I had eyes but failed to see
What was precious to me
I had ears but failed to hear
The words of the ones who were dear

I had a tongue but failed to say
The thing that I needed to relay
I had a heart but failed to feel
Anything that could've been real

Empty and alone I am here
While death draws near
Thoughts of the life I could've lived
Crashes into what I had believed

Can I change before I die
Or will I tell yet another lie
Will Death set aside his duty
For me to enjoy life's new found beauty

In this city of lights/
The lights cover lies/

You try to live your life/
In a city full of strife/

In the day you see the sunlight/
In the night there's still light/

Where is the truth now/
We killed it, but how?/

We lie and call it bluff/
And we say life's tough/

We ourselves make things tough/
And don't know when's enough/

Teaching lying to our youth/
Every moment killing the truth/

This will go on for generations/
Spreading to all nations/

I am living at Death's door\
I wanted to live some more\
That is why I never passed to beyond\
And now I'm a wanderer at this hour\

I am killing at War's front\
Against my willon this manhunt\
I wanted more from this life\
And now I'm a murderer and shunned\

I am eating at Famine's dining room\
With a hunger that leads me to ruin\
I want more to eat, all I am is gluttony\
And now all I do is consume\

I have Pestilence at my core\
Anyone I touch sickens, more and more\
I didn't want this for anyone, not me\
And now I caused this horror\

Out of control, I'm not me\
An apocalyptic creature, a zombie\
Created to **** and leaved the world free\
Of this curse that is known as Humanity\

Monsters live where they make their bed/
Controling you while living in your head/
And some befriend you and help/
While the others want you to suffer 'til you're dead/

The monster is your own mind/
It's your subconscious, you're bound/
Behind every decision/
With astounding precision, its work is found/

Puppeteer in the shadows of the mind/
It's your instinct, making you blind/
In its grasp is your emotions/
While its master plan is being alined/

You wouldn't know what it seeks/
Our down fall or rising to our peaks/
Friend or foe, ally or enemy/
You're powerless against it, so to speak/

So enjoy the ride while it lasts/
And let go of your past/
Live in the moment, be happy/
The possibilities are vast/

Beauty only knows how to hide the truth,
We're all hanged from a cliff with a loose noose.

If we hang on we choke and lose breath,
If we let go we fall to our death.

That is what life is, a mess,
When choices end the same, death.

As for beauty, a lie to give purpose,
To live through this life's curses.

You get the point, nothing more to say,
And that's why i end the poem this way.