look;
i just want you to be happy.
i do.
i would be lying if i told you that i hadn't cried since the day you left,
but honestly,
despite all of my confusion whether i hate you or myself,
i just want you to be happy.

and, hey,
there are better girls for you to kiss out there
girls who don't cry when they love someone too much
girls who don't wish to get hit by a truck when they cross the road
girls who can give you a part of them without losing themselves completely
girls who knows how to cure a heart break

so go ahead
fly
you're as free as the wind now
you can run to the places we both have always wanted to see before
you can escape all your problems behind

but dear friend,
when you're tired of running,
or when you need a shoulder to cry on,
or when you need someone to talk to,
or when things don't go quite as good as you want,
please let me know
if i can still be the reason of your happiness

I wrote you a letter
with tears and spilled ink
saying how I felt
writing all my fears;
that piece of parchment
holds all my secrets
it knows all my hiding places
and I was willing to show you
in hopes that you'd stay.

Funny, how sometimes butterflies
skip over your skin without ever landing,
how basketballs spin
around the rim without swishing,
or how things never seem to work out.
I’ve been wishing

for moments of high tide, gravitational
moons that would draw me to you,
in the middle of May on Coney Island.
I want you to pull my pigtails like it’s preschool.
I want to bleed neon, shout pop tunes
to accompany my words that sound like
a poem we all had to learn
to recite from memory.

Funny, how we store meat behind our popsicles
in the freezer, how we tear up things
before we throw them away,
or how defeated we feel when we wake up
to zero new messages.
I’ve been reaching

for the plug in the drain,
sipping champagne,
hearing your name,

when all I really want is lunchboxes,
the kind your mom leaves notes in.
I want to beat you in four square,
color on my Converse, catch crayfish
in the creek behind your house.

Funny, how we tone down our souls
to fit the mold, or interview each other
based on pieces of paper when we are
alive, and breathing, and it’s funny
how we save money for next time,
plan for tomorrow before we’re done with today,
count our accomplishments before our scars.

Funny, how all we ever wanted
was to finally be exactly where we are.

As I follow the path of destruction
and see the dead bodies in my path
women running and children killed
sick world we live in
where no one forgives
all there is **** and **** some more
old men are bullied and tortured to death
it an animal kingdom where the strongest wins
where is the peace and where is the mercy
shouldn't we only attack the people who attack us and leave the others with mercy
shouldn't we respect all living things from animals and plants
war is no more spears and swords
its a cowardly game where a bomb is thrown from faraway and kills who ever it kills weather they are involved or not.
people started to have their souls ripped fro them
they became with black hearts with nothing else than to destroy and concur.
all they think about is their precious seats and the money they posses.
not caring about the peoples lives that goes in veins and parish in the grounds with their family crying til their eyes bleed.
I wish this war would end and we would all live in peace as one units.
we are all part of this big planet called earth and we should all be treated the same.

I am sitting here thinking about how everyone leaves eventually and hoping to God you're the one to break the cycle
You see I love you more than the other who have come and gone and it was stupid of me to give more love to the one who is incapable of love or so you say
You could leave me in a heartbeat and never look back but my heartbeat would forever be changed because a portion of my heart beats just for you
While I know you could abandon me a part of me whispers to myself that you never will because you are not just my best friend but my sister too
Our blood was not the same when we were born and we do not even breathe the same oxygen that goes into our blood but somehow something deeper than that flows through our veins which we share
You see you hold a place in my heart that was empty before I knew you and that could never be replaced if you left
Your mind's beauty is oh so twisted but more magnificent than the rest
We are polar opposites an you hate me most of the time but I would love you to the end of time
Everyone leaves their footprint on the Earth but you've left one on my heart the size of the Golden Gate Bridge
In the most innocent form you are my soul mate. My heart rejoices when I talk to you and I feel more full with you in my life
My biggest fear is one day I lose you but I pray to God that somewhere in your heart I'm more than just a best friend but family too

Tell me that you love me and that you'll stay,
because time takes passion slowly away,
and I don't care if you forget my name,
but all the same,
remember how I made you Feel.

See, love is just a word with no meaning
and more than once I've been left dreaming.
Hopeless romantics can't compete
with how much I succumb to cold feet.
But, all the same,
remember how you made me Listen.

Smell the dead roses scattered about.
The petals die amongst new sprouts,
just as this, you spoke my name,
but all the same,
remember please, our Taste of freedom.

My Senses spin with unfulfilled desire,
and upon silent lips, the coldest fire.
Yet still, I wish to hear that phrase,
"I love you," more than ever these days,

but all the same,
and upon my name,

what you couldn't say
I cannot blame.