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When her husband glances at me;
I observe tiny highlights of speculation
glittering on the treacherous
surface of his intelligence.
My open smile defuses him.
He blast the ready pores of his suspicion,
of course her animation appeals
to other men: she's attractive,
high-spirited in conversation.
But my pleasure find
new edge to the tale of an axe
returned sharper than it was.
appeared in' New Quest' July -August 1986:Editors_ A B Shah & M P Rege-
Don Bouchard Jul 2014
Gymnasiums
Modern battlegrounds,,
Those days...

Blood on the floor,
And spittle.

Rival towns,
White - Red.

Sitting Bull long gone,
Custer long dead.

Native sons,
Sons of pioneers
Still locked in enmities,
Remembrances of treaties broken,
Lying words,
Hatreds long unspoken.

So much of fear
So little trust,
Braggarts claiming coup,
Braggarts thinking war
Through basketball.

So it was one night
I slipped and fell
In a reservation gym,
Heard the hiss and laughter,
Felt the rush of fear...
Anger came.

Before my racist pride
Could grow,
I felt a hand,
Heard a voice,
"You okay?'
Spike Bighorn
Pulled me to my feet
Before a silent crowd.

A quiet act of bravery
That spoke aloud
Made me see the way
Through hate,
Set me on a path
To lead me forty years....

An act of kindness
In a place of fear
Defuses tension,
Ends the wars,
Shames the cowards,
Fills the void
With hope.

-------------------
Recollection of a true story, 1977, Brockton, Montana. Arch rival towns, Lambert (Lions) and Brockton (Warriors) had hated each other for many years...****** fights on the game floors, destruction in the locker rooms, name-calling and death threats.... Spike Bighorn stepped up that night on his home floor and lifted a dumb White farm kid to his feet, slapped him on the back, and became a HERO and EXAMPLE to me for the rest of my life. People must have been watching Spike's life because he became a tribal leader on the Fort Peck Reservation, and is now serving us all through U.S. government leadership. I hope I am honoring him with this poem He is a great American. Don Bouchard
There's a hole in the sky,
Where light shines in.
Dark and hollow.

If you stare at the centre,
You see right through,
To other worlds,
To heaven, to hell.

All around the hole,
The light defuses.
Rays of sunlight,
Light is spread.

Apollo and Sol,
Ra and Helios.
Surya and Horus,
Tonatiuh and Amaterasu.

The hole has substance,
The hole gives heat.
Great fire of sky,
Our local star.
Stephanie D Pope Mar 2010
My cheeks against the breast of the willing to embrace my cold fingers, are clammy with perspiration the hot air thirsts for. Every racing pulse amplified out of sound into vibration is a symphony of racing music into braille for our living hearts. Our pleasure met with caution, pacing each stroke, is personifying true dependence seizing our moment. My weight featherless, embracing welcoming arms intertwining, delights our insecure minds with assured acts of permission. Every motion increasing steamy exhales, scented ecstasy defuses from my love origin. My walls collapse with silent ripples, and constant oral doings, is an awesome relief. My eyes again meet disbelievingly upon the mounting passenger arisen from my open heaven. Every ****** of passion intensifies building stronger yearnings for grasping this entire ******. I am exploding inside and rippling out, every wave a breath on my lips. My shoulder is met with shoulder lying in silent breath's fouled with the presence of two lovers.
© 2002
Michelle E Alba Jun 2010
Silent serenity, peace, at least.

Complex simplicity dissolves the beast.

Disappearing doubts, shadows in the dark,

Hope drowns disease, content at heart.

No quest at hand- no combustion necessary,

Body sedated in the bliss that varies,

And the love that carries

The fuel-

The feelings I’m feeling are all so new,

Unfamiliar to-

One broken soul,

All the who-

Now feels more whole.

No missing parts, no magma pool-

Ready to com-bust at any toll.

Silent serenity, peace, at least.

Complex simplicity defuses the beast.

Dissolving doubts, descrying the dark,

Hope hollows disease, content-at-heart.

Departure at last, fare to flee,

They breached the beast,

You are finally set free.
I am running through the Milky Way,
with love and hope perches into the soul,
dancing cloud flash the glee,
the peacock biding, rain could be

me for love
love for mine

Souls are jocund company while triumph of birds
twilight on face antecedents shine of love,
vitreous luster of a crystal as diamond,
the dark of the darkness beget the diamond,

dark defuses and alchemize,
the black grinned -
caliginous to illumine as a small table lamp
glimmer glee with the end of darkness.
I can hear babies are cackling in the next room.

@ Musfiq us shaleheen
end of darkness: a poem of love, hope and beauty
reflectionzero Sep 2014
I talked to a friend today for the first time since I've been back from Arizona. It was interesting. I tried to start off cool, calm, collected... all of those things you should be in public and with strangers-- but only in private among friends. Eventually he started asking the hard questions, as I knew he would. It's a simple formality that defuses so much stress for me. Listening to someone's problems is like making eye-contact with a homeless person. You still want to treat them like a human being, but you'll end up regretting it later.  



So he asked me how the relationship stands with my dad since summer. “Has it improved? Did you two talk?” “No, no.” I say. No, it hasn't improved at all. My father still feeds of his perpetual guilt as a muse and mentor in every sale he makes and AA meeting he attends. If you cut him open you'd find an empty bottle of Jameson. “That's alright,” I tell him. I don't chase him down anymore to have a heart to heart about the past, or his feelings, or his mistakes-- no, we're adults now. We use each other as a means to an end. This is the way males bond. Instead of getting angry at him when he's a ****, I just ignore his phone calls for five days until he's saturated in his guilt long enough to actually be proactive. When I call him back It's expected he'll send me money, even if it's unwarranted. It's so easy. I don't have to fight with him, and he gets to avoid looking at the loser in the mirror. Nobodies emotional needs are being met-- but, hey! At least we can spend the 100$ drinking long island ice tea at the layovers on the way back to my life away from hell. Thanks dad, really.  



“And how is your sister?” he asks. “Oh, she's loosing her mind,” I say. She asks me why I don't try harder for the family. She blames me for leaving and emotionally severing myself. “It's like you don't give a **** about anything but yourself,” she says. Well she really hit the nail on the head. I, apparently, am the patron saint of reassembling ravaged family units beyond repair and squaring the circle. I am fully aware of how angry she is that she can't do the same emotional distancing for herself. She wants so badly to grow out of that child that's still locked inside of herself begging for a functioning home. So there she is, Atlas, holding the weight of the world and I'm the one that put it on her shoulders. No one can advise her because we're all to blame, are her victimhood is a virulent strain infecting everyone but me.  



“And hows your mom?” he asks. “Oh, well she's just a silly goose, you know?” “Sillier than ever,” I say. Making her rounds to the ER quicker than she rebounded from deciding to leave her boyfriend and live off my sister in Seattle. “At least this time it's from the aftershocks of her attempted suicide and not the actual act of doing it, you know?” But there still runs the potentiality of getting that phone call-- “Hey, your mom's got a tube running into her heart.” It's a fun game of Russian Roulette we like to play in our family-- nobodies winning.  But she made the time to come to Flagstaff and spend some quality time with me for my birthday. Forked over a little bit of Xanex for me and my girlfriend, bought us *****, drank with us. “You know, what are moms for?” I say.  



I tell him, "My life is like a Modern Family episode directed by Quentin Tarantino."



It just makes a person a little rough around the edges, you know? And with insight comes a bit of cynicism. Like, yeah. I dissected and tore you apart yesterday-- but it's only because I love you. Your imperfections really make you shine. It's that feeling you get when you try to jam the wrong shape through one of those Fisher-Price toys-- it doesn't fit but you force it anyway.



But you're alright, you'll muddle through.
I am myself Feb 2012
Today I realized
How very much
I need you

When I am afraid
You refuse to leave my side
Simple proximity defuses my fear
Reassuring me when you are near

Our minds so alike
Stubborn, fierce, humorous and protective
When my words seem incomplete
You finish my thought
Arguing for me

You are my partner
My friend
So warm is your skin on mine
Flesh intertwined

Sometimes I stumble and fall
You catch me
Support me
You're there through it all

Thank you for making me feel safe my dear
For caring and understanding
Being the awful boy I cherish
For wiping away my tears
And somehow assuaging my fears
Melissa June Dec 2013
Ink, wouldn't fill my paper
into the air it leapt, turning to vapor
the words, never crept into my head
maybe, there not meant to be said
because my thoughts, have gone and hid
to be written, on this paper, they forbid.

Not one word, nor sentence, has entered my mind
the way to express, my feelings, I can not find
a mind and heart confused
my hand, to this pen, is fused
because I owe, that much as an explanation
to say I'm sorry, for the separation.

But am I truly sorry, that we are not meant to be
that you and I together, is not what I foresee
now released, from all confusion
free, from the disillusion
that I owed you, now knowing better
the pen to my hand, defuses, and I crumple this letter.
Ekuu Oct 2014
To learn to fly each day
or die?
Death offers no false start.
Not living to retrieve
or multiple what I've gained or lost.
I find myself in the ruins
of new beginnings, uncoiling
my life.
Now, would tie my heart into a knot
around a tree
To ensure something will always
hold me and will
never let me fall.
My dreams twist.
Hope battles with darkness.
Hope defuses into darkness.
To extent my day blue.
One of those days when you feel, luck isn't with you.
DP Younginger May 2018
There is a decision to be made,
There is a future,
There is a past,
There is a "so-so" chance at happiness,
Behind door number one is your future,
Door two contains some pain, but with a hint of pleasure.

What would you miss most?
A place to laugh like no one is watching?
Or a place to shred the moment and skate passed your problems?
This is the riddle that hides the key to the door of your choosing,
Think hard,
Thoughts can be a teacher in the dark.

Door one is Blue,
Door two is Black,
Choose between your favorite colors,
You've got a tough decision to make, my darling,
Secure your dusty pencil shavings,
Switch to ink if you must,
Do you enjoy being humid when the frost blows?
Cold palms when the heat rises?
The past is freezing in the shaded fog,
The future is boiling with steam-filled bubbles.

Door two is in your future if your mind stutters at the thought of "I love you",
I'll tell you something simplistic,
Door two is indestructible to everyone, except yourself,
Door one is to be shaved into crumbs of sawdust, once your decision turns,
There is no going back and those shredded pieces of entry can never be referbrished,
Read the fine print,
If door one becomes door two,
You lose the door that dissipates into nothing,
You can keep the fire burning with consistent attention,
When it defuses, it is like scraping a burnt match,
Never to be utilized again,
You can't manage a roaring fire in the pouring rain.

So here you stand,
Two doors,
A 50-50 chance,
Pick,
Choose,
Don't do damage to your dome,
Follow your hearty wishes and dreams,
That is what your future holds,
Live it,
Love it,
Idolize it,
Forever.
Door one lives on,
Door two fades to black,
No thought,
No hesitation,
You win,
He loses,
I prevail.
Written in winter of 2008. Slightly edited in 2018.
shåi Oct 2017
you drain all my energy
the light in my eyes
watch me bleed
as my cheeks fade

forgotten dreams
fills my despairing corpse
with unending pain

you drain all my energy
life flashes before me
moments pass
rose petals fall

tick tock
goes the clock
as the time says too late

your love has me
on my knees
my bitter dream
defuses the life from me
(b.d.s.)
Billows of a winter snow blowing through my curtain window
all I sweet remember is the way the willow tree smelled
that creamy, sugary, wintergreen scent of its lovely mellow  
and the way the sun tilted each time you looked at me...
Snowflakes falling from a heavy laden sky of marble
and though my heart is longing, it is full of your song
that slow jazz music made us drunk as we danced
beneath the sultry moon, like a a fork and spoon  
February shivers, my how the winter defuses  
all that is left is the scent of a warmth remembered  
healing hands,  * secret pillow talks  
You grew old I grew old, then we both stopped living
My how I recall those winter snaps,
two young lovers lost in the silk of life's entwine    
I remember when our love was fresh and new
like the weeping willow, dressed to the nines  
Ah !  But those were different times and now is now,
I am presently lost, ... in this winter pow.
Mahek Dhingra Apr 2014
I wish I could be mean
I wish I could be harsh,
to face this dump world
I wish I could work hard…

No one cares for me, no one spares for me,
am I so bad, or am I so glad?
To help everyone, achieve their dreams
but in return, I never get pleased.
Sometimes I feel,
do I exist?
Or, just waste it… my time, my life, and my everything.

“Face it” “Face it” says everyone,
“I can’t” “I can’t” says my heart.
Help me god, but he refuses,
who’ll help me, if he defuses?

Get rid off this, and leave it behind,
says one, but I left him from my sigh.
Tell me one who says face it,
can you face it without ‘it’?

it , it,  it is you god,
don’t help me and let me drown,
if you can’t help me, tell me
why
I’m left alone, alone behind?

I wish I could, I wish I could...
the poem is nothing more than my feelings which i have made the priority of my life....
I was A kettle placed upon the flames of confliction
People's Heated Words of Lies and Deceit....
Such fuel of judgement, words of hate, and dark repetition of those wishing, upon me, to inflict blind tormental rituals..
Such wishes they can Pump up the flames to anger's ignition...
The waters of the calm boil down to the smokes of mistrust
Spreading to even those who once added sweet spices
of true virtue to the teas of friendship and oneness.
Fired Angers and Fires of Momentary Lapses Of Judgement

That are the dynamite sticks that are made of   conflict and  are the soul's heated ingredients for anger explosives..
Spirits, once calm, can Turn Volatile


As heat ,Built from the powders of those poking  ignorant taunts, spread lies, and ignorant vocal judgments at my soft spots
Of Human Soul's Discomfort...
Sparks feelings of "blind retaliation " for a short lived while...


I close off their presence and heat
By turning to the fans cooling of peaceful understandings...
Those who wish  Turn a once peaceful waters into explosions alike Nuclear Products
Storms  made up from the buildup of toxic feelings and uncomfortable passages of time....Foggy Interpretations of another's soul..

They are Tsunamis devastating wiping out of all who fail to ease such waves of conflict...

To all of those with no spirit.....
Who took pride as they Flashed upon the tides
Anger's Winds and waves...
Tossing  in a rowboat of survival and confidence
Into the rocky Shores of the lost soul's pride..
the one whom they deem  "unworthy" and "just" of emotional "hazings"
and Deserving of Weapons of Destruction through such "Hostile Negative Winds of Critical Jokes" and "Lies of Acid"
the  "Soul Eaters"
Build up the fires of Hostile Battles and Argumentative explosions
Only ending one's tranquil spirit......However, as hard as they tried to start the battle...

I refused to be as reduced into piles of ashes..
  as another  unneeded storm of ignorant emotions.
Instead of exploding like a bomb built upon the schematics of "blind Hatred" and Hitting the Nuclear Button of "retaliation...."
I  take my time and think through my peaceful maps of escape routes...
Maps and Sensible Travel Routes.....
To enjoy travel, onward, unscaved by the fury of those heathed and blind souls
trying to provoke war
all around me..
I clearly  understand the power of social ignorance, momentary lapses of reasoning, and conflicts based on a misread messages of mass "intelligence."
Invented or Misguided Stories of ill-feeling, ill-gotten words, and such materials that build
"Emotions bombs."
My understanding of the war hungry tormentors and harpies of the army of the Bullies and Haters
defuses the situation through Understanding The Truth behind himself, behind their actions as conflicted souls....
As society's "Puppets"
The beauty ,that those conflicted against him fail to have seen,
their loss of true meaning and self control ,and he as another battle of "Whom deserves to win the battle for the title as the 'Worthy Portion of Their Society"
He is proud that he never stayed and fought.
Even after the feelings of the strongest temptation..
to revenge a "soiled" name....
To win a senseless battle to  Mend his Troubled and Damaged Ego.. He smiles as he realizes...
"There is nothing to be won by these games."
Off in the distance he walks.. He is the one who remains Victorious.
As in the background, there are  those questioning his walk to a better freedom. and unwillingness defend his "soiled honor."
Sucj reasoning never justifies their meanings and jsutification to conflict...
He knows where he has been and where he is going....
He knows, eventually, the ones hungry for fights made from the Delusions and Egocentric Ones That Hunger For Society's Battles...
Will fade as they realize that such challenges were a waste of their moments, in their lives, that could be lived much more to the fullest.
Delton Peele Dec 2021
The midnight
Hung quiet and tensions rising .......
eery, slithering an
Crawling .....
Through the thickets ..... So slow ..... So
Very very slow
.......
Feel the tickling from the sweat ...
Trepidation sets in.....
Only  I mean only .........
When noise is being made by them ....
Shall I move
Then
×{[STOP]}×
.....
When the crickets stop.
Fickle.
F-N
Snitches
.....
C.I.'s
You loose sight
Hearing
..Intensifies..
Fear when it's used right
Will help you ...survive ...
If you're being hunted
Eye see by .hearing .
And not
.

. Hearing .
I see what I'm hunting
And when I give my word
And I put it on my skin
Look you in the eye.
It's no longer a promise ring my friend
It's backed by blood love .
There is no fear on this earth
That I have ever seen
That disturbs
....
Which is  
The predator
I become
When
I'm called
On it .

Flip the switch I'm gone
I
Animal
Eyes black
Hackle
Up
Hind legs twitch
I can taste the air.
And when I savour the piquant
Salty flavour of twilight glistened
Terrified
Sweat....
I'm close enough
Feal the pink
Heat signature of your breath.
And when I slowly lower my head while opening my eyes and they have a far off
Sleepy
..
..Glassy  gaze..
Grinch like smirk
One tear escapes
From  the empathy
Part
Of me
Petitioning
The executioner
Because the
Governor stepped down
One tear
Breaches
Then hesitates
As if to look back and say
C'mon it's ok  ,
Let's go ....
As it travels past the cheek
Gets
hooked and pulled past the nose like a venturi
Stops confused on the upper lip .
And defuses into nothing
Changed
Nothing
.
I hide further back into
Happy places in my mind
Because
That  streak of
Saline
Left sparkling in the twilight is sadly evaporating
....
The natural order of things
Steps in
Removing
It
To see this through
That one tear
One tear ....
From the heart and backed by a sea...
Was your last advocate
And the last
Lost trace
Of my humanity
One
Just one
Just.....
.....
WAIT
.....
.....
..
.
.

.



.




HE
HhhhhhhhhH
.



Had one word for me......
No.....
Wait
What happend

Owe wow
This started with an analogy
Like poetry
Or my stupid attempt at it..
I got too  into it and although it ends like a confession

It's not.

K.


YOU HAVE MY WORD ON IT.


Ok I am sorry...
I'm off on
Side bar your....
  Now on with the memory ......
Er .....
Um

Poetry?

So those stupid little
Simple fickle
Insects
On your side
There to help  
keep  your word
Then turn coat and
Turn into rats
And tryin  flush you out...

Those creepy things all over me
In my hair
So so so
Very difficult...
On the cusp of
im·pos·si·bil·i·ty
Staying quiet in the blackberry's bleeding
Cuts and puncture marks leaking
CCHHHSSST
YA WE THINK HES UP IN THE BOULDER FIELD ....
OVERCCCCHHHST
K
DEADLY FORCE IS AUTHOURISED...CCCCHHHST
...........
...I ..KNOW .....
I * CCHHHHST*

FLOOD lights being all chauvanistic
Accosting
The night
Ogling her privates
The sweats stinging blood drying .
Bugs down  my pluggers creepily up my inner thigh ...
...
Some one with a really nice ****** rifle acting all "eyes on me "sayin  loudly
Hey cap cmere I think we found something
!!!!!
This is the needle hole
I need !!
These rookies think there in a movie

..mabe they'll make one out of me...
Kidding ...
Kinda
Anyway ...
Focus I gotta move quickly and silently  
One chance ....
One

Just
...
The commotion  
Bristling
Is ........ like the comforting sounds that loom from the kitchen on through the living room .
Sizzling bacon
And Saturday morning cartoons.
The noise they make is my cover
To escape..
Ants...
I think
Atleast I hop
...
keep going in my ear and up my nostrils
I turn quickly.
20 maybe 30 feet  
Across a  half light opening
And there's the sorta slow part of the river .....
The.............
Ice melt ....
And 1/4 mile the **** ...
An  

Turbines....
And the ****   lights ... An  
The 300 foot drop .


An ..
Giant maelstrom's .

As I turned to take of my shirt and slither out the blackberry patch
A large overly crusted with stickers
CANE.
grabbed my cheek poked my ...Eye. .
My body. Has no plans on being shot and cares not for accessories
I can live with the loss of an eye or scar's
Keep moving
Me on the other hand I'm still trying.......
Owe my head tilting tryin to get out the way..
Owwwwe....
Bit..
Get out the way ......
Owee wait I got a big one sinking into my lip..
Wooooe slow the role one second

Got one in my throat .
Then snap crackle ....snap
Like having 35 fish hooks in ya..trying to run and be quiet at the same time ....
I hit the river
And
O m G
I'm a pink quivering quiet crock ...
No body heard

No body saw ..
...I'm ...just....
SSSSKKKRRRT
baby Huey
The  assault rifle guy .
In the river puts a warm Glock against my ear ...
Kinda felt good actually ..
I put my hands and back feet down into the river bed .
Stop floating...
Wrapped my hand around a big rock ...
And slowly reached for my knife.....
He motioned me with ******* pointing to his eyes then to mine then back and forth as if saying I caught you.. .
I am predator
You prey
I got you
You submit
You understand
You see me
I see you  see me
You understand this is it ......
And motioned me to stand an turn around.
I complied  when I locked my fingers behind my neck .
He hit me in the kidney
Put his knife to my throat ....and quietly I felt my legs warming ....and I shivers
Allot a things
He said to me
One thing
Just one word

Just one

Just


. .

.

He said ....


Goodby
.....

And loosed his grip
Watch me float
Crying
.....
....


Wana know why ......


Maybe.


Some day

Maybe
Don't be like
Delton Peele Dec 2021
The midnight
Hung quiet and tensions rising .......
eery, slithering an
Crawling .....
Through the thickets ..... So slow ..... So
Very very slow
.......
Feel the tickling from the sweat ...
Trepidation sets in.....
Only  I mean only .........
When noise is being made by them ....
Shall I move
Then
×{[STOP]}×
.....
When the crickets stop.
Fickle.
F-N
Snitches
.....
C.I.'s
You loose sight
Hearing
..Intensifies..
Fear when it's used right
Will help you ...survive ...
If you're being hunted
Eye see by .hearing .
And not
.

. Hearing .
I see what I'm hunting
And when I give my word
And I put it on my skin
Look you in the eye.
It's no longer a promise ring my friend
It's backed by blood love .
There is no fear on this earth
That I have ever seen
That disturbs
....
Which is  
The predator
I become
When
I'm called
On it .

Flip the switch I'm gone
I
Animal
Eyes black
Hackle
Up
Hind legs twitch
I can taste the air.
And when I savour the piquant
Salty flavour of twilight glistened
Terrified
Sweat....
I'm close enough
Feal the pink
Heat signature of your breath.
And when I slowly lower my head in you general direction
My lips pursed and nose sneared  .....
Picking up  aromatics like
A dog picking up pheremone
Messages from the
***** in heat opening my eyes and they have a far off
Sleepy
..
..Glassy  gaze..
Grinch like smirk
One tear
On the front of the well over taken by the swell
Accidently
escapes
From  the empathy
Part
Of me
Petitioning
The executioner
( The inner me that governs
The right or wrong)
((In the event the circumstances
Prevent
Clemency
And stay of execution
Withdrawn ..
The inner me has the ultimate
Group
Of professional
Psychologist,
A "ta die for"
Debrief sanctuary
And a team of
Rational ends to meet the needs
And justifiers
To make things
Be
Just as if I never committed my....
Er things  
I mean never done a thing !

Because the
Governor stepped down
( Again the inner me)
LET THE GAME
CONTINUE
.....
:
One tear
Breaches
Then hesitates
As if to look back and say
C'mon it's ok  ,
Let's go ....
As it travels past the cheek
Gets
hooked and pulled past the nose like a venturi
Stops confused on the upper lip .
And defuses into nothing
Changed
Nothing
.
I hide further back into
Happy places in my mind
Because
That  streak of
Saline
Left sparkling in the twilight is sadly evaporating
....
The natural order of things
Steps in
Removing
It
To see this through
That one tear
One tear ....
From the heart and backed by a sea...
Was your last advocate
And the last
Lost trace
Of my humanity
One
Just one
Just.....
.....
WAIT
.....
.....
..
.
.

.



.




HE
HhhhhhhhhH
.



Had one word for me......
No.....
Wait
What happend

Owe wow
This started with an analogy
Like poetry
Or my stupid attempt at it..
I got too  into it and although it ends like a confession

It's not.

K.


YOU HAVE MY WORD ON IT.


Ok I am sorry...
I'm off on
Side bar your....
  Now on with the memory ......
Er .....
Um

Poetry?

So those stupid little
Simple fickle
Insects
On your side
There to help  
keep  your word
Then turn coat and
Turn into rats
And tryin  flush you out...

Those creepy things all over me
In my hair
So so so
Very difficult...
On the cusp of
im·pos·si·bil·i·ty
Staying quiet in the blackberry's bleeding
Cuts and puncture marks leaking
CCHHHSSST
YA WE THINK HES UP IN THE BOULDER FIELD ....
OVERCCCCHHHST
K
DEADLY FORCE IS AUTHOURISED...CCCCHHHST
...........
...I ..KNOW .....
I * CCHHHHST*

FLOOD lights being all chauvanistic
Accosting
The night
Ogling her privates
The sweats stinging blood drying .
Bugs down  my pluggers creepily up my inner thigh ...
...
Some one with a really nice ****** rifle acting all "eyes on me "sayin  loudly
Hey cap cmere I think we found something
!!!!!
This is the needle hole
I need !!
These rookies think there in a movie

..mabe they'll make one out of me...
Kidding ...
Kinda
Anyway ...
Focus I gotta move quickly and silently  
One chance ....
One

Just
...
The commotion  
Bristling
Is ........ like the comforting sounds that loom from the kitchen on through the living room .
Sizzling bacon
And Saturday morning cartoons.
The noise they make is my cover
To escape..
Ants...
I think
Atleast I hope these are ants and ......
Not .. spiders
No theyr not
They can't be.
I

Would

Freak

The

F..k
    

Out
!
K
...
keep going in my ear and up my nostrils
I turn quickly.
20 maybe 30 feet  
Across a  half light opening
And there's the sorta slow part of the river .....
The.............
Ice melt ....
And 1/4 mile the **** ...
An  

Turbines....
And the ****   lights ... An  
The 300 foot drop .


An ..
Giant maelstrom's .

As I turned to take of my shirt and slither out the blackberry patch
A large overly crusted with stickers
CANE.
grabbed my cheek poked my ...Eye. .
My body. Has no plans on being shot and cares not for accessories
I can live with the loss of an eye or scar's
Keep moving
Me on the other hand I'm still trying.......
Owe my head tilting tryin to get out the way..
Owwwwe....
Bit..
Get out the way ......
Owee wait I got a big one sinking into my lip..
Wooooe slow the role one second

Got one in my throat .
Then snap crackle ....snap
Like having 35 fish hooks in ya..trying to run and be quiet at the same time ....
I hit the river
And
O m G
I'm a pink quivering quiet crock ...
No body heard

No body saw ..
...I'm ...just....
SSSSKKKRRRT
baby Huey
The  assault rifle guy .
In the river puts a warm Glock against my ear ...
Kinda felt good actually ..
I put my hands and back feet down into the river bed .
Stop floating...
Wrapped my hand around a big rock ...
And slowly reached for my knife.....
He motioned me with ******* pointing to his eyes then to mine then back and forth as if saying I caught you.. .
I am predator
You prey
I got you
You submit
You understand
You see me
I see you  see me
You understand this is it ......
And motioned me to stand an turn around.
I complied  when I locked my fingers behind my neck .
He hit me in the kidney
Put his knife to my throat ....and quietly I felt my legs warming ....and I shivers
Allot a things
He said to me
One thing
Just one word

Just one

Just


. .

.

He said ....


Goodby
.....

And loosed his grip
Watch me float
Crying
.....
....


Wana know why ......


Maybe.


Some day

Maybe
Don't be like

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