The saddest thoughts;
are thought's we are unable to explain

Escape,
Into the peace;
Calmness,
I wish I had.

Lost control,
My mind betrays me,
Wonders off sore;
Sharp blades,
They approach me.

Though I do not want,
What I have lost;
The absence of pain;
I want to feel.

The kiss of a blade,
One that can heal,
So the pain,
*Shall fade.

I don't know who's at fault-

whether its the insane heart in me
or is it your mesmerising beauty?
whether its my heart playing game
or is it you wanted the same?

I don't know whom to blame-

the heart which I believed
or my sanity which deceived?
I dreamt of something impossible
so I think its my luck plausible!

I don't know what to do-

whether to cry out loud
and shed all those grey cloud?
or to hold it for long
and with her departure;
I let it flow along?

I don't know what I want-

though I know its you, you and you
but I kept silent at all your view...

I know my answers pretty well-

yet I keep repeating my question
but believe me its not out of confusion
its out of the hope that you may
reply the answer I want you to say!

Big round eyes,
Warm kindered heart,
Cheerful spirit,
Pleasing soul,
Overabundent love,
A type of love
Unexplainable
To those who have
Yet to experience it.
Lives without worry,
Aims to please
Never angry,
Slow to judge,
Quick as a cat,
Peacful as a dove,
Oliver is a love.

I feel as if I might explode
Filled to the brim
Overflowing with emotion

Love, wonder, hurt, sorrow,
A lightness in my chest
A feeling in my heart
It is something I can't explain

All these emotions filling me
I feel everything
There are no words to describe
What goes on in my mind

This feeling in my heart
It fills me with want
I don't comprehend
What do I do to the end?

Is this to be my fate
Never finding the right words to say
Is this what it means
To have a poets mind?

I'm not very good
Not like the greats
Classics that eveyone knows

Or maybe
I'm just to close
To see my own greatness
For to me
These poems don't fit
I can't use symbols
Or discreetly criticize

Everything straight foreward
But is this feeling in my chest
The potential I have in me?