My mental ******


My mental ****** sends shivers down my spine.
Don’t speak that word again…It will send me blind.
You are still speaking to me, after saying that word.
I can’t hear you right now.  I’m in Heaven and it’s all a blur.


My body is tingling in anticipation.
Will she speak another word as seductively attractive?
Or will she just leave me in peace, so I can enjoy this?
This pure contentment.  This pure bliss.


This feeling of unadulterated ecstasy,
To be found in her word.
She is still talking and looking,
As I drift through my Heavenly mind field.


Thinking of a context, in which this word would work best.
I shall not think of it again…yet.
I shall simply put it to the back of my mind.
It is filed under ‘******’ and its secrets are mine.


For she clearly doesn’t see the effect she has on me.
Please do not say that word again, yet.  I have had my release.
My jaw dropped open and I let out a sigh.
She spoke.  I gasped.  I messed up my best line.


I was going to tell her, she is so beautiful;
But the words didn’t get past the nerves.  
It’s a little uncomfortable.
Being so close to a Goddess;
But not being able to touch.
So I shall leave now and hope another word,
Can add such fire to my lust.


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Girl Next Door


There’s a girl who lives next door to me;
I see her every day.
She could be a model or a beauty Queen,
But she never looks my way.


She walks up and down the same old street,
With this look upon her face,
That tells me something is not quite right;
But what it is, I just couldn’t say.


All I know is, she is popular,
Because every day she gets into a different car.
Some say she used to be a talented actress,
She came here to become a star.


I wish I could give her the compassion she lacks.
They say all she knows is how to lie on her back;
But I can see in her something so hidden.
A beauty so stunning, it’s my little secret.


They call her a *****; I call her an angel.
They use her all day; her life is in danger.
But still every day she stands on her corner;
No love in her eyes, no love from her mother.
No hope left inside, she’s dead to the world,
As I walk past her again, the girl next door.


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The Big Day


Something, somewhere, must be alright,
So why is all I see and hear today so wrong?
I was drinking so heavy and hard last night
And I finished the night with a hit from the ****.


What day is it?  Oh yeah, that's right,
It's the most important day of my life.
For today I get married, for the first and last time,
To my beautiful fiancé who has always been at my side.


Who I can show off with pride,
As my beautiful bride,
For the very first time tonight
And for the rest of my life.


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Waiting and wishing.


I see each woman stood in front of me,
Could possibly hurt me, or save me today.
I can’t see which is which, or who will become a *****,
Like I cannot distinguish your face,
From the faces I’ve seen, in all of my dreams.
From the faces I see, every day in front of me.


But if you are out there, I’m waiting here,
For this place, I just cannot leave.
For this is the place I have chosen dear,
For this is the place that I live
And it keeps me here, safe from the world
And it keeps me here, just waiting for your love.


For friendship I willingly offer you.
A relationship I guess we could have;
But for you to find love with me my dear,
I guess I’ll have to make you laugh
And make you happy, all of the time,
For I am simply, another guy.


But if you are willing to stay with me,
Then this life I offer to you.
If you are willing to be with me,
Then I could improve all that I do.
For you could be, my personal muse;
You could be with me, if you choose.


So I’ll simply ask you a question.
I’ll simply offer you my hand.
I’ll simply await your decision,
On if you would like a new boyfriend.


Here I am, just waiting on your call.
Here I am and here I shall remain.
Here I am, just needing your love.
If you come with me, I shall never walk away.


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The Musketeer


People don’t want to hear negative truth,
Even when they say they do.
If I told you of my life,
You would disappear out of sight.
You only want to see smiling faces;
You don’t want to hear I have no light.


Bury me with good intentions.
Say cheer up to bring me down.
You want my love? You cannot have it.
You have not earned anything from me but a frown.


My face a portrait picture;
The eyes occasionally move.
I only look up from my despair,
So that I can see right through you.
All I see is no reflection of me.
Such empathy, such apathy.
Why does nobody feel like me?


I relate to all, only through things I saw.
There is no love for me anymore.
All you say contains no truth.
I am broken, beaten, used.


If I fall for you, I will fall alone,
Because you are already lost without your phone.
All I own could never buy your attention,
So endlessly I fail to mention.
There was a time I stood for you only;
That time has passed because you never secured me.


So at long last the time has passed,
I am standing alone at an impasse.
None shall pass, goodbye I’m leaving,
For I still protect my every feeling,
By saying naught of my ten thousand thoughts,
That I wish I had said before I left.
Now not one negative word will ever be said,
About the idea which I protect.


The lies have been said and I have faced death;
Stared right down the barrel into nothingness.
With my last dying breath,
I will hope to somehow see love again.


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