearable silence
I want to go back when
I didn't have to count to ten
to calm myself and all the pain
Not sure how I am still quite sane

Insanity would probably
be beneficial, naturaly
I'd just scream and shout and take a leap
Would that finally sweep me off my feet?
And stop my regrets playing on repeat?
Why do I have to get to the point of retreat
everytime someone makes their lying eyes weep?

All I want is something good and true
But everytime I try to look it's another you

The you that lies
with watery eyes
The you that cares to hold
my hand until it gets a little bit too cold
The you that tries hard to see the real me
to turn away as soon as I feel comfortable to be
The you that makes me look like a fool
to find out what you didn't want you just needed a tool
The you that wants to smother me all over
til I feel safe but you tell me I've only briefly been your four-leaf clover
The you that comes and goes as it pleases
leaving me sick and weary from all the diseases

you left
in my mind and heart
that's always the part
where you go and make room for another
to start the cycle anew, someone else to smother
my heart with thick heaviness
my mind with distrust, seeing always less
through the fog of disbelief
where I stand trying to retrieve
all that has been broken away from me
to swallow the bird of wisdom and talk myself into being free

But the bird is always dying
coming back but never flying
Still I keep it safe, protect it with my life
Together we will always strive
One day to release
This you and me will cease

No more,
cause you already emptied me
No more
cause my eyes are now able to see

No more
cause when I left I left with pride
No more
cause all I had was hope by my side

No more
for your words had been carved deep enough
No more
I made it my own cruel joke so I could laugh

No more
sickening anxiety that teared me apart
No more
driving me to use my last card

No more
I'm smarter now
No more
I never made any vow

No more
pain caused by your sharp and ruthless tongue
No more
cause for now I am still young

No more
wasting my years
No more
shameful tears

No more
I'm done, my blood
No more
I can't take the blame for fleeing the flood.

No more
not anymore
I'm gone