I know you're talking
I hear you

I know you're watching
I can feel your stare

I know you notice
When I leave the room

But it's how it feels
When all you are
Exists but it's not alive

I know you're talking
But I don't know why

I know you're watching
But why do you care

I know you notice
But why is it me

Slowly I stopped living
But I still existed
I was still breathing

I faced my devils
Now you're facing yours
Are you keeping me around for security
Or do you mean it when you tell me
That you love me

I broke myself down
I bled myself dry
And it seems to me
That I'm watching with my broken eyes
As you do the same

I found my way back through the pain
That my method acting brought me
And now I can only sit and watch you
While you take your pen
And follow in suit

I'm trying to be okay
I'm trying not to push you away
But the devils I forgot to face
Are the ones that arise when love
Is at stake

I believe you when you say you love me
But it's been a while since I've been loved
And every time they leave me
For every reason they said they loved me
So forgive me

I'm still broken
I am whole in more ways than I ever was
But I'm still broken
When it comes to the thought
Of losing you

It’s the year of you and don’t you forget.
Where happiness sits at the top of the list; but
smiles are reserved for those who deserve
the gems of your affection, shining so bright.

You’ll embrace those that enrich your existence.
The guardian angels and mad hatters, who
make your soul tap dance to the music of the mighty,
whilst unleashing a belly laugh like no other.

You’re a working woman who’s a work in progress.
Learning the art of adulthood
whilst darting in and out of Neverland,
a commute full of surprises.

You’ll see the light, or maybe just sense.
Realising that grades don’t measure success,
those pointless paper squiggles have nothing
on you.

It’s the year of you and you should be excited.
Because great things lie ahead for the
dreamers with a passion, so open your eyes
and get ready.

© Sarah Mullaney