Just ‘cause I’m not going the way you intended for me,
Doesn’t mean I’m wrong, doesn’t mean I lost sight.
I still walk my path, though it’s not easy to see
If it’s leading right, or I’m getting left.
But what you can’t see, what you all forget:
I may be wandering, but I’ve not lost my way.

I hold back the tears that want to spill over,
My light slowly grows dimmer as my heart grows colder.
The world all around me, just dark shades of grey;
I cannot escape it, not even a day.

If I fall to my knees,
Mess everything up,
If I lose all hope
And am reigned by despair;
Will you be there,
Will you help me to stand?
Will you be strong for me
When I am all spent?
Or will you abandon me,
Like all of the others?
Will you give me your hand,
My friend, my sister?

Your blood flows so freely,
Quickly seeps through my fingers.
I try to stop it, but we cannot linger.

We have to flee,
Enemies draw near,
But your life is fading
And it’s only for me.

You stopped the arrow
Intended for me,
Didn’t hesitate a moment,
But jumped before me.

You saved my life,
A debt I cannot repay.
And I fear for the cost,
For now you slip away.

You’re steps from death’s door,
But what can I do?
I want to do something,
I want to save you too!

But I know my chances
Against the forces ahead.
They steadily grow slimmer
As I hold your hand.

I want to scream,
Demand to know why you did it!
I love you my friend,
Why did you do this?

Then it happens:
You touch my face!
You tell me to flee,
To go and save them and me.

But I can’t just leave you,
I wouldn’t dare!
But you don’t back down
As death stains the air.

You tell me to go,
To live on with the rest.
A stray tear leaves you eye
And I cannot deny.

It’s the last thing that you want,
The last wish I can grant.
I place a kiss on your brow
And rise to my feet.

I inhale the air,
All I can get.
I shout out loud:
Retreat! Follow me!

We’ve been successful,
We’ve escaped with our lives.
And we’ll never forget
Those sacrifices made.

The darkness of night,
The deep abyss of pain,
It swallows me whole
Until nothing remains.
I cannot escape it,
There’s no way out.
I cower in shadows
With nothing but doubt.
There is no light,
Not the tiniest spark of hope.
I’m surrounded by sadness
As I wander alone.

You call me a nerd, tell me that I’m freaky.
Only ‘cause I love comics, my books and my movies.
You say that I’m childish, that I ought to grow up,
That I’m too old, that I should give it up.
But people don’t get it, why I love other worlds,
Why I read Harry Potter and watch Lord of the Rings.
The reason for it, it’s quite obvious to me:
To escape my life, this reality of me.

You may not like me,
You may think I'm strange,
But you don't have the right
To judge over me.

Your nasty whispers,
Your unconcealed stares
I always wonder:
Am I really that scared?

I think that I'm fearless,
That I do not care.
In truth I can't stand it,
Now my fears are laid bare.

But as the past taught me:
It's not over yet.
You won't just stop,
You're too entertained for that.

You will continue,
Just for your own fun.
I can only hope
That one day you'll learn.

That you'll see what you did,
See the damage you've done,
So that one day you'll realize,
Just how wrong you have been.