Anger, sadness, anxious, and more. All of that feelings I don't want to bottle it up. I wanna let my anger to everybody, crying by myself, everything that will lmake me satisfy. But then I keep bottle all my feelings cause take care of others heart.

Don't think you have been rejected. I love you but I don't. I'm sorry that i lying to you, yelled at you. Seriously i didn't mean to be like that. I want you to forget about me and start your life with someone who is better than me. I'm not good enough for you, believe me.

I can delete all your picture, but it's  hard for me to forget all our memories together.

Picking up the petals
I walk around garden
Full with majestic sunflowers
Each of them have different story
Some of it are my favorite
Some of it not
I need them to grow
For me to remember
Up and down memories

One bright light
shine the most of em all
Never cross in
my mind to have
the beauty
of the universe
I keep it in the deepest
part of my heart
To let no one can have it

I wonder why I wasted my whole life thinking about you while you're so happy with other girl.

There's so much things in my head right now. Can't think straight.

When she wasn't around,
You will stick with me until you get back home.

But when she was around,
you left me and forgot about my existence. I just right there.

My bedroom wall full with sticky notes.
You know what it wrote on the notes?
It is the beautiful, amazing memories we been together.
I wrote it because I will forget some of our best moments and i don't want to forget it.

You should be shame of yourself.
He been in relationship with you for four years and never mad at you.
He is also willing to come from far away just to see you. just. Did you know how much he loves you?
I think you don't because you're busy look at other guy.
I know he will never ever give up on you because I knew him longer than your relationship with him.
Yes, there's once i love him but i let him go to you. I thought you will be with him and i was wrong. I regretted what i have done. You are lucky he loves you.

“ My hair getting fall a lot recently.”
- **It's fine honey because i fall for you even more.

You left me with a lot of questions. Who is that girl? Why are you not replying all my messages? Why you avoiding me everytime I come closer? Why you broke your own promise that you sealed with me? You said you will never hurt me but you did. You left me heartbroken. You even said you value the word of love, but why you say I love you to other woman?

Then, suddenly you texted me say that it's all lies that you don't felt heartbroken while you looking at me. You are sorry and all. You are sad looking at me. Oh please for love's sakes, I don't need your pity. I want answers.

I hate people who misunderstanding what I'm trying to say.
People misjudged me the way i write something between love or sadness.

I was shocked when you held my hand.
Nothing happened but you still held my right hand. Tightly.

I watched your face, i knew you but i can't remember who.
You're smiling and pulled me closer to your embrace.

I want to say to you that i think i have a crush on you.

But then i heard "BANG!! ".
Then continuing with screams.

......

I opened my eyes and found out I'm in bed.
My mom is screaming at me to wake up now.

I tried to hide my weakness
so they will not judge me.

Also I fail to make you feel okay

I cried because he said I'm hiding my true self too much

You are new in my life, yet I feel I knew you for a long time. You tell me all your secrets to me and that time I know you have a very dark side that I don't even want to know. You keep telling me your story what you have been through before you came in my life. You feel vulnerable. You afraid it will happen again. But I'm here. I will support you no matter what. I will never jugde you. We will face it together, my love

Seeing you lying on hospital's bed really make me heart broken. If you really gonna go, then I'm ready.
I'm ready to let you go. At least you don't have to suffer through all the pain.
I will learn how to accept your death.
I will try.

It's hurt when i saw you with a girl.




               *Not me

Every soul will taste death.

I am sorry for being such a ***** around you.

I want respect
i want to be healthy
i want to be beautiful
i want to be cared for.

i want a man who loves me
i want to be special for him
i want to colour his life with bright one
i want him to feels special with me

I think that feeling finally going to bloom!

I'm afraid that when i wake up, you are with somebody else, and forget all our precious moments. Look there, you move on so quickly while I'm still left behind thinkin about us.

Left alone -- not knowing what we are anymore

Up high in the sky
Breathe in and out like no tomorrow
Your words burning my mind

As I wiped the tears flowing on my face, I took a deep breathe. I said to myself that I don't want to be sad. I can have a perfect life if avoid feel like this.

But it was not easy. Lastly, I ended broke down and crying myself in and out.

The worst part
about being sad
is that
you dont even know
what makes you happy
anymore

Falling for you
You're like amazed

Can you heard me,
the stuck in your way.

Before you go
I want you to know that
I'm not, i am not for you.

Human screaming
Fire burning their mouths
That's what they got
When they done something
**wrong

“Well sometimes you've got to break a few hearts. People need to know the difference between their realities and fantasies; otherwise they will be stuck in a bubble of hurt and disappointment," he said.

Rumors spread
Let it flow around
Until they know that they killed someone

i was thinking if i see you with other girl, i will get hurt...

*but if i am with you, other girl will get hurt...