I've spent a year
Loving you
With nothing in return.

I think it's time to stop.

You see her walking down the street and say you wish I had her style
You wish I had her blonde hair
My simple red was never good enough
You ask if I'll start tanning
You ask if I'll go to the gym
But all I hear
You're not good enough
All I see
Your wondering eyes

A fleeting moment
Or a longer memory
Choose a perception

This could be a song
Forever I can't sing
Because I'm tired
I can't sing
So I speak
As though I have something to say

This could be a joy
Forever I can't smile
Because I'm tired
I can't smile
Still I try
As though I was made to enjoy the world

This could be a life
Forever I am dying
Because I'm tired
I can't live
But I'm alive
As though these things I touch I feel

I found the dog with a newborn bunny in her jaw
I demanded that she lay her down so I could pick her up
She was shaken, traumatized, bleeding internally with bite wounds all around her two inch body
She was beautiful
She could not yet open her eyes for she was so young
Abandoned by her wild mother perhaps
I wept as I held her close to me
I felt her terror swell in my heart
I touched her once, she flinched
I touched her twice, she slowed
I stroked her baby fur with the back of my first ******* like wiping away tears from a child's cheek
I felt her heartbeat align with mine as she burrowed undeneath my breast, above the space where the edge of my hand pressed against my body
Searching for her mothers comfort
I loved her, I wanted to keep her, to raise her up and watch her grow
To save her
But they told me she was suffering and needed nursing to continue living,
To put her out of her misery
So I did, I captured her, she captivated me, what a life she was
I laid her down in a hole the dog had dug beside the garden
And I left her there with peace in mind.