I see you
standing on the left side of the fence
I see you
crying deep inside your defense
I see you
tighten your jaw when emotion hits your heart
I see you
acting stupid to hide your smarts
I see you
making decisions that will impact you forever
I see you
believing forever couldn't actually exist.
I see you
pain crippling down to your bones
a weakness you wont ever show
I see you
but you wont look me in the eyes
you wont tell me whats wrong
but i can see you
I can see you
I can see your love trying to shine
I can see the torture that's held it down
I can see the sorrow through the smiles
I can see the heartache beneath the front
I can see the bruises making scars
I can see each cut getting deeper than the last
I can see the oncoming regrets and the ones that have passed
I can see the guilt hiding behind the light in your eyes
Don't try to fool me
I've seen you since the first time i saw you
looking scared as **** but trying to front
When will you be ready
When will you see
You've been lost since you could think
and pushed past your brink
Slow it down and take a look inside
before its too late to take a step back
Don't let that pain keep you classified
We all need to be identified
Its going to hurt
It has to be hard
but how is that different from where you are
take my hand
follow me to a better space
Where its hard at first
but you finally find your place.

I'm dancing in the rain jumping in  puddles
Leaving all my pain behind
Breathing in the sunshine watching the clouds roll by
The seasons pass
The reasons pass too
Tears will dry
The smiles will come and go
Breathe in today breathe out today
Forgetting about tomorrow
I'm dancing in the rain jumping in puddles
Leaving all my pain behind
The sun will rise again tomorrow
Breathing in all of today breathing out all of yesterday
The wounds will heal
the pain will fade
That smile will grow brighter
Dancing in the rain jumping in puddles
Leaving the pain behind
Breathing in all of today
Breathing out all of yesterday

Not so much grey today, despite the weather
Feeling lighter, an easiness, cells filled with helium,
You look brighter she says,
I have had a shave and my hair cut, I reply
She smiles, I smile, we laugh
The day feels well oiled, little resistance
Or maybe it is just me,
Either way I'll embrace it and slide on through

There’s always a little cloud cover on the brighter side.

© Matthew Harlovic

Be your own hope.
And find the one that makes it stronger.
Be your own love.
And find the one that makes it romantic.
Be your own light.
And find the one that makes it brighter.
Be your own inspiration.
And find the one that makes it into art.
Be your own determination.
And find the one that makes it happen.

Be your own fight.
And be your own victory.