What does life have in store for me? Everything is coming together at last At this point, I would be afraid, but somehow I'm not, Future is approaching My personality changing And I'm almost seventeen. Wow Almost seventeen? I'm almost an adult and it's hard to realize this. I've been taking life in the perspective of an adult for some time now, but to become an adult to match my thoughts? I might finally act my age.
I've got standardized tests to do I can't falter So many testings of different importances and knowledge levels are approaching and I've been so lucky to have been able to take a chemistry course of my caliber.
But will I achieve my goal?
I'm content and feeling full. a fullness that filled up the emptiness and anxiety pit inside me not more than eight months ago Wow Eight months ago? I've been living in my childhood city for about seven months. seven months. these months made me somewhat more than my usual okay they made me feel normal And that Love is for me And will be there for me True. My work ethic isn't how it used to be. True. My lack of influence and social acceptance aren't easy to avoid anymore. Perhaps, This is some kind of lesson?
a... twisted lesson that involves the backstabbing of new "friends"
they are Funny, Yet not. Accepting, Yet not. Envy and stupidity Ignorance I'm not any better in their eyes But I do not care I've been humiliated all too many times I feel Anger, Yet I shouldn't.
This very school was chosen according to my research. So sometimes I feel like I've made a big mistake and that is all my fault. But it's like there weren't any other options either
A family, that is short on money and barely afforded their children to go to school. Their story, repeats of every year that a new grade level comes into the picture.
For as long as I've been in the 7th grade, I've remembered the struggle and the worry.
I'm so sick of this infinite loop. So I will be the terminating condition
stopping it at its roots. to destroy any chance of plant seed deciding to latch on to soil.
I made mistakes and ran all the mischief but i'm here at a CET with ease knowing that she's the first one i'll see
wrote this minutes before my admissions exam at FEU (far eastern university). i was very nervous because i was the only who doesn't have a parent or friend as a companion but just before we went in the room and were asked to keep our phones, she told me we could go out on a date after i take the exams.
I never knew how you cared-and never felt so Loved, until I found I was out of control and Fell from up above. You don't deny me you, I don't deny you me-and so elated was my Heart when you sat ahead of my seat. I felt That day the bus ride would never really End, and something in me never knew What lied around the bend. Our sunshine fell from the sky like sparkling Drops of dew, and when I see the golden Flowers I always think of you. I feel This love I have for you is very strong! As you called for a stop 'cause you got Sick-we were at the mission just past dawn. Why when you got sick I fell in love I really Cannot say, but then again that bus ride still Continues to this day...
I remember last night With a sunset sky Pink Lilac Baby blues and glimmering golds I wanted to see you today But I couldn't Not really I remember last night When we talked until the streetlights turned on When I put little white daisies in your hair And you smiled for me I wanted to do that tonight But I couldn't Sadly I remember last night When we sat by the creek And caught fireflies Flickering in the dimming light Like little neon stars I wanted to do that tonight But I couldn't And it hurt
my education has turned into a competition i never agreed to enter. i don't hate learning, but i hate being taught by teachers who don't care who really just work here so they can coach. everyone says, its preparing you for the real world. so the first 13 years of my education is just a trial run? i don't know what day of the week or month it is, i think in test dates and deadlines. they say you need a good ACT/SAT score to get into a good college. fun fact: only 21% of people work in the area that they majored in. they make it seem like everything is depending on this test. i don't know how much longer i can handle this weight and pressure to perform. i used to be gifted way back when but now i'm not because i wan't continually challenged. i just need to make it through this semester, then it'll be over for a couple months, then the cycle will start again...