Crush make us smile
Crush make us laugh about funny thing he did
Crush make us go crazy
Crush make our guts go butterflies
Crush make us thinking about our own
Crush make us loving them more
Crush make us try to catch their attention
Crush make us feel hurt
Crush make us hate them
Crush make us desperate to get them
Crush make our mind exploded

I want two bottle nutella
I want three pack of skittles
I want two Pepsi
I want fried chicken with cajun seasoning
I want lasagna
Mostly i want foods

I miss the smell of fresh air.
I miss to hear grandma and grandpa laugh together with us.
I miss the cold water in the bathroom where i will skipped take a bath at 6 a.m.
I miss running to paddy fields with cousins and fell in mud.
I miss jump into the river, cleaning ourselves.
I miss my kampung.

every morning,i wonder on bed
why my life depends on those 5 mm pills..
what will happen if i do not take it?

Would you like me more
If I weighed a stone less?
If I had smaller front teeth
And I didn't always stress?
Would you like me more
If I knew how to say no?
If I liked watching movies
Or could use Final Cut Pro?
Does it bother you
When I text you late at night?
That my paranoia dances
Around the truth when you're right?
Is my laugh the final straw?
Or my awful sense of humour?

I've been alone, waiting
for you
at home
I got no feel of the air no more
I turn off the radio
My ear sick of hearing love song all over the radio
I cannot find anymore
The zing we shared
Everything I think when wrong
Cause you are faking around me
Don't be afraid
I will superwoman
And
I'm gonna fly, fly, fly
million kilometers away from you

Kalau betullah dia suka akan si dia, dia tak akan sakitkan hati si dia kan?
Dia tak akan ingat perasaan si dia boleh dibuat main main.

Brother
If you even alive right now
I want to surprise you
With give you a garden full with  Lamprocapnos spectabilis.

It's because you're the only one who will accept anything from me.

Knowing about andy is just heartbreaking
I haven't talked or anything with him
But i love him very much
He was like light to my life
Shining so beautifully
Inspiration to me

Words,describing are just not enough

I hope he rest in peace and happiness

People acted like they know, understand our love story,

But no, they did not.
Our love story is complicated and it pretty hard for people to understand it.

Tell me the story about how the sun loved the moon so much he died every nightbto let her breathe

When there no one willing to save me, You came and be my savior.
When days I broken so much
You let me your shoulder, said let me be your backbone.
Last two days ago, You asked me to marry you and I said yes. Who gonna said no when a person that will there for you ask let's get married.

Today I looking at your dead body, covered with three layers of thin fabric.
I don't understand.

You the one told people that you love me, not me.
You the one who like being teased about us, not me.

I don't love you, don't you get it?
Leave me alone.
Just let me cry by myself.
Let me let out my anger by myself.
I don't need you to help me, to comfort me.

To new generation

Where kids and teenager are sad

And always use fake smiles

I'm tired of feeling
I'm tired of school
I'm tired of fake friends
I'm tired of my family
I'm tired of me

I think some smiles are mask
To hide
The pain underneath because
If you showed the pain
That's bruising your heart
And weighing down your mind
You'd simply fall apart

I am not the one who started the game.
Please for god's sake
Don't blame me when you the one fall for me. You should not mad at people when they teased you with me.
Just ******* with your attitude

What are looking at?
Oh nothing. i just looking at you
- Stop
*I can't. You're so beautiful. Too beautiful for me.

Finally, I confessed to you how much i love you, missed you, worried sick about you. I kept ask my friend of you are still single or not. What you doing nowadays and how you are doing. How much I hate to see you with different girl in each week. And no offense, but you even go out with this tomboy.

Finally I got courage to said all that to you, in front of you in my dream.

minus the pain that youve been giving me all these days. yes, im still doing fine.

She was there, standing straight, looked strong, smiled till showing her teeth, smiley eyes. She looked gorgeous in 80'some fashion. Her hair tied in ponytail. My small hand in her hand. Yeah we are on vacation that day. We had so much fun. Dad was there too.

Now,
She is lying on her own bed, she became small and her back is hunched. Her eyes sometime open and close. She just dressed in not-a-beautiful-dress. She lost a lot of her hair. My hands holding her hands but she don't respond. My eyes are watery. I tried to hold it back but i can't. I don't want to lose you. I love you so much that i rather die before you go, leaving this world.

The scar of me and you

It's hurt even more

When i thinking about

Our memories together

I just regretted

That im falling for you

When i was a happy little girl
I always got bad dream about
a girl locked herself in bedroom
cuts at her arms
scars all over her body.

I was curious what's wrong about it.

Then, i growing up and I finally understand. Those nightmares are about me. Myself when I'm a teenager.

I'm pathetically in love with YOU

I know you're scared of me,
I know you didn't get an enough sleep because those dark circles under your eyes told me.
I can't go far away from you.
You are always shining and it's make us,me wanna get closer to you.
You can make our life better and rest in peace.

We're all dead now. There's nothing we can do unless with your help.
We need you because we are just a soul.

I wanna see you*  








              But you

                            *Not


             *Mine

Do want you love while you are young.
Enjoy while you can.
Live your adventure.
Life is just once so do things that you love.  


Let's talk about it!!!!!!

Some people always said that to us about enjoy life blah blah blah

I want to talk about it because I CAN'T DO ANYTHING I LOVE!!
how i can do things that i love when school 5 days in a week??
How i can enjoy it when i am sad?
Howw?? I'm sick when people said that especially the one who already successful in life

My heart is a traveler sweetheart
       You are my heart's destination

My heart is a boat sweetheart
        Whose shore is you

My heart is lonely sweetheart
If you come
       It will be like a full crowd

clock have been tick tok tick tok for hours, days, months. And I always thinking where on this frikin earth have you been? There's no reason to get far away from me. I know you want to say something and I'm ready to hear it.

your love seems old
but it's gold

Don't think you have been rejected. I love you but I don't. I'm sorry that i lying to you, yelled at you. Seriously i didn't mean to be like that. I want you to forget about me and start your life with someone who is better than me. I'm not good enough for you, believe me.

I wish I had know andy early