Both your presence, and lack of, drains me.
there is no point in fighting anymore,
you are now like the rest.
You turn a blind eye to your discomforts,
and i find no reason to continue
to be disappointed by you.
You now join the army of the silent,
never being bothered enough to care about anything that is not
directly related to yourself.
I guess that includes me now,
and i will take your lack of interest as means of goodbye.
I will not wake you from you slumber to remind you to care,
for it is inauthentic and temporary at best.
i find myself at war with literally just myself, and i think i desire a love from a place that i know really does not want to be a source of it anymore. A transition is hard when it is driven by love, or trying not to be, especially when i feel like i maybe have fallen deeper in love in comparison. Maybe i'm crazy, but this is a manifestation of my frustration.