You called me a ***** from my first breath.

Extenuating circumstances were but a detail; extenuating being - nonexistent.

This sheltered child that just wanted love and knew no better.
This sheltered
— gay— ******* girl —
wanted acceptance and found it in her abyss.

Where her quirks were labeled earned her outcast. Lines up her calves. Feelings of something other than the terror that ensued.

Listen to your mother - she’ll tell you your worth - a list of pros and cons - calls to the cops - but is it worth her gaze ?
Moms busy in the bathroom.
Were you ready to be a parent so soon?

They see the lines - they smell the cigarette dreams. Do they see your drowning? Do they hear your screams?

I can feel you screaming within,
Of joy in times,
And of who knows how many songs,

I can sense you,
Reaching out to the fore-est of my forehead,
And
Like a tide in sea,
You sweep away all that I am,
And fill me with you,

With ahoy-joy you jump: within me,
However, I sense I feel,
I am still here.
I am fully aware.

you looked sad,
when you saw me cry,
you wiped my tears.

now tell me,
what would you do,
if you found out.

the tears in my eyes,
screamed your name,
loud and clear.

Being losing you is my biggest fear 
Like stars fading away from night
Like birds forgot about how to make sound
Like wound stops healing 

But the worst thing you took my heart from my chest
My body screaming cause my heart and soul does not exist
Without you
I'm losing control 
Like heart take me there wherever you gone