I never thought this could happen, only I survived,
I woke up on the ground with blood staining my clothes.
All of my friends dead, I was all alone,
that was not how it should’ve been, why did I remain?

I couldn’t bear being alone, had to escape this somehow,
so I came to a decision, that I would join their eternal sleep.
I put my sword to my wrist, intent on ending my life,
that’s when I heard a whisper; “Stop it right now!“

I turned around slowly, but there was no one around.
Could it have been my friends, protecting me even in death?
I couldn’t deny them and let the sword fall to the ground,
shakily got on my feet and headed for home.

It happened so fast, one moment changed everything,
While you were taking a walk, you were hit by a car.
The doctors fought for your life, did all they could,
But it wasn’t enough, you didn’t pull through.

The last time we spoke seems an age ago now, we walked away in anger,
We were too pride to admit, that we both had our faults.
Neither of us phoned, nor did we text,
Now I’m grieving your death: I still love you my friend!
There are so many things I still have to tell you,
I never told you just how much I need you!
I feel like losing a piece of myself,
I wonder if you knew, how much you meant to me.

Hasty spoken harsh words, I can’t take them back,
I’ve never regretted anything more; I can’t say sorry to you.
You are gone now, I’ll never hear your voice again,
There’s nothing I can do; you will never know how sorry I am.
I only hope that you know: You were very precious to me.

Now I stand by your grave, you were buried this morning,
I’ll think about you, I will never forget
The friendship we had and the emptiness left.

I lie awake at night, my fears won't let me sleep,
I'm staring at the ceiling, ‘til dawn leaves no trace
Of the internal battle, fought in the dark of night,
When my mind decides to wake, but my heart remains dark.

A long time ago I had many friends,
Had all I could ask for, but that didn’t last.
Elementary school was great, I was liked by most,
I had great marks, but this too wouldn’t last.

Grammar school came and my friends became fewer,
I got bullied at school and my grades became lower.
I was a mess, didn’t want to get up in the morning,
Every day I was sad, didn’t know what to do.

When we moved town, I also changed school,
It was a new start, but my confidence was gone.
I was an outsider, too shy to start conversations,
That’s why I made no friends and was painfully lonely.

One year it took me to finally speak up,
I made some friends in my class and was happy again.
Life was better, even though my marks were still bad.
I realized grammar school wouldn’t make me happy,
So I applied to a college and changed school yet again.

I started at college, by now much more confident,
I made a few friends, but sadly slowly lost my old.
I tried to hold contact, but they didn’t do the same.
I stopped by time and time again, but they almost never did.

Three years of college went by quickly,
I graduated as best in my class,
But education wasn’t over, I applied to a new school again.
My class was quite nice in the beginning, though they were older than me,
But soon I found out, that they spoke about me.
They talked behind my back, said many mean things,
They denied all of that, but I no longer believed it.
How will it turn out, will they ever stop?
I’ve been disappointed in life so many times,
But what can I do?

You ask yourself why I’m shy, why I don't trust easily.
It’s because of my past, 'cause I've been let down too often.

You lie in my arms, unmoving and still,
I’ve carried you for hours, hoping you would speak.
I’m aching all over but I don’t dare to stop,
I have to find shelter, get you out of the cold.

We’ve escaped with our lives, but will we make it?
We’ve always been together, we are best friends,
So it wasn’t surprising when you came back for me.
They tackled me down, you being way before me,
But you didn’t run, you came back for me,
You brought them down, helped me to my feet.

It happened so fast, it came right from behind you;
The blow to your head that sent you sprawling.
The audible crack, it chilled me to the bones,
I was frozen in time and my blood ran cold.
I made my way towards you; a man had his foot on your chest
My fist hit his jaw, he fell and knew nothing more.

I scooped you up in my arms and ran for our lives,
I didn’t stop once, you had to survive!
Now I’ve been walking for hours, but you didn’t wake,
Did not even stir, so I’m left to my thoughts.
The only thing I can hear is my labored breathing.
You were hurt ‘cause you saved me, can you forgive me?

I should’ve run faster, so you didn’t have to come back.
I try to go on, but at last stumble and fall.
Kneeling on the hard ground, I hold you my friend…
I’m checking your vitals, your heart’s beating too fast!
Your breathing is slowing, please don’t do this to me…
My tears staining the ground, despair reigning my thoughts,
I beg you to wake up, but there’s no answer for me.

I sit there in silence, the sky’s growing darker,
My hope is waning and I again check on you.
I bring my hand to your wrist; it is shaking with dread.
As I remove my fingers, I know you are dead.