do i still love you?

maybe i never stopped

because on the list of those i miss

you were always at the top

I wanted to believe he was good,
but the devil in his eyes
told me otherwise.

We fell in love by chance,
We stay in love by choice.

The poet lives two lives.
One on the outside,
And one in their mind.

When you look in their eyes
You could see an abyss.

If you looked long enough
You could sink into it.

But most people don’t see it.

Take the time to read the words, though,
And you would know for sure.

The poet lives in two different worlds.

And as the wind blows through my hair I hear your voice calling my name.
I walk down the road we used to go together and I listen to the playlist you made me to feel better.
Every song I hear reminds me of you. Every word that goes into my ear makes my heart break in two.

It hurts to have both of my headphones singing me songs that we used to listen to, so I take one out and imagine you're sitting next to me and taking it, while I get closer to you.

The wind blows gently on my nose.
I don't want to hear your voice.

Let our tongues
be our swords and
our words as arrows.
Let us duel,
blood for blood
and nothing less.

I'm in love with you but
The universe doesn't want me to
It moves and grinds it's gears
It tries to make me give up
It make you unapproachable
It makes my tongue tie
It makes my heart skip a beat

I'm in love with you but
I don't know how to tell you
I write to express
So this is how I will
This is my I love you

We talked and talked all afternoon
We talked about everything from us to the moon
I wasn't until everyone had left
That I finally asked

Why do you cut

She looked stunned and suprised
She had a glossy look in her eyes
She pulled up her sleeve and there on her wrist

Cuts

Lines and lines
Never ceasing
Some fading

She told me why she cut
To feel she said
To quell the voice in her head
To fill the void in her heart
To color her soul red instead of black like tar

All these things inside her heart
Having no end
Having no start

So now she continues to cut
She continues to bleed
She didn't stop and now shes gone

All because
She cuts