She chose the latter,
the easiest way,
the less complicated,
the less bumpy way.

She chose to be selfish,
she chose to inflict pain---
instead of feeling the pain,
instead of loosing the leash.

She chose to ignore the signs,
she chose to act normal,
she chose to live by,
before pulling off the gun,
atlast.

Don't let me shutter from your grip.
Don't let me melt from your warmth.
Just let me feel how to be touched,
before the light take me back.

You told me that we will lasts,
But we didn't,
you lied,
Because the moment you said hello
It was already a goodbye.

They say once you fell in love,
he will be your world,
but they were wrong
because when I fell with you,
you have become my universe.

I saw you staying late at night,
in your small dark room
staring at your ceiling
asking for answers.

That day, I saw you getting anxious
at your office around nine.
'Coz your hot headed Boss yelled at you
because you failed to send invites.

Yet I know you did your best,
staying behind just to finish
the letters, the inputs,
the programs even the script.

The bags in your eyes get bigger every night,
While you cram to send it all.
Your eyes get watery, you become jitty,
But no one knew because you accepted the call.

I saw all your hardworks.
I saw all you pains.
I heard all the belittlings.
I heard all your pleas and cries.

Yet despite all these,
You're still here fighting.
Finishing the fight you've started.

The rope is no longer hanging,
Those blades are now kept.

To the girl who thought of death lately,
I salute you for being brave!

Hey, how are you?
I’ve noticed that you are not yourself lately.
You always stay up too late but wakes up too early.
You acts tough when you’re at your office, but so broken when you’re alone.

Hey, need a friend?
You know that you can count on me.
Haven’t I prove my loyalty to you?
That no matter what I learned from you, no one will know unless you let me to.

Hey, don’t be too harsh to yourself.
Remember that it’s not always your fault.
Some people just want to power play and bully others.
As long as you don’t do bad, be at peace.

Smile more often.
I haven’t seen your genuine smile in a while.
Take risk and fall in love too.
Life is indeed not full of rainbows and butterflies,
So be with someone who cares for you.

Be strong and keep going.

You were my sun,
that lit my life.
But you are the same sun,
that blinds me up.

To defy our existence,
In this mundane world,
We need to write
With no fear and rights.

To found our voice
In every song,
We need to cry
With words and tone.

To be drown in our emotions,
Inspite of support groups,
We need to be free
From people we cannot see.

More than wanting to disappear
In between of classes,
I write,
To keep my sanity.