i spent my life trying to please
someone with a twisted disease
i broke myself down
and tucked my feelings away
to become the person
they wanted me to be
i let myself be watched
through the glass of a two sided mirror
of a sociopath
i wallowed my spirit away
and begged for acceptance
but there’s nothing in the world
that i could do
to let the narcissist know
that i am human too

All you were then.
     All  you've become.
Look at where you’ve been.
     Look at all you’ve done.
All you create.
     All you destroy.
All that you hate.
     All you enjoy.
Those you have charmed,
     with all of your lies.
Those  you have harmed,
     while in your disguise.
All you have taken and
     All you have lost.
All you’ve forsaken and
     All it has cost.
All your deception and
     You still won't admit.
All manipulation.
     Remorse? Not one a bit.
I once was your tool.
     You once had control.
But today I'm no fool.
    And I still have my soul.

I haven’t learnt to breath fire yet
So it sits in my chest, pressing against my ribcage, searing the flesh around my heart
Hot tongues lick up the inside of my throat, burning my words as they come up, blackening them beyond recognition
You put this burning snake inside me
And choose to blame me for burning too