I think of how
I used to smile for you
offer you more and more
until I had nothing else to give.
how empty
how lost and lonely
I always felt
and I believed I had enjoyed it
How easily I lied
to myself and to you
in order to make you feel better
while I still went through hell.
all you can say
is that I didn't see
how much you cared
but really, what was there to see?
other than the tears
and the pain
and the desire
the lust for your love
the love I could never win
even though I laid claim to it.
How unfair you were
though I am not bitter
Because now he makes me smile
and it feels genuine
and best of all,
he smiles back.

The pressure of your lips
Against mine
In my hair your fingers
Are entwined
And with each passing moment
I love you a little more

I feel as though
after kissing you
I no longer feel
the desire I once held
for you

The passion isn't there
the way I thought it was
It's almost like kissing
my brother, not lover
so please lets just be friends

I'm struggling with guilt
After leaving lipstick on your collar
And hickeys on your shoulder

What is love
Other than pain and despair
With a little bit of happiness
Here and there.

I wish I knew you
When I was a kid
So maybe you could have
taken me up in your arms
Just the way you do now
and kiss all my troubles away.

Have you ever had it
where your heart feels
like it's all swollen up
and it's pressing into your throat
causing you to choke
and your blood
feels more like maple syrup
and you just want to curl up and cry
because your life
is turning into another
Teenage love tragedy.