Rhianecdote

Rhianecdote Jun 2015

You can't lie to me

So don't fool yourself into thinking your lack of honesty was sparing me

I knew

You can't lie to me

The only reason your lie could survive

Is cause I can lie to myself

#lies #honesty #communication #bonds #insight

Rhianecdote Jun 2015

Absence

Will the silence prove deadly

Or will it be golden?

#fear #hope #space #silence #question #absence

Rhianecdote Jun 2015

ForGive a lil more

I need to forgive you

And I need to forgive myself

For finding that such a hard thing to do

I have to forgive because I cannot forget

#hope #forgiveness

Rhianecdote Jun 2015

Forgive and Forget me Nots

What is forgiveness?

Is forgiveness some absolute
Like once you've given it
That's it?

I don't think that it is.
I think it's a constant
choice and battle against emotion.

Or maybe I just haven't truly forgiven yet

Is forgiveness the same as letting go?

I don't know
I just know that I'm not very good at that
Especially if it involves upset

Maybe it's not a matter of forgiveness but of forgetting

Maybe that would make it easy.

But it seems I'm cursed with a long and detailed memory
But memories fade surely?
Time heals and all
Yet I'm afraid
Cause attach an emotion to them
And when you feel that emotion again
They all come flying back up to the surface

Why is that?

It makes me feel like I've never truly let anything go
Or maybe when I'm in a compromised state
It just becomes more of a weight
And by God it weighs heavy!

So I wonder what is forgiveness to me?

*Forgiveness is a way to be free

#depression #mind #forgiveness #forget #emotion #memory #contemplation #wellbeing #lettinggo

Rhianecdote Jun 2015

Let me on the bus, i got a Free Oyster!

They said the world is your oyster!

So I jumped off a bridge

To see if there was any truth to it

Would it swallow me up

Make use of the ****

Spit me back out

Having made a pearl from it

#suicide #depression #dark #question #hardship #wordplay

Rhianecdote Jun 2015

I can't Ideal

Maybe it's cause I refuse to give up my ideals

Maybe it's cause I can't live up to them myself

Maybe it's cause they're compromised by how I feel

**Emotions don't always bode well with Ideals

It's hard out here for an emotional idealist

#love #self #depression #honesty #emotion #confusion #hardship #care #struggle #idealism

Rhianecdote Jun 2015

Lie! nice to meet ya!

When they ask how you are

lie

Lie

and

LIE

Some more

It's sad how I think this way of dealing with life is encouraged. People don't really open up to each other and I think it's cause they don't believe others will listen or help but I hope we will all keep the faith and tell people how we really feel if we need to

#truth #worry #life #lie #wellbeing #concern #consideration