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ylruceiram Feb 2015
My head is completely blank
Completely dark
Completely blank
Completely uncertain
Completely lost

I feel so lost and misplaced
Where can I fit in?
Where do I really belong?
JLPfoxy Feb 2015
Drip, drop
Until my heart stops
Bleeding with a meaning
I know they've been deceiving me

Don't stop
Fueling my addiction
I feed on all the tension and pain that I've been given.

My life
Caught up in a daydream
Pretending that I'm mainstream
Until they found the blood stains.

That knife
I don't know how it got there
Its sharp; my feeling: unclear
I just know I can't stay here

Inside me
There's so much that I've hidden
Constantly stumbling on decisions
Regret knows something's missing

Tick tock**
Time is leaving me behind
The clock is laughing at me
Im stuck on pause and can't rewind
I was scatter brained and half awake when I wrote this.
Tonie Wasco Feb 2015
I feel so unsure
about how to feel
about you.
for you coming into my life
was not so surprising
since the moment I meet you
I know we would see
how it would go
yet old pains
and the sorrows of lovers
that left marks
that can be seen on my heart
are hard understand
yet over time they don't stand a chance
since i'm just laying down
next to you
unsure about the future
but hoping for a better one
Syzygy Feb 2015
Am I your real choice
Or just your plan B?
I can hear it in your voice
I don't think you want me.
AmberLynne Feb 2015
The one person I want
                                           to talk to most is
the person I need
                                           to stay away from.
And how can I decide between
the one who
                                takes my breath away
and the one who
                                makes it so I can breathe?
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witchy woman Feb 2015
If you picked at my brain theres alot you'd find, trust me Ive spent hours tearing apart my own mind. Again here I am tripping over a new path full of old fears, that have never resided- always here. Demons that hide behind the trees- the same ones under my grass woven bed- monsters beneath rocks
and in my own head. They strike ruthless with open jaws- tiny little flesh searing bites that tear the fabric of my being apart.
Inside, underneath the ribcage and sinew-ache our sad little hearts. At the potential that we could lose this, let it slip away like tiny silk threads- the happiness. For the connection we share, heavy enough for my feeble back- is the also cross we've chosen to bear intact. In the brightest of days- comes the blackest night. And through the darkness and pain my instinct is fight or flight; I dont mean to hurt you.
But looking out for ones self is something we all do. In the end we all lose
for fragile paper thin hearts such as ours are easily bruised
You know,
I'd never want to make you choose between being with me and doing whats you

But,
for now you care enough to walk with me
along this path of life though so unforseen
you look those monsters in the eye when they reveal their fang shaped teeth
and always just remind me to breathe.
At this time, I suppose that's all I need
but I pain over the fact that I can't still be sure of you and me
Last night ******
Dont think he really enjoys me all that much
Oh well
I guess we have that in common
Deenah Jan 2015
Set fire to my heart,
So my mind can see clearly.

Its ashes be so sparse,
That my judgement isn't cloudy.

Don't let embers fly off like fireflies,
Lest they spark my mind wrongly.

And lastly, please bury its ashes far away,
As its loss, too painful a memory.
Sometimes you're unsure of why you're even hurting. But you are. And most the times, it remains a battle between the heart and the mind. One overridden with logic. The other with emotion.
Jen Jan 2015
Head turbulent with restless thoughts
Heart full of hopeless wants
Nichelles Eye Jan 2015
Amazing.

Amazing how a human being can be the reason to your sanity or insanity

To drive you insanely happy or crazy, you never thought it would be you right, how can it be?

It seems so much more simpler to watch the idea of love to someone else's vision

You go from low to high to high to low, your butterflies grow then go, your temperature has risen

Get yourself prepared for the roller coaster of the dose of another human beings presence

You'll learn a thing or two, from the deadly feeling of the unwanted turn of events and their lessons

You have no idea what you're in a ride for, get on, go high, go toss and turn upside down

You'll laugh, you'll scream you'll fear for your life and your stomach will torture round and round

Leading to starved insides from the lack of the dose you so desperately need

Your eyes will get too heavy to close  for it all to be over as you plead

To get off, to please be over, you can't take anymore, its too much, no mas no mas

Its frightening to know how much you lack of self control for this ride, keep your fingers crossed

Will you make it? Will it be worth it? Can you make it through it to the end?

It slows down after a while, the craziness settles down until you let it begin again

You're off, you made it, the drops of your insides switch off and you feel empty

It wasn't that bad, even more so knowing you could do it, its so tempting

To try it again. And again, you crave to get on once more.

The roller coaster of another human being can excite or scare you to the core.

There's nothing else like it, its a powerful drug that can cause us to deplete

To look back at an end or beginning with the thought of it as a victory or defeat.
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