Haven't felt it in a while
That tearing inside and out
The feeling of an impaled heart
The breath coming to a halt
As your name and message
Flashed across the screen

you meet new people and they'll say sweet things and at first it will sting everytime they compliment you because those words weren't meant for them but as time goes along the weight in your stomach will turn into a helium balloon, floating to the top everytime they text you goodmorning and things will be going great and you won't even remember his name until one day they don't answer your messages and they post pictures with people that aren't you and the balloon will deflate and your lungs will too and you'll wonder if your mouth is full of scissors or your hands have razor blade calluses because what could be so bad about you that no one can afford to stay

the scars fade and you delete the messages, you forget what their eyes look like and what their jackets smelled of and nothing is the same but everything wants to be

The two met a few years ago
He was eager for her attention and she was eager for his
A couple of days went by, the two went out on a movie date
Little that she know, his sweetheart was sitting next to them in the movie theater
As they were watching a movie, she gripped on to Jose so tightly as a horrific scene was displayed on the screen
His sweetheart grew jealous and held his hand when she was not looking
When the movie was over, everyone went home
As the two changed and lied down for bed, an incoming text buzzed off on his phone....
It was the sweetheart!!
The text read; "Hey baby, I miss u."
He replied; "I miss u 2"
She was disappointed and wanted nothing to do with Jose no more.

I’ve been waiting
for ever
for someone
to get you drunk

So I could read
the words on
a screen that I
really needed to
hear from your mouth

The night I knew
you got the alcohol
choked down your throat
I waited up for
these texts from you:

I miss you.
I miss you so much.
I miss seeing you everyday.
I miss waking up next to you.
I can’t stand the idea of being away from you.
I wish I stayed.

But all you will say
the next time you see me
—if you ever want to see me is
“I hope my texts didn’t wake you up”

They didn’t.

"Pat. Alam mu ba, hindi ko talaga alam kung gusto kita, o gusto kita kasi un yung dapat.
Naguguluhan ako nun, everynight iniisip ko kung makikipag hiwalay ba ko sayo para hanapin ang sarili ko. Kasi hindi ko na alam.
Hindi ko talaga na alam, gusto kong lumayo. Mapag-isa.

Pero alam mu, akala ko mahal kita. Akala ko gusto kita. mahal na mahal pala kita , ikaw yung gusto ko. Ngayon. Bukas. At sa mga susunod pang araw.I love you honey :') hindi ko alam kung panu titigil ung puso ko na mahalin ka.
HAHAHA
Mugto na mata ko
HAHAHA
can't wait to see you tomorrow.
Promise mas mamahalin pa kita hangga't pwede.
Hangga't ok.
Thank you. i love you. I love you hon!

Gm 'to.

Hahaha drama lang

#pat<3<3<3
#Iloveyousuper!
#saranghe"

She's late as usual
no I'm not ******

It would do no good . . . anyway
(inside I know I would wait an eternity)
. . . or more

Hey ! About done ?

. . . no response . . .
now you done it. . . she's mad now . . .
or just doesn't care . . .

I rustle some papers . . .
straighten up some pens

Oh ! I forgot , she's more the text type thing

fresh off her lips . . .
click , click , click . . .

So goes my mystic muse

I waited...and I waited

But I never got that phone call
The one that I have been waiting for all day
Just to hear your voice
To hear the reason why

Why you chose to end us
Why you chose to stop loving me
Why you chose to throw away something of significance

But instead...I get a text