A couple of days and nights
I acquired sadness and restlessly
Anxiety always prevail
I'm acting strange

I'm longing for you
Loneliness tearing me apart  
But i keep on chasing our memories
One by one

But when i see your bubbly face
And heard your angelic voice
I felt rejuvenated
After being devastated

Why is it that every word you speak
I expect insults instead of compliments.
Why do you show your love for me through angry hands,
why can't you show me you love me by loving me
rather than destroying me.
I am scared of what is next.
I am scared of how many more times your hands will be covering my mouth.
I know you love me.
But I also know you hate who I am.
I love him but we are both victims.
We cannot seem to control ourselves any longer.
There is more hate filled touching than love filled.
I have become your biggest pet peeve.
I am the nagging in your ear.
You will never admit this to me,
but I am clever enough to see the hate you have for me by the lack of touch,
the way your eyes don't glaze over when you look at me anymore.
I keep trying to put you out of your misery of the burden that I have become.
You won't let me.
I am sorry I have become a chore.
I never wanted to be the person you wanted the least.

You said it first
Those words I was always afraid of
You said it first
And God it scared me to death

I thought I was never enough
I was never beautiful enough
I never reached your level of class
You were a bad boy
And i was " that girl"

The fact that you said those words first
Is exactly why I could never repeat them
But you had  me tangled in your Web
That you woven so easily with the feelings you thought you had for me

I was so caught up in those words
I didn't realize you were slowly slipping from my grip
I guess I was so afraid to love you
That I didn't bother to hold you tighter
I was so afraid that you loved me first
That it made me believe you weren't honest
now that you've slipped away from me
God, how I wish I could've told you

How I wish I told you I loved you
How I wish I told you that you were exactly what I wanted, needed, yearned for
How you made me feel  better
How you made pain feel like joy

And now that you've slipped away from me
I only admit it to myself
I loved you Wyatt , more than anything
And it's because you loved me first
Is why I didn't tell you I loved you
Because you loved me first
I didn't think you'd ever leave.