Why now?
That things were looking up
You act out
And everyone gets hurt.

Why now?
The one that I thought loved me left
When I needed him the most
I wasn't good enough.

Why now?
I have my life in order
And I collapse
My health laughing in my face.

Why now?
I finally get a job
And I get fired
All because of things out of my control.

Why now?
Is it that people around me are hurting
Physically and emotionally
And there is nothing I can do to help.

Why not now?
Can life just give us a break
Let us live and maybe thrive
For once.

I have a demon in my room
It's like I live in a tomb
Every time I go to bed,
I see spirits of the dead
People say I'm lying
Let's see you live there without crying
Things move on their own
I once saw a child's bone
Things like to disappear
I look over to see it leer
It likes to see your fear
So don't let it get near
It'll give you a nightmare
And laugh as you dream of a fright fair
As you scream out
It will leave you with doubt
Smiling as you bleed out
If you go to bed
It will get into your head
And if your able to dream
It will make reality not as it seem
Don't close your eyes
Your life will become a bunch of lies
And if you break down and cry
...Well don't do that, or you'll die

I couldn't speak
Say something!
Tell them what's wrong!

I couldn't move
Pick your feet up!
Don't make them carry you!

My body was trembling
It hurts!
Stop hurting!

In and out I went
Where am I?
Who is touching me?

I was paralyzed
although there was nothing wrong

My mind had become a jail

Life was turning me into a prisoner

And my body had given up

No breathe
Can leave my body

No movement
My chest remains dormant

No life
Resides within me

No more
Pain I have to hide

No lies
Left residing upon my face

No mask
That once hid my tears

No heartbeat
No soul
No sorrow

Just bliss

Fly high,
Thats what I wished to do.
To be able to be untouched.
Untouched by all those that lie.

Fly high,
Run my hands through the clouds.
And see what the birds see.
Far up in the sky.

Fly high
So no one can find me.
And i'll be free from judgement.
I wont even say good bye.

Fly high,
Seems so close yet so far.
So many ways to do it.
I look myself in the eye.

Fly high,
Is easy enough.
I just need to let go.
Let go and die.