I turned sixteen yesterday,
And the day filled me with dread.
From my father and my mother,
I wished that I was dead.

I turned sixteen yesterday,
And my parents made a fuss.
Although I was sad,
I gave them my trust.

I turned sixteen yesterday,
And they tried to give me everything.
Grateful I am, hateful I won't be,
But the only thing I wished for was his arms around me.

I turned sixteen yesterday,
And I breathe a new breath.
The life that once engulfed me
Has now become death.

I turned sixteen yesterday,
And I miss him so much.
Happy as I tried to be,
I still longed for his touch.

And I am sixteen today,
He would have been, too,
But death came and took him,
Too many years, too soon.

You should have been sixteen,
But young you will stay.
My love for you will never die,
We'll meet again one day.

I don't think you can stop me,
but I'd like to see you give a try,
before I'm done my baby,
you'll be the one to kneel down and cry,
I'll be the one who's walking away,
& you'll be the one who's left with goodbye.

Cherie Nolan © 2016

if memories could **** I would already be dead
because the sound of your voice and the pressure of your touch live like knifes inside my head

so what will you say when they find me dead on the ground?
clenching a map with your heart on it scratched in my blood while my voice is not even making a sound

will you turn yourself in for murdering our love and killing me?
or will i forever pay the price while you get to hold her hand and walk the earth free

while I take my last and final breath I will never understand how easy it was for you to walk away
but how easy it was for every word and every touch and every memory to always stay

if memories could **** I would already be dead
because the sound of your voice and the pressure of your touch live like knifes inside my head

If only you could see yourself through my eyes,
Then you'll be able to see what you mean to me.
You'll see that I love you dearly, I cherish everything about you.
I love your smile,
The sound of your laughter,
The way your eyes sparkle with happiness,
All your little dumb jokes.
It drives me crazy when I'm away from you,
It drives me crazy when I'm with you,
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
I love everything about you.

Somewhere through the night you stopped loving me. I wish I could change that last moment with you, I wish I could've said I love you more and held you closer to me. Took in the smell of your skin. Ran my fingertips across your every inch. You said you loved me that night but something went wrong because your feelings left just like that. Suddenly you were gone and I was left to pick up the pieces of my own shattered heart. I was left to miss the smell of your skin and the feel of your fingertips tracing my sides, I was left to wonder if you really ever loved me. Because how could you just end it so abruptly, if you did? I've been reliving my memories trying to figure out where I went wrong. But I don't know if I'll ever figure it out. All that matters is your gone and I'm left behind, only a memory that you choose to ignore. My love, I would die for you every day if I could. If in three years you walked back into my life I would welcome you back with open arms. My love for you has become infinite, I wish I could scrawl your name in the stars. I wish I could write your words all over my skin. I wish you didn't leave me, I wish you had stayed. You left a ghost in the place that I used to be. All I have left is the desire to haunt places that used to be ours, if you ever come back you'll know where to find me.

I miss you so fucken much its not even funny anymore!!! :(
As soon as your back
and I get to see you
prepare yourself
because imma run up to you
and almost bowl you over with my hug
okay?
okay
:D :) <3
x

I miss mine homie,
Who in the world's name is homie? One mayeth ask.....
Well homie
Is mine old German Shepherd.....
Dad named him that
Funny yes I know.... Long story ....
And though I haveth many Angel's here on earth......
Homie,
Was mine true pet angel....

He always watched out for me when I was around nine years old.
And when one day,
At mine birthday party...
Mine friends tried to be OK with homie,
As me and homie were soulmates friend and being wise...
So mine friend's tried to feed homie through his fence hotdogs,
Like I did with no problem...

And mine old buddy Danny found out.
Homie didn't eat hot dog's
Unless I Gaveth them to him ....
Me, his best friend and soulmate!
Fed them to him....
As I saw homie ready to rip Danny's hand off...
I just chuckled and told homie...
Down boy down...

Homie always listened...
He was mine soulmate....
My do I miss mine homie...

As I remembered one day coming home from school...
Mum picking me up from that young learning center,
She said son I got something to tell thee,
On the way home...


(Yes mum)
I said...

Well,
Homie died
I found him whilst thou was at school son...
( said mum)

I couldn't say nothing
I think I just said really?

As mum told me
He was found in his doghouse
Curled up
Dead.....

I questioned her?
Where is he mother?
Wherein did thou layeth his body mum?
I asked....

She told me she had taken him to some place about fifteen minutes away,
And buried him in some wood's....

I wasn't angry with her.
Nor even father,
I was hurt because I didint get to see his body...
I was hurt because I told mother and father all the time...
Bring him INSIDE!!!!!!
When it got cold...
As I remember it was cold
And snowing when he died........

Yes I understood homie was a big dog
And couldst be a little wild at times....
Though we had a basement
With rooms in that basement
And couldst haveth put a cage down there....

So I felt horrible I didint just bring him in
Even though they thought it was fine to stay outside
During winter......

Mum thought he was poisoned
By someone putting something in his food....
My opinion is he died alone,
When I was gone,
And froze to death....
Don't like thinking of it...
I just miss him to mine soul!!!!!!!!!
I forgive mum and dad not angry,
Just canst waiteth to see mine angel again...

R.I.P homie baby boy...
See you in heaven (:

Everything's still the same,
Nothing seems to have changed
But one...
You're gone.
And, without you,
Even though everything's still the same,
Nothing seems to be the same.

Maybe it was the way fate intertwined our lives together on that warm summer day, or maybe it was the way he looked at me as if I was the most beautiful flower he'd seen amongst all the others in the garden. Whatever it was that caused my heart to fall for his, I am blessed.
The beauty of one's love for another is equivalent to every breathtaking sunset I have laid my eyes on and every single star that I have made a wish upon.
I found beauty within our hushed whispers and deafening silences, along with the moments of laughter and smiles reaching from ear to ear.
He was the most beautiful shades of color I had ever seen. Not a single rainbow could compare to the warmth and radiance he emitted.
Maybe it was the way he kissed my nose when I was angry- such a simple gesture, but it wasn't simple to me. It was the world and all the universes combined into a single second of complete compassion.
I cherished every single kiss of his, I savored the taste of his tongue, I basked in the warmth of his embrace- time didn't exist when I was enveloped in his arms.
Months down the road, and I still reminisce on every single detail of all of our memories together; hoping that one day maybe fate will be ever so kind and have our paths cross once more-