i saw glaciers in your eyes,
icy plains and lost streams.
i felt you fill my lungs
your salt water burning
with each new breath,
drowning in you
with every exhale.

you consume me
so entirely
filling up my lungs
with each breath
dancing around my veins
with each beat of my heart.

Lost in a sea of words, drowning under the weight.

let me drink you in
i will gasp for air
just to consume you.

you set me on fire
you touch me
and i know,
that there is no heaven
better than this.

Don't look at the past
with statistics that must
rise, deepen the abyss
in which we dare not fall

Rather turn around, step back
live like the oldest people
simple, without any illusions
about what you need

Take so many steps back
that you have time again
to do nothing and can pay more
to others

Join the splinter party
for public facilities
in the margins of the world
and choose the future

Should I open my eyes?
Should I face reality?
The reality that I'll always have this feeling?
This unstoppable, overwhelming, consuming, sickening feeling of being alone?

Maybe I should just
Accept it.
I know
I know I'm gonna be alone.
That no one's gonna love me.
That I'm never gonna be good enough for anyone.

i sometimes wonder
what i did wrong
perhaps i was too much to handle,
incapable of loving small.
i tie myself wholly
in an act of pure devotion
ready for worship
maybe that's what made you run
but i can't apologise
for wanting a love
that eats me whole.