I break my words, lost my world
Twisted over the days and took baths too long
My selfishness overcame who I ever was,
and I could keep spiraling down into self pity
I thought "It doesn't matter, I shouldn't worry about me."
When I realized I should be the first to worry about me,
and I should worry about me first.
Everything has been so eye opening, but now I can't stop to
close my eyes and escape from the confusion and rage
I wish it all could just stop,
So I can relive the days
when I cared about the sunrise,
and my eyes were so much brighter

I'll run through the streets, jumping in front of cars
I need a rush and a better way to feel
This is my own personal war.
I'm determined to win more than ever.

I wanna impress you,
but I don't want to lose myself
I've been on my own for so long
I keep telling myself I can stay like this
But I feel so ridiculous with invincibility
Itching on my skin, knowing you can't possibly
feel the same?
I blush and I try to go numb again but
What use is it?
I'm losing my mind.

i ran,
i cried,
again,
i lied.

i did everything i could,
just to feel alive.

Driving all night into red skies
We'll feel so alive when the sun comes up
And the morning air turns our blood so cold and warm
Settle at a hotel because we got another 800 miles to go
I just want to stay like this forever,
I never want to leave who I am because
We got it made, and the nights we stay awake
Wishing this would never end, we'll run out of gas
And we know it's all okay because we have each other
Seems it'll never end,
All over the east coast we'll throw our own parties
Breaking all the rules, we could stay this young forever
and own the store parking lots skating on buggies
Escaping to paradise to start all over again
Well, we know we got it made

Where I live, the cold doesn't always bring smiles.
Sweet summer sweat drains,
Then the leaves change to bright colors
Fighting the contrast against the dreary grey clouds

Where the leaves cover the ground, they turn the soil darker
The grass yellows, and cracks under your feet

And when it rains 60 inches of rain in your town a year,
Cold rain is exactly what you get instead of snow.

Oh and I get so weak with no sunlight

My friends all love the cold,
They embrace it.
My friends all love the darkness,
They'll share a drink with it.


But when the cold comes for me,
I try to hide underneath my coats
When the darkness comes for me,
I lose my sense of time and sleep

I get so weak

You became the best thing in my life,
So I held onto you tight
throughout all the late nights
We could run through the back roads,
Stomping on our shadows, because we're so bright
You were my favorite person this time around
I don't know how to stand these days, weeks, or years anymore

Lay on the rocks and blast some louder heavy metal
Fall asleep with dreams of highways winding through the east coast
We shook from the coffee,
We smiled with the darkest eyes and borrowed energy

People gave us strange looks and we respond with disinterest
No more staying calm
No sleep for days, but we're ******* happy
and it was so surreal,
But we had to say goodbye.

I don't even know where to go anymore,
because every long drive is now just waiting to get where I'm going
Drunk nights and drinking games aren't the same
and I can't seem to find a friendship as spontaneous as ours
I just can't let you go, because I love you so much
But you've gone too far for me to pull you back