She loved you
But did you love her too?
Was it true
You would hold her nectar hips
And kiss her lips
And promise you would never leave
You’d stutter her neck like flies on a carcass
And you loved the wild girls
With green eyes
But where you just whispering sweet little lies into her ears
Scared to face your fears
You said love wasn’t true
But you stuck to her like glue
The sticky tree sap
That held you and her together
Forever?

I write because I have nothing else to do
And now your missing feels deeper than before
I need to bring you back somehow

I miss you more each day and more

I still can't believe that you're gone

And I feel more and more alone

Whatever others say you were my little brother

And my heart aches so much..
always blaming my Self
What could I have done more?

What will I do without you to adore?

You were the best thing that ever happened to me

7 I was when we met.

Atleast you're in a better place now baby, I miss you endlessly

I wish I could bring you back

But I promise we'll meet again in heaven,
Because that's where you belong.

I always thought you would come back to me
Like you always did
After every girl would break your heart, or you theirs
You'd call me up
And I'd welcome you with open arms

I always thought you would come back to me
Once you broke up
But when 6 months past and I never got a call
I realized it wasn't coming
But I still hoped for that call every night and every day

I always thought that you'd come back to me
But apparently
You aren't coming back this time

how do i
tell him
i miss him
so much
more than he
will ever
know.

how do i
hold him
in my arms
so that
he knows.

how do i
not scream
from not being
able to
love
the one person
i spent
7 months
loving.

how do i
feel this
when i am
the one
who broke his
used to be
piece of my
heart.

what is love?

is it a feeling?
is it a decision?
is it a prescribed death?
I have a problem; I have fallen in love.
it is believed to be the 'most beautiful thing',
but if it is
if this is true,
why am I torn between devotion and distress?
is it because he owns my heart,
or is it because he is too far away from me?
is it because I'm mad at myself for craving him so deeply,
or am I mad that I don't have him beside me?
to kiss me. to hug me.
so please, do tell...
how is this 'a beautiful thing'?
if I can't be with him, but I can't live without him?