I'm having a love affair
Multiple if you get down to it
The sun, he kisses my cheeks every morning
My coffee frenches my mouth
My clothes caress over my body
At night
The stars whisper sweet nothings into my ears
And the moon penetrates my being
And they all become jealous when he is near
For he gives me all of this
He adds the butterflies that wreak havoc within
I am having a love affair
One I will not quit

i want to give you hickies
all over your neck, and stomach, and thighs
i want to kiss you so much
that we forget that we need to breathe
i want to deeply love, write you poems and songs
and cry with you when it is too late to
hold it in any longer
your lips are perfectly shaped,
your eyes hold some type of magic
please let me be the one to love you
endlessly and without limits
we can do things that you
have never experienced before
i want to give you hickies
you can give them to me too,
if you want.

o.o.

4/6/16 11:01 pm

Give me the kind of love where my cheeks hurt from smiling to much
the kind of love when time is irrelevant
where my heart feels like it wants to leap out  and in its efforts pounds against my chest
give me 2am on Tuesday just because
Give me the kind of love where your kisses send shivers down my back and your hands follow suit
send my cheeks blushing
call me so you can hear my laugh cause your favorite song just doesnt do it anymore
i want to memorize the spectrum of your eyes
take me dancing in your living room with the lights on because i dont want to miss a moment of seeing you
Give me the kind of love that makes me smile when no one is around
dress up just to dress down
watch tv with me even though my team is winning
give me friday nights and sunday mornings
Give me the kind of love that covers my skin in goosebumps when i think of you

i am not that girl
what i mean is i am not that girl for you
i am not the girl that has to continuously giggle into her palms instead of telling you how she really feels, leading you on and fully engaging into the game you play so disturbingly well
i am not the girl who could willingly grasp your hand on a beach in the summer, reminding everyone, including you of how much i genuinely love you, knowing oh so subconsciously that the love i feel is completely unrequited
and i am not the girl who could roll over next to you in bed on a groggy Sunday morning just to look into your stone-cold eyes and say

'i will love you forever'

i am not that girl
what i mean is i am not that girl for you, and i can never be
because in ten years
when you reach your everlasting adult arms towards the blue sky wondering why i am no longer in your life i want you know that everything we had was never real
and i was never truly capable of whole-heardedly loving you

and i am not that girl
at least not anymore