My heart is thumping with pain,
I feel ashamed,
The biggest endurance race where there is nothing to gain.
My heart is inflamed.

Pain is the gateway to nothingness,
People only notice  satisfaction,
No one notices the teardrop of weakness.
People only notice the reaction.

My heart hurts
It fears for the worst
Knowing the end it near
The notes start with “dear...”

I can't show my pain
I don't want to lose everything
I just want to feel again
My heart would burst for you
Only if that would make things right
I don't feel anything
This huge pain you bring
Starting over doesn't look so bad this time
Emotions still touch me

I am the virus
How can I be blind to these warnings
No one is coming to save me
I can't save myself
I've been walking down a path to my own destruction
I am just a walking problem
This virus will haunt
It will take everything from me
I've been silent, still being torn apart
I'm just so sick an tired of here waiting
It's time to save myself

I regret it
I regret the scars on the top of my thighs
Just below my hips
I should of been stronger
I shouldn't have cared what they said
But I did
I was stupid
And I regret it now
All those words they said
Telling me to do things that no one should hear
My so called friends
Saying I should trust them
And me handing my trust over to them
Just for it to be shredded and used against me
And him
The 'perfect' boy
Who used me
Tore my heart
Ripped it out
Then jumped all over it
Its torture being in love
Because after all they all did to me
I still love them
But I should of just talked to someone
Then cut myself
Stupid

I am no doctor,
but this love you are describing,
may be in your heart.
Find her, or you could die.
Or maybe this love is a poison
leaving your body.
Withdrawal *****, I know,
but then again, I'm no doctor,
I am but a stranger.
Your story has been told,
a billion times over.
Do you have a pen?
Do you have a heart?