Slowly made her way into my heart,
But so fast to leave me stranded.
Allowing myself to care whole-heartedly,
Only to be heartbroken by the person
Who once made me feel complete.

Her smiles and hugs used to fill me
With happiness, but now only
Bring a great source of pain.
How can she be so happy, while
Removing the smile off my face?

Letters of love written to me,
Each word now meaningless sentiment;
Every word written was a lie.
Said that she loved me too much to hurt,
Now she's knife deep into my heart.

Promises of an everlasting love
Are all broken. Her love for me is lost.
Or maybe I am too foolish, perhaps,
She never loved me at all...
Such a misery to have an unrequited love.

I am everything
And I am nothing.
I am big
And I am small.
I am frightened
And I am brave.
I am empty
And I am whole.
I am happy
And I am sad.
I am strong
And I am weak.
I am lonely
And I am fulfilled.
I am optimistic
And I am cynical.
I am hopeless
And I am hopeful.
I am right
And I am wrong.
I am selfless
And I am selfish.
I am lost
And I am found.

I am ironic.
I am not quite psychotic.
I am oxymoronic.

I am me.

The last poem I am wasting on you.

After all the **** the world has put me through.

I will never die, no matter what your eyes may see.

Within your mind there is no decay, believe and it will set you free.

Death and Life are one in the same.

There is nobody else that I can blame.

I give my flesh so you can win.

I lost everything all my friends.

I opened so many doors that a normal life could not be anymore

I broke so many hearts so I could not escape it ******* tears me apart.

Just want to be happy but it is too late.

Wish I could start over but this is faith.

I love all but it wasn't enough.

If I listened would I know what I do and be who I am?

Sorry if I am different and a ******* to you, but if you only knew.

I have learned and seen so much you have no clue.

Please forgive me for I appear and open your mind to the unclear.

and just for some reason
I discovered that I deserved better
than I what I was receiving.

Have you ever noticed
that the only place
something white
isn't useful
is in a crayon box?

Where black
is our most
favorite color
to touch?
Always adding
something,
somewhere?

You fell for the worst possible girl you could ever fall for.
You fell for the girl who feels annoying in every situation, no matter what she is told.
You fell for the girl who wings her eyeliner so sharply you can't imagine her without it, but **** you want to.
You fell for the girl who teases you so terribly you're left breathless, no matter if you're inches from your cell phone screen or inches from her lips.
You fell for the girl who reuses cigarette packs, not only because she's underage and steals them, but because she feels naked without the beat up pack she's always owned.
You fell for the girl who digests the silly pop punk songs she listens to and rants about them until all she can think about is the Neck Deep lyric "I always pictured myself as being someone you'd miss."
You fell for the girl who refuses to meet you in the eyes because she sees the universe while she's not even the world.
How could you have fallen for her?

i learned
that my heart
is as large
as my fist,
but that
doesn't mean
that it is
as strong

ive smashed
every
single
******* mirror
in this house
because
*im so tired of seeing you
when i look at me