I hear your voice,

Calling my name

I swear, even

During a thunderous storm


I feel your arms

Around me

Keeping me safe

From any harm


I see your face

Only in my dreams

But I swear I know

Your beautiful eyes


Perhaps, the wind itself

Knows how I yearn

For your arms to hold me

And to hear you whisper my name

From my new book "Unforgettable" now available on amazon.com

There was a
reason why
our souls
collided

We may
... never ...
know all the why's

Does it matter?
I think not!

This fearless soul, shine
vivid memories of you
detached furious heart

I picked up your
Broken pieces
Shattered, one by one

It was incredibly hard
To see you so helpless
Broken promises
Of the past

You didn't believe in love anymore
You didn't care about it at all
But you wanted to, for me that
Was half the battle won

Frustration
Anger
Hurt
Misery

You felt them all deeply!

All you felt, all you became
I embraced completely
With every beat of my heart
Every bit of my soul

I loved your beautiful
Broken pieces
Nurtured them
Still love them, as you silently dream

And watch my broken pieces
From up above
You are with me
As my night turns to day

Your soul

I have known you, for so long, yet we explore a little more
Each day

I know
Without a doubt
That my soul
Needed... only yours

Sing your beautiful
lullaby to me
drizzled with your
silver drops

I cry with you
we dance
the dance
of aching souls

I have loved you for years
but our love has been a rollercoaster ride
a battlefield of our souls fighting
our hearts breaking over and over

We both prefer our solace
it hurts less
than for us to be together and
fighting over a love that will remain
                                                              ... a battlefield

I have gathered
All the pieces
Our every moment
Memories I hold onto

The long walks
With sand between our toes
When it started raining, instead of
Running we kissed and got soaked

The way you said my name
Oh, how I miss that sound
Lazy sunday mornings, coffee
In bed moments

Oh, and the laughter
The purest love
Unconditionally
... just for me

I miss the
"On my way, see you soon" texts
Or the "I love you baby" as you
Left for the day

All these pieces
Fit together
In my puzzle to remind myself
I was once loved, unconditionally

Your memory remains
My most treasured

Layers of me, all

around your body

our legs entwined

my breath in your neck


Stroke through me hair

Pull me closer,


Butterfly kisses

Strawberry whispers

and bourbon promises

all through the night


Morning coffee

wearing only your T-shirt

and freshly

squeezed juice

These are the moments I treasure,

whether you remember them

or not


These are my precious moments

When you loved me

before the complications of the day

took over what our hearts

and souls needed

My heart stubbornly

believes that one day

            you will truly see me

... truly love me

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My voice of love, speaks
waiting for your soul, seeking
find me under, stars

Memories of a

long time ago ... fading slowly

I say goodbye to the sunset

while love

adores me

with a loving morning kiss

Heart piercing violin
dull sounds of a piano
vibrating your voice
through my soul
an impulse not
mistaken to be
the drums of my heart
... running

I met a stranger today
whilst picking up a quick lunch
helped me carried my parcels
what a nice gesture, I thought

Reluctantly gave him my number
he nervously asked, "When can I see you again?"
left me speechless, really
he must be at least ten years younger

As the day went on
a few calls
a few texts
and boom

He thinks I am lovely
and loved my pretty blue nails
All I can do is hope
tomorrow, he makes me smile again

I imagine touching your hand
Walking into the deep of the forest
I imagine talking to you for hours

Exploring...
I imagine your laughter
And allow you to chuckle at my funny side
Enjoying a picnic...we fight over the last olive

I imagine sipping your love
While my tongue dance for more
I imagine...looking at you, a world without you
...while I slowly die...

We all have a story,
to tell ...
or keep hidden in our archive
of hurt, loss, love and pain

The quilt will consume you,
Let it go!
forgive those ...
... forgive yourself, often

Live a life without
the usual expectations
be your authentic self
let it go... exhale

We have all made mistakes,
some we can laugh about
most would have taught us
a valuable lesson

This ....is utter madness
This....is utter bliss
This....is us craving
Lustfully so
Passionately
To share pleasures our bodies merging at last
To feel spent
To love
To lust
To touch
To lay.... afterwards.... utterly satisfied
Utterly exhausted

Dance, dance, dance,
like everyone's watching...

I am the wind
My words breezing through
Broken souls
And shattered hearts

I am the rain
A downpour of emotions
Through my pen
Drenched with tearful memories

I am the sun
I wait for the morning
Sun, after a dark night
I get up and smile, to a new day

disguised
perfect smile
not letting anyone in
...but you

my non existent laughter
my words
my solace
I've been lonely for too long

In a perfect world
we are lovers
In my world
you will never be mine

I've been lonely for too long

I look up at the night sky
I see you between the stars
The half moon smiling
as I close my window

Draw the curtains
another night, another wish
I fall into a deep slumber
forgotten memories
revealed in my dreams

When your kisses were still
warm against my cheek
When I could still feel
your breath against my neck

At dawn I am reminded
that you will only
continue...
to live
... only in my dreams

In the depth of the ocean
darkness surrounding me
my invisible enemy
lurking in the deepest part of my soul

drowning,
emotions surfacing
faced with only
my own thoughts

my pretty smile
disguising my lies
my tears,
tell a story.

I am, ok!
my favourite line,
while tears
find their way into my heart

I give to you
all my heart
and all I am
I am ready, my love

I have waited
for your
beautiful soul
for longer than I should have

You know my scars
You love them
You show me yours
I embrace them

I have often pondered
and wished
sometimes prayed to the Gods
cursed to the universe

To feel so much
hurt so deeply
cry so often
sleep deprived

Yes, I have often wished
that you were the
...one
that got away...but in my soul
...you stay

When love is not true
We feel it
Deep within our soul
Energies collide
And collude

While hearts play along
Often, ignoring what isn't sincere

We all just want
That beautiful,
Happy ending
Even... if it hurts

Him, standing in the beautiful
morning sun...

Her, smiling, for nothing
ever looked this beautiful to her...

This world was not for you

you left too soon

I whisper your name

and dream of forever

Forever,

I will remember


Forever,

I will wait for you to whisper my name

                        through our fragile memories

I believed you
held on to every word
I will not make the
same mistake again

I cannot live
without you
I cannot crave
without you

Your touch
I will remember
Your tender kisses
I will miss, in my lonely hour

Let it go!
just a little for now
cremate all the emotion
let the tears flow

Say your goodbyes
sprinkle the ashes in their
final destination
feel your pain

But hold on to the parts of your soul
That still needs
to feel
to breathe
to love

...for now!

I dream
The dream
Of you
And I

I sing
The song
We dance
Like lovers do

I keep your soul
With mine
As it should be
Forever, I dream

When I looked into

your beautiful bright eyes

for the very

first time

I knew love

Unconditionally,

Consistently,

Everlasting

Years of the joy of watching you

grow into the

amazing man

brave and strong

I look at you

in absolute awe

You are amazing

and your mommy loves you,

                                              ... unconditionally

Though it's hard
and often, I am
close to giving up
I remember you
your love,

It gets me through
yet, another day

For a decade or so
I believed that love
wasn't meant for me,
My heart denied any love

I stopped looking
The crushing breathless
scattered emotions
suffocated my will

Determined, I lived
in absolute solace
dreaded the dawn
longing for the moon

Fate, oh FATE

A rollercoaster ride
emotions drowning
My soul
My heart

Fate, oh FATE

On a day when love
and disbelief carried my
fragile heart
I looked into your eyes

An extraordinary moment
Our hearts felt every heartbeat
in our chests
and my soul danced

        ...to a glorious twist of fate

I miss you
With every waking
Tortured moment,
It's painful

I have to let you go
Little by little
I am scattering
Your memory

And as they fade
I throw them back into the universe
Ashes to ashes
I'm letting go

I have been in love
many times before
but only once
did I truly give my heart

Only once
did I truly understand
why we love
how we love

Your last breath,
it was at that moment
that I knew
I could never, ever truly love another.

A well thought out evening
A luxury lavender soak
I lay back and inhale
relaxed and happy

I get dressed
silky stockings of course
revealing dress
black pointy heels

I do this for me
This is who I am
I embrace all things
silky and ****

My favorite cozy spot
A cider and pizza ordered
I sit back and take in this moment
I reflect...

"Perfect" Ed Sheeran
a slice of pizza
and tears
sipping my liquid comfort

Asking for the bill
I am sobbing
you are not here
I am alone

The one who used to call me
his perfect love
has left me all alone
dinner for one was not part of the plan.

I allowed you in to
break down my walls
letting a little love in
... slowly

You were scared, too
kept me at arms length, often
patiently, we waited for
our precious times

You broke through
my decade of silence
you knew my fears
you knew my heart

Showing me
my strength
my courage
I believed in myself again

I finally had to let you go
no fairy-tale ending for us
I needed to heal my soul
...all over again

I fell in love with you
when I knew it was hopeless
you needed me, and I
just couldn't be there for you

We do only have
one greatest love
I wasn't yours
You weren't mine

On this icy night

I look to the stars

With questions

And teary eyes



I surrender

To the heavens

And embrace

The chill in my veins



Standing still

Weeping

Hoping

Believing



My soul

Filled with hope

I still believe

I will love again

Piercing through
my ever insistent darkness
an orchestra of emotions
reaching out
... reaching in

Playfully,
my dorment butterflies
awaken
by the touch of
your lips on mine

Our story began
with your tender words
and ended
with your pretty lies

Holding you close
Your heartbeat
Close to mine
Stay in my arms, my love

My head on your chest
Your arms
Playing with my hair
Our bodies gliding to beautiful sounds

Our perfect moment
Just us...
Our love don't
Need any words...tonight

Round Six!
Your head on my naked tummy
touching my inner thighs
ever so gently

butterfly kisses trailing
your tongue gets a taste
of the effects of you
we just can't get enough

you need your fix
let's start round six
your tongue swirling
in my spot

I grab your hair
pull you even closer
I squirm
soft moans

your finger enters
my zone
you pull out...
and offer a taste
I obey!

With one motion you're on top.
tasting my creamy sweet mouth
******* my tongue
biting my bottom lip

We move to the rhythm of our lust
Hard….Fast
Deep...deeper
Filling me
As you collapse onto me!

You

set my heart on fire

dancing around

together as one

I

adore you

let's dance to our flames

'till the end of time

I am
A girl
I am
A lady

I am
A good girl
I am
A lil bad

I am
All about soul
I am
All about sin

I am
Happy
I am
Sad

I am
Me
I am
Happy

Whispers of hope
our beautiful, misled dreams
crazy fantasies
hopeless dreams

the words you whispered
tenderly embraced
in your comforting arms
a web of lies

wish I could
undo those promises
such deceit
in the midnight hour

our lonely hearts
... cheated

Today I sing
A song of love
Of tender words, like
I love you

Today I am grateful
For the beauty in
Our souls
Merging our tears with our hearts

Sand between my toes
a breeze
... inhaled memories
almost forgotten ...

I kneel down
and pray
for your memory
to always stay