Why wouldn't you listen
When I said I needed help?
[I had to learn how to do it all myself.]

Why were your priorities
Always them and never me?
[You never had time for me.]

Why did you speak over me
When I tried to tell you about my day?
[I needed you to hear me.]

Why did you let them
Walk all over me?
[I cried myself to sleep.]

Why did you blame me
When I walked away?
[I had to put myself first for once.]

Why was I your dependent
And not your child?
[I was a kid.]

my heart let you go when i didn't want it to
you loved me as if i was what kept you living
we had that rom-com type of love that you can only find in movies
that love that every teenage girl would die for
you were there for me when i wasn't there for myself
and darling
what we had was beautiful

"will you take me to a place where we can see the stars?" i quietly whispered as you held me in the dark
"of course, beautiful" you smiled
"promise?"
"i promise" you kissed my forehead gently

all we ever wanted was to see the stars together
i wanted to be able to feel what the stars were trying to whisper to us
they kept trying to tell us something
but i suppose we will never know
for i broke that promise that you made to me
because my heart finally decided to tell me: "darling, it's time to go"

To taste the sounds
To turn back time
To read in complete darkness
To travel faster than light
All would have to be possible
For me to forgive

she’s too strong,
she’s too much,
she’s too tough to love.

she’s too hard,
she’s too broken,
she’s not enough.

she’s imperfect,
she’s wild,
she’s lost in the wind.
she’s insane,
sending signs of chaos from within.
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